Chapter 189: What You Want, I Cannot Give

This was the first time Ling Wu had seen him lose control.

Chu Yi reached out to stroke his face, pressing his fingertips against the corner of his eye to transfer the warmth of his skin, his gaze lingering as if caressing that small mole hidden in the folds of his eyelid, and he said, "Do you remember now? That day when you were talking to Yu Shixue on the deck, I was listening from the viewing balcony on the second floor!"

"What..." Ling Wu was a bit dazed.

Perhaps because this action of Chu Yi's was a deliberate imitation of Yu Shixue, it instantly dragged Ling Wu back to that day's scene, and unable to bear it any longer, he pushed Chu Yi away: "You were spying on me?"

He simply could not understand why Chu Yi would do such a thing.

The two people in the room had different thoughts on their minds.

Chu Yi was very stubborn, continuing on his own: "I heard him say he liked you, and he also said Wei Ranxu liked you; it's not just him, others do too... Recently, there have been rumors in Beidu City that the Jin Family and the Yu Family are going to have a marriage alliance. Is it true?"

"Ling Wu, tell me, is it true?"

"Don't enter into a marriage alliance with him, I know you don't like him, do I still have a chance?" Chu Yi pulled his hand up to the cigarette burn on his collarbone and kissed his arm again: "Look at me, I will fight and scramble for whatever you want to do, you can even use me, none of that matters, I am willing, please look at me..."

The news of the marriage alliance was spread by people sent by Yu Shixue.

Ling Wu was busy with experiments all day, and he had no idea at all.

His arm felt numb from Chu Yi's kisses; Ling Wu struggled twice, watching his gradually sinking profile with cold eyes, and hit the nail on the head: "Are you begging me to like you?"

Ling Wu's words were quite hurtful; he believed that with Chu Yi's noble status, it was impossible for him to bow his head to the word "begging" at this moment.

As long as he rejected him first, everything would be easy to discuss once Chu Yi calmed down later.

"Yes." Chu Yi took his finger into his mouth: "I am begging you to like me."

He was one step away from lowering his stature into the dust.

A humble plea that made one unable to bear it.

Ling Wu did not expect him to bow his head; the momentary shock made him forget that his finger was still in Chu Yi's mouth, being continuously sucked, and he curled his legs, subconsciously saying: "You..."

Chu Yi immediately interrupted his words and asked a question he had wanted to know for a long time: "You know what the password to my phone means, right?"

"Yes," Ling Wu said.

He had known this back in the tunnels of the Fu Family; Ling Wu just hadn't said anything.

He tried to talk to Chu Yi properly, softening his tone as much as possible: "Friends is the most perfect relationship we have right now; isn't it good for us to maintain the status quo? Let's stop here."

Ling Wu was no longer angry, and he gradually calmed down.

But Chu Yi did not want to hear these things he was saying; his dampened hair clung to the sides of his cheeks, making his complexion look deathly pale, but those eyes were exceptionally deep and dark, like emotions that were difficult to suppress even when restrained to the extreme...

He knelt on the sofa with both knees, pinning Ling Wu's legs between his own.

This posture, which clearly carried a hint of intimacy, was made to feel full of oppression by Chu Yi.

Chu Yi quietly traced Ling Wu's brows and eyes with his gaze, instead answering the question he had asked earlier, explaining: "Ling Wu, actually, I didn't spy on you at all. When we were on the cruise ship, I had been standing on the balcony from the very beginning; it was just that you didn't notice."

Chu Yi dared not spy on Ling Wu, nor did he want to; he didn't want to be like a thief or a rat, only able to hide in dark places to peek into his life.

Hearing his words, Ling Wu realized he had misunderstood, and said apologetically: "Sorry, I blamed you wrongly."

"It doesn't matter."

Chu Yi did not blame him: "If it's you... it doesn't matter, no matter what."

Ling Wu lowered his eyes.

He could not give a response.

Thus, Ling Wu also opened his heart to him, sincerely meeting his gaze, his firm and closed-off expression softening a bit, with a sense of sorrow after the relief on his face: "I have no freedom and no future... what you want, I cannot give."

【Author's Note: There will be another turning point for Chu Yi later. I believe the foundation of this character is very complex, which can also be seen from the psychological descriptions in the early stages. Deep down, he is paranoid and pathological, but he hides it well on the surface. He grew up in a very dirty environment, witnessing the dark sides of human nature such as greed, selfishness, jealousy, and cruelty. The Slums, that melting pot of all kinds of people, dyed him into what he is. When he was at the Academy in the early stages, he had no power or status; he knew how to endure and bide his time, but when he suddenly gained power, he was actually a bit at a loss, though he adapted quickly. Inferiority and paranoia became the foundation of his personality, which he is slowly trying to uproot. He didn't consider much before because he couldn't even fill his stomach; he had to give up the things he liked or wait for them to come to him on their own. When a person has nothing, they don't care. As the saying goes, it is easy to go from simple to luxurious, but difficult to go from luxurious to simple. He is at this stage. He has the ability now, so he has broken the rule that he must give up the things he likes. The news of the marriage alliance between the Yu Family and the Jin Family is the fuse that lit the wick. If he fights, he might not lose; if he doesn't fight, he can only lose.】

【The perspective of this text revolves around Ling Wu, and I have left appropriate gaps in many places, but it is not without substance. I believe Chu Yi's character design has not collapsed.】

【Warm reminder: Forced love is not going to be Chu Yi, please see the later text for the turning point.】