Chapter 93

"Then have you accepted it?"

This is Ze Yan's biggest concern—how could the Gu Family's apology be accepted?

Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu attended Gu Qing's funeral, and Ze Yan knew they might have already forgiven Gu Qing, but he could never forgive him.

What he lost is no less than what Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu lost.

"Whether you accept it or not doesn't matter anymore; anyway, he's gone now, this grudge should be let go."

Chu Feng sighed, and Mrs. Chu also looked worried.

Whenever Si Yun was mentioned, neither of them could feel happy.

"He's gone, but has Si Yun come back?"

Ze Yan's eyes were full of coldness.

Upon hearing those words, Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu's hearts felt even heavier.

"Ze Yan, I know you're suffering, but if we keep holding onto hatred, Si Yun won't come back."

Mrs. Chu spoke, her gaze toward Ze Yan full of pity and affection.

"But is an apology useful, Auntie? After so many years, if he truly wanted to apologize, why would he only come now?"

The question Ze Yan asked, Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu had also considered.

They understood Ze Yan's feelings, and their own feelings were no different.

But they had been waiting for Gu Qing to bow his head and admit fault; they also didn't want to hate him for life.

Hatred is useless.

Even if they hated Gu Qing, Si Yun wouldn't come back; hating him is no better than blaming themselves for not being able to get justice for Si Yun.

Over these years, they have blamed themselves far more than they have hated the Gu family.

"Ze Yan, let go of what should be let go; Uncle and Aunt just want you to be well, to live happily."

Chu Feng used to always have Ze Yan send people to secretly attack Gu Die, but none succeeded.

One reason is Gu Qing's protection; another is that he knows if Ze Yan truly wanted to strike at Gu Die, with so many opportunities, how could he fail every time?

He knows Ze Yan has never laid a hand on Gu Die, not because he doesn't hate, but because he also knows the wrongdoer isn't Gu Die.

Even if you let him strike at Gu Qing, he wouldn't be able to, because he's not the kind of person who would do such a thing.

Although Ze Yan's heart is full of hatred for the Gu family, he is very rational.

He understands that some things, once done, cannot be changed at all.

Just like, if Gu Die died, Si Yun still wouldn't come back.

Chu Feng also just wanted Gu Qing to taste the feeling of losing flesh and blood.

But now that Gu Qing is dead, this hatred seems to be slowly dissolving.

Because they have finally waited for Gu Qing's apology.

"Uncle, tell me, how can I be happy?"

Yeah, without Si Yun, how could he be happy.

He hopes every day that Si Yun will return, day after day, year after year.

But each time his hope comes to nothing; he, alone, doesn't know how many times he has felt this.

Back then, his world was filled with Si Yun, even though they were both very young.

But he doesn't think that was just childhood ignorance; otherwise he couldn't have waited for Si Yun until now.

Afterwards, every time he felt happy, it was always a memory related to Si Yun.

And what makes him suffer, what he doesn't want to recall, is also related to Si Yun.

He doesn't want to think about the past, yet it keeps appearing in his mind.

It brings him beauty, but it's all false beauty.

The former reality is now, for him, a luxury.

Chu Feng and Mrs. Chu listened to Ze Yan's words and remained silent, feeling heartache for this child from the bottom of their hearts.

Over these years, Ze Yan feared they would be lonely, so he often came over to keep them company.

When he was young, he often came because he liked it; now it's for necessary companionship.

Ze Yan knows they only have this one daughter, Si Yun, and losing her must be incredibly painful.

So he wants to come keep them company, so they can feel at least a little companionship.

Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu also know how much Ze Yan suffers over Si Yun, how much they themselves suffer, and Ze Yan suffers just as much.

They see each time Ze Yan comes to keep them company and talk, and they understand his intentions.

Before, they wanted to entrust Si Yun to him; over these years, if Si Yun were still around, they would still entrust her to him.

Only by entrusting her to him would they feel at ease; with anyone else, they might not.

Now, seeing Ze Yan still thinking of Si Yun after all this time, he is twenty-three and should also consider his own affairs.

But Ze Yan has never considered himself; Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu even feel that arranging a childhood engagement between Ze Yan and Si Yun was a mistake.

It's precisely because of this engagement that Ze Yan has long refused to consider himself.

And Ze Yan, it's not because of this engagement, but because he has decided on Si Yun and is waiting for her return.

Even if she appears, she might not remember him, might not love him anymore, and could even have fallen for someone else.

Ze Yan has thought of all this, but he just wants to see Si Yun again, as long as she's safe.

He doesn't care about how things end between them; whether good or bad, any outcome, he accepts.

"Ze Yan, you should also let go of Si Yun; I thank her on her behalf, your sincerity toward her we have all seen, but perhaps Si Yun doesn't have that fortune, Ze Yan, don't wait for her."

Mrs. Chu, as she spoke, began to choke up.

