Chapter 102: Not Wanting Children

Axi didn't know what silk was, and suddenly her eyes brightened, "Qinghuan, is the clothing you're wearing made of silk?"

He looked enviously at the garments on Nan Qinghuan, so light and beautiful, wishing that someday she could wear them too.

Nan Qinghuan reached out and pinched Axi's little cheek, "Silly girl, yours would look even prettier and more beautiful than what I'm wearing."

"Really?"

"I can make such clothing, but Axi you have to tell me something."

Axi was a bit stunned, "Qinghuan, what do you want to ask?"

She thought for a moment, then still wanted to inquire about last night, "Axi, does Ying have anyone he cares about most in the Tribe?"

She racked her brain; aside from this situation, that man wouldn't protect anyone, and when hurt he would retaliate fiercely, but last night he wouldn't speak.

"People he cares about? Yes—Amu, and you…"

She shook her head, "No, no—aside from me and Amu, is there another woman he cares about? And the Green Copper Piece—aren't there none besides A Yue?"

She seemed to recall that only the Shamaness had it, so who is Ying protecting? She felt a sour pang in her heart, uncomfortable.

"Green Copper Piece?"

Axi was a bit startled, "Besides A Yue, no one has a Green Copper Piece. Qinghuan, why are you asking all this? All I know is that no one can hurt Ying except you."

"Me?"

Clearly that wasn't the answer she wanted, and she no longer wished to ask; Axi wouldn't understand. She got up to wash her face, but something began to flow from beneath her, and she was instantly shocked—this was bad; they'd been together many times without contraception.

She couldn't become pregnant while living in the Cave now; in this destitute Tribe, what could she raise a child with? So, no children!

"Axi, do you have that kind of thing here?"

【8】 Axi didn't know what she meant, "Qinghuan, what thing?"

Axi didn't know what she was talking about, "Qinghuan, what is it?"

Nan Qinghuan glanced outside and whispered, "Something that prevents having children."

At those words, Axi's face turned pale, "Qinghuan, that's not possible; you must give Ying a child, otherwise…"

"Alright, stop talking. Just tell me where there is one."

Axi became a bit frightened; if she told him, Ying would kill her—he wanted a child so badly, but… "I have something else to do, I'm leaving now."

Axi didn't want to tell her and tried to slip away, but Nan Qinghuan suddenly called after her, "Wait, Axi, do you still consider me a friend?"

The words startled Axi; she halted mid‑step, unwilling to look back, fearing Ying's scolding, but Qinghuan… "All I know is that if we don't want children, we can secretly find Shiva; Shiva gives a medicine that prevents them. But you can't do that, Qinghuan—if Ying finds out…"

"What are you two talking about?"

Suddenly, a voice from outside the Cave—Ying's—came, and Axi, terrified, turned around with a forced smile, "Ying, you're back."

Ying had returned, and she dared not say more about the issue; Nan Qinghuan saw him cradling a wild rabbit, was puzzled and hurried forward, "What is this…"

Ying felt guilty for having tormented her so long last night; this morning, instead of hunting, he went to a rabbit burrow, caught a soft, cute little Xiao Bai rabbit to give her, hoping to make Nan Qinghuan happy.

He tugged the rabbit's ear, "Qinghuan, do you like it?"

Nan Qinghuan didn't understand why he gave her a rabbit; the tiny, adorable creature made her heart melt, and she quickly reached out to take it, "What a cute little rabbit."

Ying saw she liked it and gradually smiled, a gentle, warm smile at the corner of his mouth, "When we have a child, we can let the child play with it; I'll teach him how to hunt from a young age."

"Child?"

Her smile vanished instantly; Axi, seeing the scene, hurried, "Ying, Qinghuan, I'm stepping out to prepare the wedding; don't forget tonight."

Axi left, and Nan Qinghuan stared at the rabbit, feeling even more depressed; she didn't want her child born in a poor, backward place. She gently set the rabbit down, and once released, it bolted outward, but when it saw the wild wolf Mos, it curled up into a ball—how adorable.

"Huaner, don't you like the little rabbit?"

Nan Qinghuan was a bit helpless, she bit her lip and turned away, "Ying, can we speak properly?"

Ying's smile gradually faded; his expression grew complex, and he slowly moved behind her, looking at her straight back, he clenched his fist, "Huaner, what do you want to say?"

Nan Qinghuan recalled that last time, because of the child issue, they had almost come to blows; although Ying's temper had improved, he was still a wild man who didn't reason.

Seeing her stay silent, Ying's gaze grew colder; he suddenly strode around to her front, gently pinched her shoulder, forcing her to look at him.

"What are you doing?"

"Are you trying to say you don't want to bear my child?"

Ying's eyes stared straight at her, leaving Nan Qinghuan feeling helpless; she bit her lip, "I didn't say I won't have children, it's just…"

"Just what?"

Ying felt he had been patient enough; if other females were eager to bear him a litter, he could wait, but Nan Qinghuan stubbornly refused, and though he could wait, he wasn't sure he had the patience.

Nan Qinghuan lifted her eyes to meet his; he was tall, standing before her and blocking the outside light, so she had to look up to see his face clearly.

The atmosphere in the Cave grew tense, yet she suddenly laughed, "Look at you getting nervous; having children depends on fate, it's not something you can just will into existence."

Those words made Ying suddenly realize he had misunderstood her; she didn't refuse to have children.

He casually reached out, pulling her into his arms, holding her tightly, his heart instantly delighted, gently stroking her back to ease her tension, "Huaner, I'm willing to wait for you, but I don't want to wait too long, understand?"

The little rabbit, frightened back by Mos, returned; Ying gently pushed Nan Qinghuan aside, then cradled the rabbit in his arms, softly petting it, his gaze shining with a paternal glow, as if the rabbit were the child he longed for.

"Huaner, if we have a child, it will surely be cuter than this rabbit."

Nan Qinghuan stood still, watching Ying there fantasizing that the rabbit was his child; the thought of giving birth to her own child here would jolt her awake even in her dreams.

No, absolutely no children!

Soon, Ying was called away to attend to business; now Nan Qinghuan could move freely, and since Ying wasn't watching her, she prepared to seek Shiva for that kind of medicine.

Just as she stepped out of the Cave Entrance, she saw Acai walking toward her, "Goddess, you're finally out; today the Tribe is so lively, there's a wedding."

Thinking of the sibling pair's wedding, she suddenly felt regretful, wondering how she had forgotten this, her mind clouded by Ying's desire for a child.

"Acai, thank you for yesterday; you can rest today."

"Goddess, I'm not tired; where are you going? I saw Ying and Dashan go chopping trees, and they brought Jingang."

"Jingang, is it also there?"

"It was taken by Youchao Xuan; now Jingang obeys him well. Goddess, where are you heading?"

Nan Qinghuan coughed, she didn't want to walk too closely with Acai; she knew exactly what she was thinking, "I'll just wander around casually; you go about your business."

After dropping those words, she turned and was about to leave, and Acai said nothing, only gave a strange look at her departing back, and thinking of the things soon to happen, a smug smile gradually curved her mouth.

"Nan Qinghuan"