Chapter 154: Deeply Rooted in Love

Deeply Rooted in Love

"You didn't kill Bo Ren, but Bo Ren died because of you, you... can you really do it without any obstacles in your heart?"

Ruan Ci asked this, and everyone was stunned. Qu Qu Tan Yue sighed lightly and signaled Young Master Chong to walk further away with her to show respect. Ruan Ci was neither far nor near to the two of them, obviously not wanting to confide her heart, so she also considered Ruan Ci's wishes.

Mo Shenai was also stunned, then smiled, "Ruan Fellow Daoist, are you thinking of your sister? Actually, you should understand the truth. Everyone is not a fool. Not to mention going out of the sect to handle errands, even in the sect, who knows when a change will happen? Before she struck the Wind and Wave Bell, she naturally considered everything. If you are close to her, you should appreciate and praise her courage, right? Anyone knows that her handling is already the best result, but not everyone has her decisiveness."

What Mo Shenai said, how could Ruan Ci not know? Her emotions were also extremely complex, not just heartache, reluctance, or resentment for her own weakness. To say that it was all dissatisfaction with this world, that was not right. Probably everything had some, more of it was a kind of trapped anger. Because she sighed, "Or maybe I am not missing Rong Jie, but I don't like being trapped by love. Even if I know she is not helpless, but actively chooses, but my heart still has many reluctance and thoughts, low and dim. Life in the world, there are so many sceneries to see, so many mysteries to explore, so many things to do, and the world is so turbulent, cultivators are all precarious, being able to live safely is already very lucky, but why should there be so many painful feelings, surging like tide, making my heart unable to be happy, often low, and often driven by these feelings, doing some impulsive things that shouldn't be done."

She and Mo Shenai met by chance, and the best result in the future is to part ways, but the more so, the more she could say her heart words. If she said this to Qu Qu Tan Yue, she would have to calculate Qu Qu Tan Yue's possible suspicion and reaction. She said she was dominated by these feelings and did impulsive things, is it saying that she and Young Master Chong's awkward relationship? Would Qu Qu Tan Yue think she was jealous? It is also strange to say that in the days when they reunited in the Baoyun Sea, she felt that getting along with Qu Qu Tan Yue was quite harmonious and interesting, and she had some good feelings for him in her heart. But I don't know if it is related to the backlash of the seed of love. These few meetings, as the interests of the two became more and more entangled, and Qu Qu Tan Yue did more and more things for her, Ruan Ci felt more and more dislike for the relationship between the two, but would rather everything be a transaction, so that it would be neat.

Mo Shenai didn't expect Ruan Ci to be so frank, and was speechless for a while, looking at Ruan Ci thoughtfully, and suddenly sighed, "You little girl, how can you be so simple? You and I are enemies, not friends. You tell me these feelings, it is like giving me a knife that hurts people. If I were those evil cultivators, I could take advantage of this spiritual gap, sneak into your sea of consciousness, and plant seeds. Do you know?"

She was usually so naughty, and she would never suffer on her mouth, but at this time she had a trace of tenderness. Ruan Ci got this trace of pity, but felt better in her heart. She smiled at Mo Shenai, with a trace of ridicule, and was about to speak, when she suddenly remembered the seed of love, and had to smile, "So I told you, not my official, I am afraid she would take advantage of the situation and plant some seeds for me, that would be bad."

She said this half-truth and half-false. In the distance, Qu Qu Tan Yue seemed to laugh. The two women didn't care. In the Cold Rain Marsh, Qu Qu Tan Yue wanted to keep them safe, so she naturally had to monitor them from time to time. Walking away a little, it was just better on the surface.

Mo Shenai said, "I advise you, it is better to tell these words to the person you trust most in the future. In the cultivation world, there is not much human feeling. You must not show weakness in front of others. Even me, don't I have sad things? Don't I have the same low and aggrieved feelings as you, treating love as a burden? But those grievances and privacy of mine, I won't tell you a word. After all, you and I are not friends at all, and you don't want to make friends with me. If there is a chance, I will escape, escape from the Cold Water Marsh, find a senior brother to kill your official, and grab you back to our Taiwei Gate."

She made a very scary face at Ruan Ci again to show her cruelty, but although she said so, after a while, she couldn't help humming, "Even if you have such a depressed mood, what is there to say? If you don't like the feeling of being trapped by love, after you cultivate to Nascent Soul, you can refine the Wisdom Sword and cut off the love silk. At that time, you won't have any feelings, and you won't be trapped by love. But my father said that this is not a good thing. People should still have feelings."

