[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-divine-path-system":3,"chapter-divine-path-system-divine-path-system-chapter-217":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","Divine Path System",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1563708,2028,"Chapter 217: Roxanas Journal [1]","divine-path-system-chapter-217",217,"\u003Cp>Day 1:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I don't understand, why am I not talented enough? I reached level 3 at 19 years old!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I asked my parents, they just said I am too smart and that I should use my talents for research.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No! I don't want to be smart. I don't want to spend my life between these walls. Urgh!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My brother… is talented, he is even the youngest level 9. I love my brother, but I also envy him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why can't it be me?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 10:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I tried to escape from the lab. I nearly succeeded if not for that level 8 Space Bastard.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Who does she think she is?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am Roxana Xander.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I will take my revenge one day.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 50:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was getting bored, so I started studying a few things. My parents told me I was smart. Smart enough to be considered the 0.01% in the research field.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They were wrong.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I would be in the 0.0001%.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I finished the work of four months in a week. If I am not a genius, who is?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 100:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I might be going insane.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Julius is too busy and visits me only once a month. Oh, brother, you told me you'd protect me and make me happy.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Once you become a high general, what has gotten into you? You are speaking a lot less than you used to.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>On the other hand, my parents visit me all the time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even though they don't say it, it's written all over their faces. Disappointment!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For what? They want me to research something. Anything.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Argh!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They say I'm not living up to my potential. That I am wasting my gift. As a Xander, they said I must contribute.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I sent them off saying that I am still studying the fields and I will pick one after I decide what I like.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 150:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I hate myself. Why are these things so easy to understand? Are you sure it's not written by an elementary school kid?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At this rate, I'll run out of the material. Then I have to research! Dammit!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 200:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I hate the world. It's full of imbeciles. It's not like the Abyssals are better. Everyone is an idiot!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 250:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In one week, I'm becoming an expert in anything I study.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In another week, I'm reaching the level of leading scientists.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In the third week, I start asking questions no one could think of.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 300:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fuck! I'm getting bored. I read everything I found What am I supposed to research anyway?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'Just research whatever you want~' My ass!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There are a trillion things to research on and you know what?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>None of them interests me!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I hate being here!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 400:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am depressed. I had some dangerous thoughts.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I don't know if I was trying to ignore it, but anyway, I am a prisoner.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I need to slave myself to the so-called Xander family since they provided for me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That and they're not dumb enough to lose a genius.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 500:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I…I can't do it anymore.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My research impressed my parents.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even my brother…he's a lot colder now, but he still patted me like he used to when I was young.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>…Maybe I should try to adjust to this life?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 1000:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something is wrong. I should be happy but mom and dad stopped visiting me since the last time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Are they done with me?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 2000:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My brother… told me that my parents died.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What the?! How?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Father is a Sovereign! How can he die?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He said with a remorseful face….but I saw his eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Those eyes were cold!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I broke down in front of him. I didn't know what to feel.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He knew that I understood.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Broth-Julius said that father was a threat and he hated him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There's also one thing he said before leaving. Something I couldn't believe.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He said I am free from now.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I can stop researching and just live however I want!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 2100:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was three months outside in the outside world. I felt like a tourist. I tried to adjust. I really tried.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But everything felt bizarre to me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Before knowing it, I spent 5 years alone in a lab.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It all started when I visited the Academy of Sciences.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was a nostalgic day.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I just half-assed the three years, made friends, and had fun. Even then, I was hailed as one of the most brilliant researchers.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I met my friends.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Since I didn't care in the past, I never noticed but…why are they so dumb?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The progress in the research they did in five years, I can do it in a week.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I told them how they should work harder and be smarter.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As I showed them my expertise, they were floored.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I enjoyed their envy. I enjoyed their worship.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I enjoyed everything.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If only life is like this.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 2150:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why is life like this?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I enjoyed the envy of my peers.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But before I knew it, I began to envy them.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why are they happy?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why are they content with their ape brains?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why are they not anxious, irritated over their inadequacies?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I can't stand it!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 2200:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I met two friends of mine. They are now married.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I hated their affection.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This world is so bizarre.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>People are so weird!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I'm freaking out!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>We met again at a conference.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was supposed to be a place to discuss latest findings.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>…So why the fuck are they two together again?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why is everyone smiling?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>We are scientists! Researchers!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I can't smile!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>You can't smile!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>We can't smile!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*** *** ***\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Day 2300:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I realized something…despite spending almost a year outside, I can't fit in at all.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I feel like an outsider. Like a tourist visiting a foreign planet.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I tried forming strong bonds. I tried dating someone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even if they are dumb, their EQ could be high, right?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Nothing worked out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But…it turns out, the problem was with me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Apparently, I made insensitive comments, mocked everyone, and spaced out every other minute.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Hey! It's not my fault if I space out. My Brian is telling me the solutions to one of the million problems I have in my head.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I keep thinking all the time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's not that I space out all the time, but I live in the moment for some time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That's how I lived for the past five years.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I explained it to the man I wanted.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But he did not listen. I really liked him. But he…said no.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I slit his throat.\u003C\u002Fp>",1133,"2026-06-06T07:58:11.288Z",1,"novelbin.me","eabcdd8c3f7c9101bc75a54b6ca523ff886004df111d5350bfa4f8e2ba0eef25","divine-path-system-chapter-370","divine-path-system-chapter-216",1773,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fdivine-path-system-cover.jpg"]