Chapter 324: Talking About the Past with Zhengzheng

"The past. Whatever the past is, you won't bring it up again, my cruel mother, right?" Zhengzheng finished, showing a look of not wanting to listen.

Because his mother Hui Ling had caused him great harm in the past.

Back then, Hui Ling had planned to trade Zhengzheng's kidney to the drug dealer Zhang Baoqiang; fortunately I discovered it and stopped it in time.

So he is unwilling to bring it up.

His mother was executed by firing squad for dealing drugs of type D, which left a huge shadow over Zhengzheng.

I feel that the things Zhengzheng likes are not what ordinary people like, and his words and actions are all related to his past upbringing.

His cowardice and his rebellion both indicate his psychological immaturity and his self‑protective instinct.

"Zhengzheng, you know you have strong opinions about your mother, but she's already dead,

but after all she gave birth to you; if she hadn't, you wouldn't have come into this world.

Sometimes let the past stay in the past. Don't keep resenting your mother." I said, looking at Zhengzheng.

Zhengzheng said nothing,

just lowered his head and slowly ate his food.

After a while, Zhengzheng finally said, "Dad, to be honest, I'm not grateful to her at all. She really

shouldn't have given birth to me.

If I didn't exist, my life wouldn't be so painful.

Hmph, she's completely irresponsible; she gave birth to me and then abandoned me. I grew up

without a mother's love.

I grew up with my grandma.

Grandma gave me up, so I followed Da Jun's mother in Niushiling,

lived there,

then I was with Aunt Zhou in Zaocheng,

now I'm with Aunt Ya Ling,

it's really meaningless."

Zhengzheng finished speaking and tears fell down.

This child's fate is also bitter,

seeing the tearful Zhengzheng, I reached out, patting his shoulder,

"Zhengzheng, I know you're suffering inside, but this is unavoidable. The past

you have lived has been turbulent and wandering,

I hope these hardships you endure will make you stronger.

"Why do I have to become a man. I suffered enough when I was young; now that I'm grown, I don't want to suffer anymore."

My own childhood wasn't happy either.

Having lost my mother early, I was adopted by my aunt, who is your

Hearing Zhengzheng say that, I felt even more sad.

However, I feel that a person needs to endure some hardship when young; only then can one be forged and truly

Zhengzheng has neither of those two things, yet he lives however comfortably he likes.

Zhengzheng, I'm disappointed with how you are now. You have no trace of a man's spirit."

"Why should I become a man? I already suffered enough as a child; now that I'm grown, I don't want to be tormented any more.

I also don't want to take responsibility, I don't want to mature; I just think about how to live comfortably however I like."

Zhengzheng said it indifferently.

Hearing Zhengzheng say that, I felt even more sad.

I hope the children I raise can each become outstanding talents, with independent personalities and mature mindsets.

Zhengzheng lacks both of those, and just lives however he finds comfortable.

That's what he calls a free life.

It seems Zhengzheng still needs a long time to straighten himself out.

I took out a cigarette,

and asked Zhengzheng, "Want a puff?"

Zhengzheng took it,

then lit it for me,

I whispered, "Zhengzheng, I know why you want to study abroad; you want to leave this place forever, right,

to live in an environment where no one knows you. That way no one

will know your past."

Zhengzheng fell silent and took a drag.

"Dad, I want to ask you something,

I heard Brother Da Jun say that neither he nor I are your biological children. Is that true?"

After I finished speaking, I took a puff of smoke; that wispy smoke floated before my grandfather and me, as if suddenly we were back over twenty years ago.

"Da Jun told you."

"From now on, Wang Xinsheng, you just follow me; I guarantee you'll eat well and drink well." Zhou Haidong said loudly in front of me.

"He said, we each have our own fathers; we are your adopted sons. So my biological

Time passed so quickly; Zhou Haidong had long been dead, and even where he was buried nobody knows. He has long turned to loess.

"Sigh, today I just want to talk with you about the past, to let you know.

【61】 Zhengzheng, you're not my biological child, that's true.