Ruan Ci was slightly startled, but she didn't expect the Wisdom Sword to have this use. Mo Shenai saw her surprise in her eyes and said proudly, "Cultivation is not for this, what else can it be for? As long as your cultivation is high enough, you can naturally get what you want. You are really a country bumpkin who has never seen the world."

Ruan Ci smiled, "Perhaps, but even the Dao Ancestor cannot truly get what he wants. Perhaps when you reach the cultivation level you have in mind, you will find that what you want is no longer what you are craving now, and you have new things that you cannot get, floating in your heart."

Mo Shenai thought about it and smiled, "That won't happen, because I don't have anything I crave now. Oh—yes, I didn't have it before, but now I have it. When my cultivation is reached, I will catch you and tie you up like a monkey. If you make me unhappy, I will force you to squeak, just like a monkey."

Ruan Ci couldn't help laughing, "Oh? I don't know how a monkey calls, why don't you call a few more times for me to hear?"

Mo Shenai couldn't help but be furious, and swore again, saying how she would arrange Ruan Ci after becoming Dao, so that she could vent this evil spirit. The two argued all the way, and the smile on Ruan Ci's face gradually increased. The four were much more harmonious than before. The cold water that was a bit chaotic due to the storm gradually became clear. Qu Qu Tan Yue said, "The Cold Rain Flower field in the upper layer here should still have some harvest. If you estimate it this way, about half of the flower field has been affected. It is much better to go inside here. After all, that place is close to the boundary and often has wind and waves, and the mermaids are too lazy to manage it. If you go inside here, some mermaids will occasionally come to comb the water area and reconcile spiritual energy. Let's wait here for a few days, and when another me comes in, you can go to the mermaid market to stroll, perhaps you can receive some news about the Flower King."

Ruan Ci was startled when she heard this, and asked, "Another you? Is it Foundation Establishment cultivation? Where are you going?"

Qu Qu Tan Yue smiled, "I don't know about this, I only know that the main body has sent another incarnation. It is best not to meet between incarnations. When he comes, I will go with Chong Lang. This time I went out, it was also to protect you and hurried over, delaying him a lot of things, and now it is time to go and handle it."

A trace of worry flashed on her face, as if there was something she wanted to say, but that emotion soon disappeared. Ruan Ci saw it, and her heart moved, secretly saying, "This incarnation shouldn't have given birth to self-consciousness, but was erased by the main body... What does she want to say to me?"

She couldn't help but think about it, and said in her mouth, "Between you and me, don't say thank you, but Young Master Chong delayed things for me, I am very sorry."

She was about to walk to Young Master Chong to thank him, but Qu Qu Tan Yue stopped her and said, "You know Chong Lang's temperament, so don't say these things. He is proud and arrogant. This time he is willing to come to the Cold Rain Marsh for me, he has already suffered a lot of grievances, so he is quite cold to you, I hope you don't take it to heart."

She said this, which is to treat Young Master Chong more closely, so she would apologize for him. Qu Qu Tan Yue's body is indeed giving all her feelings to Young Master Chong. Ruan Ci also sighed secretly, nodded and smiled, "I understand, even if I am angry, I will only be angry with you, it really doesn't matter to him."

Young Master Chong knew her status was noble, yet he did not come to curry favor, nor did he harbor hostility toward her; there was only a sense of helpless endurance. Ruan Ci did not have a bad impression of him, only some reflections on how "heroes have trouble passing the beauty's test" and "matters of the heart are the most capable of changing one's nature." A hero like him, who should have lived a life of swift vengeance and joy, had become dispirited because of his ill-fated entanglement with Qu Qu Tan Yue. Going through life and death with his beloved to save his beloved's beloved—what kind of situation is this!

If Qu Qu Tan Yue was not here, she would have many things to ask Young Master Chong, but at this time it was not appropriate. Young Master Chong didn't have these scruples of Ruan Ci. Qu Qu Tan Yue went to deal with a Golden Core early-stage demon object this day—because of the eruption of the freezing power, the storm ignited in the desperation of desperation, many demon beasts in the black water area floated up, and the Cold Rain Marsh was more dangerous than before. I don't know how many Foundation Establishment cultivators lost their lives because of this.

Because the two of them were there, Ruan Ci did not need to cross realms to fight and could preserve her strength. Usually, Young Master Chong was always on the sidelines guarding, but this time he seized a moment to come and bid farewell to Ruan Ci, saying, "Fellow Daoist Ruan, thanks to you this time, I have gained some new perspectives. If you and I were not both attached to the same person, I would certainly treat you with great courtesy, or even follow by your side. But since I recognized Yue'er first, I must let you know, Fellow Daoist, that in the depths of my heart, I have actually come to regard you as a rival."

