Chapter 164

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"Since you know his problem, how can you say there's no way?" Xue Di asked, puzzled.

"It is precisely because I know where his problem lies that I am completely helpless," Bibi Dong said.

"His mind wasn't clear before; it was most likely a lingering effect from that hellish place, the City of Slaughter. For many years afterward, he remained in a state of being half-mad and half-awake, but now, he seems to have completely sobered up."

"He has actually always known that what he pursues is impossible to achieve, but before, he didn't care about that. All he sought was the pleasure of the pursuit itself. But now that he is sober, the things he needs to consider have increased."

"But at the same time, he has no way to stop."

"The current him is just like I once was; even if he knows he has a problem, he won't openly admit it, preferring to walk one path until the end."

"At the very least, this allows him to appear a bit more decent."

Nan Feng is not collapsing in pain because his ideals cannot be realized; he has always known his ideals were merely a fantasy, and that a truly perfect human world is impossible.

Some darkness must exist, because without darkness, there is no light.

A truly perfect world is, at the same time, an incomparably desperate world.

He knows; he has always known.

It's just that before, he didn't care; his brain was missing a gear.

Now that his missing brain has returned, he has to face this reality.

Nan Feng is a very stubborn person! Even if he is wrong, he will only be wrong to the very end! Which is to say, even if he knows there is a dead end ahead, he is unwilling to stop! He is unwilling to compromise with this shitty reality!

It is precisely because she knows these things that she is helpless.

"Unless he can find a new goal, otherwise... he can almost be said to be wanting to die," Bibi Dong said.

Help humans? Help soul beasts? Or oppose the God Realm?

Meaningless.

Whether humans are strong, soul beasts are strong, or the God Realm continues to be strong, it is all the same to him.

Since it is essentially the law of the jungle anyway, why should he change it? Why should he help these people who are in a weak position? Anyway, once they become strong, they will still be like the previous batch of rulers, oppressing new weaklings.

A repeating cycle.

If Nan Feng himself had a desire for rule, perhaps he would continue to strive to become the new master, but unfortunately, he has no interest.

Hollow despair; Nan Feng no longer has anything that can support him to continue acting, so he has given up, and even the mood to resist is gone.

"In other words, he needs a stance?" Xue Di said.

"Or rather, he needs a reason?"

"Yes, but his previous stance has already been completely abandoned by him," Bibi Dong said.

"And he currently has no interest in standing on any existing side."

"I am thinking about what kind of stance could support him to continue acting, but I cannot find one."

"Can't he do it for himself?" Xue Di asked, puzzled.

Bibi Dong shook her head, "His self-desire is very weak; it cannot even support the most basic will to survive, let alone support his actions."

Nan Feng's biggest problem is that his self-desire is too weak; otherwise, even if his ideals were shattered, so what? Wouldn't being the sole master be enough?

But he has no interest in these things!

The reason Nan Feng was so crazy is precisely because he abandoned a large part of his self, so he was fearless.

But also because he abandoned too much of his self, when he sobered up, the little self that remained couldn't even support his most basic survival instincts.

In the balance between self and ideals, Nan Feng leaned too heavily toward the latter, so when the center of gravity collapsed, he couldn't even stand steady.

"Then... for the sake of others, is that possible?" Xue Di asked.

Bibi Dong was stunned, "That is probably not possible."

"Why?" Xue Di asked, puzzled.

"He..." Bibi Dong paused.

"He knows too much, and he is too realistic."

"What do you mean?" Xue Di asked, confused.

Bibi Dong thought for a moment, "Do you know why he would think of doing these things?" "Because he wants to?" Xue Di said.

"No, it's because he believes, he is certain, that apart from him, no one else in this world would do such things," Bibi Dong said.

"The reason he needs is that it must be him, and that apart from him, there is no other way."

"If there were another path, another choice, he would have no interest in doing it."

"Anyway, there are others who would do it, and anyway, if the result is the same whether he does it or not, he won't do it."

"You want him to live for others, but you have to make him certain that this matter must be done by him, and that no one else can replace him."

"And there is another big problem here: he opposes others treating an individual as the only one."

Xue Di was stunned, "What do you mean?"

"That is to say, if you feel that he is irreplaceable, and that you cannot live without him, he will think you are unreasonable and won't want to deal with you," Bibi Dong said.

"This... isn't this self-contradictory?" Xue Di was bewildered.

"It is self-contradictory; what he needs and what he hates are the same," Bibi Dong said.

"The things he needs are wrong, but these wrongs are exactly what he hates."

"And then, he cannot accept these wrongs; in other words, he cannot accept what he needs."

"..."

"Is there something wrong with his brain?" Xue Di was completely bewildered.

"Yes," Bibi Dong showed a helpless expression.

"His sensibility and his reason are completely opposed!"

"These two things cannot be balanced; one must lean toward the other, otherwise he will crash!"

When sensibility suppresses reason, Nan Feng is crazy; whether he can succeed or not, he doesn't care; he just has to do it.

When reason suppresses sensibility, Nan Feng is desperate; facing a world that cannot be changed, he will choose to destroy it.

The former is a fanatical savior; the latter is a desperate destroyer.

And when these two things maintain a balance, he gets stuck.

In previous years, Nan Feng was always switching between these two states, so his behavioral logic was inexplicable, yet it could be connected.

She had thought Nan Feng would continue like this, but now, he is inexplicably stuck!

Since coming out of the Ice and Fire Yin Yang Well, Nan Feng's thinking has become increasingly stable.

This is not a good thing.

When his mind calms down, he has no motivation.

"In other words, the only way to change him is to... mess up his brain?" Xue Di said.

"But that is impossible," Bibi Dong said.

"You should have seen how capable he is now; even you are not his match."

"To change him, one must possess power exceeding his, and act with the intention of killing him, otherwise there is no way to break his balance."

"Then does he know it himself?" Xue Di asked.

"He knows, which is why he insists on moving forward," Bibi Dong said.

"He wants to probe, to draw out Tang Chen, to probe the Asura God, precisely because this is the only way that can help him now."

"He is saving himself, but once an accident occurs in this method, he will die without a burial place."

Nan Feng knows very well what he is doing; this is the fundamental reason why she cannot interfere with him!

He is committing suicide, but this is also his only way to live.

A walking corpse, or taking a gamble.

So she cannot stop him.

Caught a cold, dizzy, only one update today...

(End of chapter)