[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-above-destiny":3,"chapter-above-destiny-above-destiny-chapter-46":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"chinese","Above the Heavenly Fate",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},2225731,4117,"Chapter 46","above-destiny-chapter-46",46,"\u003Cp>The editor sent me a message this morning saying it launches early this morning.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's launching again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So fast.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It feels like I uploaded the new book just yesterday; no, I should say, the last time I finished a book feels like it was just yesterday... That state of vigorous vitality and all things competing is still before my eyes; how did it turn into my launch day in the blink of an eye?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Someone must have sped up my time flow; I hope they stand up and confess quickly. Don't let me catch them, or they'll have a hard time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Of course, it could also be because happy times are always short... right?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But I don't seem to have been very happy!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Facts prove that this damn life passes just this fast; no matter whether you are happy or not, only when you are suffering does a day feel like a year. For example—writer's block, writer's block, and writer's block.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's strange; when I wasn't uploading, I could easily write thousands or tens of thousands a day, and the stockpile grew fast, but once I started a new book, life wasn't good anymore.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A small block every three days, a big block every five days; blocking back and forth, blocking away the old times, blocking little Duoduo bald. Every day I'm trembling, walking on thin ice, just wanting to post on Moments to ask if I can reach the other side.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Who the hell knows if I can, I don't even know!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So I'm hesitant, so I'm indecisive, so when it feels like a day is a year, I feel like I'm wasting my time. But when I look back, I find that the days were actually too fulfilling, so fulfilling that sometimes I can't even believe it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I often look back at what I've written, and most of the time I feel like it was written damn well; how could I write such amazing things? And more often, I'll roll around and howl, feeling like I can never write such amazing things again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sometimes, I will focus on watching some plots I like, because I still remember how happy those days were when I wrote that part. And there are some plots I will subconsciously skip and ignore, because those days weren't very smooth or were very bad.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I haven't written a diary since I graduated from elementary school, but now when I look back at those stories, I feel like my unremarkable past is appearing before my eyes again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Updates are like turpentine; when they fall from the branches, they wrap around the past me, and after a period of time, the memories of the past will appear in the update list, like neatly arranged amber.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I wrote this chapter, Bai Ze celebrated my birthday; when I wrote that chapter, Duoduo was sick; I remember I was very sad when this plot was updated; that plot was really difficult to write, I stayed up very late, but now it seems the effect is really good... Those trivial past events are tucked into the gaps after the plot, hidden in corners I didn't notice. When I look back, they suddenly jump out and appear before my eyes when I'm not paying attention.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Such distant things, you guys still remember them for me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Really amazing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This job still has some benefits, right?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Since I started writing full-time, my life has become monotonous and boring.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Most of the time after opening my eyes every day is spent in front of the computer; after finishing writing, I collapse on the chair, unable to move. I gave up socializing and going out, no longer contacting others, and don't talk much to other people. After a long time, I became unwilling to take the initiative to send messages to people, immersed in my own little world every day, and over time, I seemed to become transparent.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Looking back now, while feeling a sense of loss, I also feel...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's damn awesome!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>How can there be such a good thing in the world?!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What was I doing earlier? Oh, I think I started writing earlier.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Thinking about it this way, it's even more awesome.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I was young, I often thought, this world is so dark, I'm going to fight, fight, fight and overturn everything! After I was no longer young, I felt that although this world is a mess, at least I found the place where I can be most at ease.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As long as I can write something, I feel happy.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If readers can like it, then I feel it's worth gritting my teeth.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Of course, if I didn't have to update every day, it would be even better; this life would be like a paradise with milk and honey flowing in the river and figs growing on the trees.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If I could write a book that readers would remember for a lifetime, then my life wouldn't have been spent in vain, right?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So, work harder, grit my teeth a bit more, and endure it; it doesn't seem like anything.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I was fourteen, I imagined that after leaving my hometown and going to places I had never been, I could live a life of accomplishment. I didn't know what a life of accomplishment was at the time, but if possible, at least try to achieve a little more.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Looking back now, I find that in fifty years of life, being able to do one thing well is already very remarkable.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If I could do a few more things well, that would be really amazing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Looking at it this way, I don't seem as unsuccessful as I thought; at the very least, I can support my family, take good care of Bai Ze and Duoduo, and at least let Duoduo live a life of free dog food. Well, actually, Bai Ze and Duoduo are taking care of me... But I also contribute; at least as the person being taken care of, I provide a lot of valuable emotional value, okay!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If life is a battle, then let's go kill together; I'll be responsible for the \"ga-ga,\" because I have a loud voice!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But besides nagging about life, there's only work left.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Writing, updating, writer's block, it's starting again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It is foreseeable that the future will be such a cycle, year after year, month after month. I hope one day I can live a beautiful life of writing smoothly every day without writer's block, but that is too far away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If there's writer's block, then block; I have to write even if I'm blocked.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If there's no inspiration, go find it; wherever it is, go to the ends of the earth, and if it's not found in either place, then I'll change to another place.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Big or small, I can always find it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If I can't find it, I'll look again, pretend I found it, and grit my teeth to continue writing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Now, \"Above Destiny\" is about to launch; even though the stockpile is sparse and the future is unknown and uneasy, after being anxious for so many days, I actually feel a hint of relief, a kind of refreshing feeling of finally being sent to the guillotine after dragging it out for too long.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No need to hesitate anymore, the plan is set.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The endless trek has begun again; no matter if you are prepared or not, you have to keep moving forward.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I hope luck and creativity can still favor me as always.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I also hope you can like my small achievements.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After a long time, we meet again at the starting point of the journey; now, this Heavenly Track Flight · Doomsday Train is about to depart, Train Captain Ji Jue has been waiting for a long time, please passengers hold your tickets and board in an orderly manner.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I sincerely hope everyone has a pleasant journey.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I also hope that in the future, we can meet again at the destination.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Thank you all!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Thank you!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Duoduo and I love you, really!\u003C\u002Fp>",1343,"2026-06-17T22:07:39.404Z",1,"Gemini 3.1 Flash Lite","e571f3da60d45c5a3be6b33e0033b0d281c2c88793451be10b5e375d640819b4","above-destiny-chapter-47","above-destiny-chapter-45",461,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fabove-the-heavenly-fate-cover.jpg"]