【62】 I've always wanted to tell you, but couldn't find the chance.

【63】 Now that it's New Year, the two of us grandfathers are reunited. We'll lay everything out, so you know your origins. Your biological

【64】 father." I finished and took a drag, and the wisping smoke drifted before the two of us grandfathers,

【65】 floating as if we were back twenty years ago,

【66】 the scene of Zhou Hailong and I sitting together eating.

【67】 "After Wang Xinsheng,

【68】 you'll work with me, I guarantee you'll eat well

【69】 and drink spicy food." Zhou Hailong said loudly in front of me,

【70】 "Brother Hailong, don't worry, I'll do whatever you ask." I was trying hard to prove myself to Zhou Hailong.

【71】 Time passed so quickly that Zhou Hailong died long ago, and no one even knows where he was buried,

【72】 it has long turned to dust.

【73】 Zhengzheng looked at me and then asked quietly,

"Dad, then who is my biological father? Do you know him?"

I nodded,

"I certainly know him; his name is Zhou Hailong, he's from Qi He. Over twenty years ago, in Qi he zhen, he was a prominent figure."

I used to work with him."

"Where is he now? You won't bring me to meet my relatives, will you?" Zhengzheng said.

"He's dead." I took a puff of cigarette.

"Dead?" Zhengzheng asked.

"Yes, he's dead, chopped to death by someone." I said.

"Oh, he used to be a gangster. My mom was shot dead, my biological father also died. Dad, I know all about your past."

"Sigh, I thought I would have to meet my relatives, but now I don't even need to. Dad, I feel very relieved." Zhengzheng then raised his wine cup and started drinking.

I also raised my wine cup, but didn't drink,

I slowly poured the wine onto the ground,

"Older brother Zhou, I don't know how you are in the afterlife, but today I told Zhengzheng that you are his biological father, hoping you are aware down there."

I, Wang Xinsheng, used to hang out with you.

You entrusted Hui Ling to me, so I could protect her and her child.

I, Wang Xinsheng, have done that.

But Hui Ling went to the south, engaged in shady business, and was shot dead. You can see her in the afterlife.

I have also raised Zhengzheng to adulthood,

I originally wanted to bring him to meet his relatives, but even your grave cannot be found.

I, Wang Xinsheng, am a grateful person; believe me and entrust her and her child to me.

I have done that, Older Brother Zhou; may you rest in peace in the afterlife."

After I finished speaking, I poured all the wine in the cup onto the ground.

Suddenly Zhengzheng cried out in pain.

The chopsticks fell to the ground.

I hurriedly asked: "What's wrong, Zhengzheng?"

"Dad, I feel like someone wants to hug me." Zhengzheng said.

I felt a chill over my body,

No need to ask; it's Zhou Hailong coming to see Zhengzheng.

In a panic, I said to Zhengzheng,

"Zhengzheng, quickly kneel and call 'dad' twice; go well on your journey, go well, so that your father can hurry away; he has come to see you."

Zhengzheng, frightened, immediately knelt on the ground.

"Dad, go well on your journey; dad, go well on your journey."

Only a gust of wind was heard blowing outside the window.

Then there was no further movement or sound.

Zhengzheng rose from the ground, looked at me, and his face turned pale from fright.

He softly asked me: "Dad, do you really think there are ghosts in this world?"

I said: "There should be; if not, how would you feel someone hugging you? Your father Zhou Hailong has come to see you."

"What does my biological father look like?" Zhengzheng asked curiously.

"Alas, back then no photo was left. Your father is quite handsome; your nose is as straight as his."

"Your father speaks with great presence and has courage; he likes to wield a knife and chop people all day. There is a scar on his face."

"You are far inferior to your father. I even doubt whether you are really Zhou Hailong's son, you're so cowardly and weak."

Hearing me say that, Zhengzheng felt very embarrassed.

"Dad, look at what you're saying. Men fighting and killing is meaningless. In this regard, I am like you, very cultivated; I should be your biological son."