Ze Yan also didn't want to see her upset, so he stopped saying anything.

But although Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu attended Gu Qing's funeral, he still felt a pang of sorrow.

How could they forgive him like that? He didn't understand why.

If it weren't for Gu Qing, Si Yun could now be his wife, and he would always be by her side.

But now, no matter how much he wants to stay by her side, he cannot.

Even the chance to see her again is a blessing from heaven.

"Auntie, I will wait for her to come back."

Mrs. Chu and Mr. Chu sometimes felt that waiting for Si Yun's return was too agonizing, and at times they thought about accepting the idea that Si Yun had left this world.

But each time, it was because of Ze Yan—because he wanted to see Si Yun, because of his determination to wait for her return—that they regained hope in Si Yun's existence.

They thought, they too could wait for her return; that day would come.

"Ze Yan…"

Mrs. Chu's eyes were full of pity for Ze Yan; she didn't know whether his deep devotion was good or bad.

But she and Chu Feng both felt they owed Ze Yan too much.

They treated Ze Yan as their own child, both when Si Yun was around and especially after her accident.

Ze Yan has always been their reliance.

Without Ze Yan, they would truly feel life is unbearable.

"Ze Yan, if Si Yun really comes back, I will still entrust her to you."

Chu Feng said as he left the room, he didn't want He Yun and Ze Yan to see his red-rimmed eyes.

"Getting married isn't fun at all."

Zihan sighed, saying that in the evening Yu Ke and the others had come to eat hot pot as she had requested.

"Marriage isn't a game."

Yu Ke made a look of disdain.

"That's right, as long as you're happy."

Zihan laughed, saying that today she would follow Yu Ke's ideas in everything, not arguing or quarreling with her.

Yu Ke couldn't help but sigh, "What a wonderful day today."

As Zihan was eating, something suddenly came to mind; seeing Cheng Li reminded her.

Liuli had said that Cheng Li doesn't like hot pot, so why did she still come to treat them to hot pot?

She really felt her brain wasn't up to the task.

"Oh no, I brought Cheng Li to hot pot again."

Zihan whispered to Liuli beside her.

"I don't like it either; why didn't you consider me?"

Liuli retorted.

"You don't like it either? You didn't say so, and I didn't know—I just thought Yu Ke liked it, so I came."

Zihan had only been thinking about Yu Ke's wedding; since it was her big day, she had ordered hot pot, Yu Ke's favorite, but she forgot that Cheng Li was still there and that he doesn't like hot pot.

But Cheng Li was eating now, yet he didn't utter a word, just like last time when they ate together and he didn't say a word.

"We're already here and hungry; who cares whether we like it or not?"

Liuli replied.

"He's hungry but making him eat what he dislikes is not okay; I want to take him to eat something else."

"What should we eat? Want to bring me along?"

Liuli also doesn't like it; if she weren't hungry, she wouldn't want to eat.

"Don't you have a cousin? Have your cousin take you to eat."

Zihan was also thinking that it would be a perfect chance to have some alone time with Cheng Li, but she couldn't bring Liuli along, otherwise her official girlfriend would be treated like air.

Liuli had no intention of joining them; she just said it offhand—there's no way she'd go and become a third wheel.

But after hearing Zihan's words, Liuli couldn't help but roll her eyes at her.

"How is my idea not good? You go have some alone time with your cousin, and I'll have some alone time with Cheng Li—what's wrong with that?"

Besides, Yu Ke could also have some alone time with Bai Xu.

Zihan really thought her idea was great, and she secretly felt pleased with herself.

"Alright, you guys go!"

"Then we're off—you call your cousin and have him take you to eat something else."

"Got it, you guys go."

Before Liuli's words had even faded, Zihan ran over and sat down beside Cheng Li.

Liuli really wanted to tear Zihan apart—a friend who forgets her friends at the sight of beauty.

"Cheng Li, let's go eat something else."

"What's wrong? What do you want to eat?"

Cheng Li's first reaction was to think that Zihan didn't want hot pot and wanted to eat something else.

"What do you like to eat? Let's go eat that, okay? You don't like hot pot, right."

"But you do like it, don't you?"

"I don't like it—who told you I did? I want to eat something else; are you coming or not?"

"Sure, what do you want to eat?"

"Let's go!"

Zihan pulled Cheng Li up and said.

"What are you doing? Luo Zihan, wasn't it agreed that you'd treat?"

"I'll go pay the bill, you eat, I didn't say I wasn't treating—we've already had our alone time!"

When Zihan said this, her voice was loud; she didn't care if anyone heard, on the contrary, she wanted the whole world to hear.

"See beauty, forget friends."

After Zihan left, Yu Ke complained to Liuli.

"I think so too."

Liuli nodded.

"Then we'll ignore her, let her go with Cheng Li!"

Yu Ke suggested.

"I think it's okay."