In fact, he didn't say it, Ruan Ci also knew a little about Young Master Chong's intentions. He wanted to stay with Qu Qu Tan Yue for a long time, so he could only set up a way to advance to Nascent Soul before this 'Yue'er' life ended, and cultivate to a higher cultivation level than Qu Qu Tan Yue. In this way, the incarnation devours the master, and 'Yue'er' can become the main body of Qu Qu Tan Yue, and her cultivation can go up. And if Ruan Ci has feelings for Qu Qu Tan Yue, she will naturally try to protect the main body connected to her cause and effect. That's why Young Master Chong said that he had regarded her as an opponent.

To be honest, Ruan Ci didn't care much about Qu Qu Tan Yue's life or death, but she naturally couldn't say it, just said, "Young Master Chong, thank you for coming to help me specially. I am very grateful to you, so I actually

Young Master Chong smiled slightly and said, "I understand what you mean. However, perhaps it isn't a bad thing for those cultivators of the Absolute Dao to simply devote themselves entirely to her. Those who have desires naturally carry more pain in their hearts."

These words seemed to echo Ruan Ci's low spirits from the previous days. Young Master Chong remained calm on the surface, but at this moment, he spoke to enlighten her. Ruan Ci looked up at him and said softly, "But these pains also prove that we are still alive, that we can still have ambition, and that is still a good thing, isn't it?"

She asked again, "Young Master Chong, do you... regret meeting her?"

Young Master Chong laughed, "Why would I regret it? Not to mention the opportunities I gained through her help, even my own life was originally lived in a daze, with no feelings of love in my heart. Although I could focus on cultivation, I knew no joy and had no sense of loss. How rare is it to meet someone in one's life who makes you happy? Although I have suffered much pain because of her, many inner demons of unrequited longing and tossing and turning, if I hadn't met her, it would be as if I had never lived."

Ruan Ci did not expect Young Master Chong to be so deeply in love with Qu Qu Tan Yue. Hearing this, she stared at him blankly, thinking of Meng Lingyue, and did not know what to feel. For her, it was hard to imagine the feelings of these two at this moment, but she no longer feared them like tigers as she once did; instead, she felt a faint trace of envy. Thinking about it, Young Master Chong made sense. Without great fortune, his life would stop at Nascent Soul at best, and his lifespan would eventually end. If, before his life ended, he realized he had never loved anyone, and that his time in the world left not a single trace, everything being vanity—that would be dying without result. How would that be any different from never having existed?

Perhaps Young Master Chong didn't think this way originally, but having been struck by the love-seed of the official, he unknowingly changed into this temperament. Ruan Ci found it hard to distinguish for a moment, but she just smiled and said, "That is also true; it is better for people to have feelings. If one cannot even find someone to worry about or feel heartbreak for, what is the point of living?"

Thinking of Ruan Rong again, the various restless and irritable thoughts that had arisen still existed, but she could now accept them calmly, treating them as proof that her emotions were still vivid. By letting her mood go like this, for some reason, the irritability subsided, and she even gained a trace of composure. It felt as if, should she encounter such turmoil in the future, she would not fall into a bottleneck, and her speed of refining spiritual power was even a fraction faster than before. This was precisely one of the benefits of tempering oneself.

She smiled slightly at Young Master Chong and said, "Thank you, Young Master, for your words of enlightenment. I feel much better now. I cannot wish for you to get your heart's desire, so I can only say let us encourage each other."

Young Master Chong laughed, "That goes without saying. I cannot wish for your cultivation to advance day by day either—you are already very formidable. If you were to soar to the clouds, wouldn't my own aspirations become even more difficult?"

His words were truly reasonable, and Ruan Ci could not help but agree. Her expression revealed her thoughts naturally, and she hesitated, saying, "This... it may not be entirely without hope..."

Young Master Chong laughed heartily, his heroic spirit rising, "True. Although it is difficult, it may not be without opportunity. Who can say for sure what will happen in the future?"

In Ruan Ci's sea of consciousness, a familiar aura gradually approached. Qu Qu Tan Yue had already killed the Jin Dan sea snake, stored the corpse in a storage bag, and flown back to the side of the three. He smiled slightly at Ruan Ci, waved at Mo Shenai, and laughed, "Mother Shenmu, having saved your life this time, you must be more careful next time. Fortune is something ethereal; you cannot rely on it every time."

After speaking, he gave Young Master Chong a playful glare and said, "Enough of your nonsense, let's go!"

He and Young Master Chong exchanged a smile, and the two turned into streaks of light, one after the other, drifting away into the distance. Mo Shenai sighed beside Ruan Ci, "The techniques of the Profound Soul Sect are truly bizarre. I was just standing to the side, pricking up my ears to listen to you talk, and I was completely confused! If I weren't clever, I would have had no clue at all. In this world, there are probably only the two great Demon Sects that I dare not provoke. That avatar will be coming again soon. If you have even a shred of affection for me, let me stay far away from him, lest he use some ghostly domain method on me without me even knowing."

Ruan Ci thought to herself, "If you were to meet a disciple of the Poison Sect, I'm afraid you would also..."

Just as she was thinking this, in the transparent water domain, a person walked from afar, their posture like bamboo, their spirit like jade. Mo Shenai's incessant chatter gradually faded away, and she stared at the person, unable to look away. Even Ruan Ci, who was accustomed to seeing the world's greatest beauties, could not help but pause slightly, sighing in her heart, "The official's avatar is truly incredibly handsome."

She had originally felt some dislike for Qu Qu Tan Yue, but seeing this peerless face, a smile could not help but appear on her face. She stood there without moving. Qu Qu Tan Yue walked to her side, lowered his eyes, and asked, "Why such a face? Have you been wronged?"

His tone was gentle, giving Ruan Ci a very familiar feeling, much more approachable than the female body. Ruan Ci could not help but pout, "Why did you suddenly change into such an avatar with just the right cultivation base? It shows that when you said you couldn't find an avatar before, you were lying to me. In reality, it was to let me see your other wives and test my attitude."

This body of Qu Qu Tan Yue was still at early-stage Jin Dan and could enter the Cold Rain Marsh, which did not match what the female Yue'er had said earlier about having no one available. It was not strange for Ruan Ci to have this deduction. A smile flickered at the corners of Qu Qu Tan Yue's lips, and he whispered, "This body was specifically created for this matter a month ago; I have not deceived you, my lady."

Each of his avatars seemed to have subtle differences in personality. The female Yue'er was virtuous and accommodating; the one in South Zhuzhou who practiced Qi and was cunning and slippery; the one in Hengze Heaven was romantic and extravagant; and the one who met Ruan Ci at the Jin Bo Sect was exceptionally cautious and careful. Ruan Ci had previously thought this was just one aspect of a person's personality, but after talking with Yue'er several times, she felt that perhaps it was a trace of spirituality that had spontaneously propagated within each avatar. Just like the female Yue'er, who seemed to have momentarily broken free from the influence of the main body to entrust her with something. And this time, Qu Qu Tan Yue seemed to have undergone a great change, appearing gentle and introverted, different from the personalities of all the avatars he had manifested before, lacking that glib and slightly oily quality. However, Ruan Ci did not know the reason for this change, and she could not help but feel suspicious in her heart. She sized Qu Qu Tan Yue up several times and hummed, "I don't believe it—hasn't one already come? Why manifest another one?"

Qu Qu Tan Yue lowered his head and said, "Since you don't like her, then manifesting another one is fine. If you don't like avatars, in the future, I will always come to see you in person."

He had never treated Ruan Ci poorly, but this time they met, he was even more doting than before, perhaps even excessively so—a Nascent Soul True Person would go into seclusion for decades or even centuries. If Ruan Ci wanted to see him every time and he had to travel in person, how could Qu Qu Tan Yue go into seclusion? This would naturally delay his cultivation significantly. Ruan Ci herself felt that doing this was very unreasonable and asked suspiciously, "Why? Just because I don't like avatars? If I'm still not satisfied with this and want you to kill all your wives, what would you do?"

Qu Qu Tan Yue looked at Ruan Ci for a while, as if testing how firm her intentions were. Ruan Ci felt her skin crawl under his gaze, and she suddenly remembered the moment Yue'er had hesitated earlier. A flash of insight struck her, and she understood. Just as she was about to speak, Qu Qu Tan Yue had already said, "Did Chong Jinming offend you? If he made you unhappy, I will kill him right now."

Ruan Ci now completely understood what Yue'er was worried about—she was afraid that Ruan Ci would be jealous and want to kill Young Master Chong. Given Qu Qu Tan Yue's attitude toward her, Young Master Chong would naturally be nothing but a discarded pawn, and this body of hers would also have no value and would inevitably be retracted by Qu Qu Tan Yue. That tiny bit of self-spirituality that had just begun to grow would naturally vanish into ashes, as if it had never existed!

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Updated! Sorry for the long wait, everyone. I wanted to rest for a bit last night at seven o'clock before writing, but I ended up sleeping for 14 hours and didn't wake up until nine this morning... I've been really too tired lately... With this chapter posted today, my buffer is at zero. But I still hope to have some buffer for writing this book. It seems I must take a few days off to rest properly. Let me think about the specific dates and arrange it well.

However, since I said the owed extra chapters would be returned this week, it's better to return them. I'll add them tomorrow! I'll think about the leave after I finish the extra chapters.

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