[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-help-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster":3,"chapter-help-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster-help-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster-chapter-53":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","Help! I Do Not Want to Guide a Disaster",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1709048,2183,"Chapter 53: There Is No Us","help-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster-chapter-53",53,"\u003Cp>It was pouring heavily by the time Wenzhi arrived at the small restaurant a few buildings away from the cheap motel he was staying in.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Evening had already settled over the city. Rain hammered against the streets while people rushed past beneath umbrellas, others shielding themselves with their hands as they ran through the storm.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi stepped into the restaurant, welcomed by flickering lights and dim warmth.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The place was crowded with noise despite the weather.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He ordered takeout and waited quietly until his food was handed over to him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The moment he turned to leave, lightning flashed violently across the sky.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The lights went out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"The fuse is busted!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I almost had a heart attack.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi stared blankly for a second before grabbing his food and pushing the door open, cold wind slamming into him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The streets outside were emptier now.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He stepped into the rain without hesitation and started walking back toward the motel, water quickly soaking through his clothes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His thoughts replayed the entire day against his will.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>From telling Xinyuan to leave... To his conversation with Commander Jiang.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But no matter how much he tried to bury it, his mind kept drifting back to the other night with Xinyuan.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The touching. The heat.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The overwhelming feeling of their wavelengths connecting through every brush of skin and every shaky breath.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi grimaced hard.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He climbed the motel stairs already dripping wet from the rain, and the moment he reached the door, his heartbeat skipped instinctively.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I received a mission update a few minutes ago,\" Xinyuan had said earlier that day. \"Perhaps we should go somewhere tonight when I return.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi unlocked the door and stepped inside.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The room was dark.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He reached for the switch.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The lights flickered on.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi turned and froze.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xinyuan was lying across the bed with his eyes closed, dark hair falling messily over his face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>One of Wenzhi’s jackets was clutched tightly in his arms.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Of course he’s here.\" Wenzhi dropped the takeout onto the table and walked toward the bed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He expected Xinyuan to stir awake dramatically the moment he approached the bed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But he didn’t.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His breathing stayed calm and steady as he continued sleeping there, clutching Wenzhi’s jacket loosely against his chest.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi stared at him for a long moment.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Part of him wanted to wake him up and throw him out of the room.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instead, he simply turned away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He removed his wet clothes and stepped into the shower, standing beneath the hot water for a long while.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>How... How had he gone from desperately wanting to get away from Shao Xinyuan... to being imprinted on by Shao Xinyuan?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why him?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why did it have to be him?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi dragged a hand through his wet hair, breathing heavily.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>An Esper imprinting on a guide was like a permanent addiction.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A dependency so severe that the withdrawal symptoms made drugs seem mild in comparison.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xinyuan’s wavelength would only recognize Wenzhi as true stability now.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No other guide would ever fully work for him again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And separation? That would only become increasingly destructive over time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In simple terms, only Lin Wenzhi could stabilize Shao Xinyuan anymore.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then again, why was he surprised? It had been this way from the start. The only thing that had changed was that the reality finally had a name.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"How dare he imprint on me?\" Wenzhi gritted his teeth in frustration and shut the shower off.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He stepped out with a towel wrapped around his waist and another draped over his shoulders as he dried his hair.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xinyuan was awake now.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He sat on the bed rubbing sleep from his eyes, but the moment he saw Wenzhi, his expression brightened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even his left eye, still faintly red, softened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Wenzhi,\" he called like Wenzhi was the only thing he wanted to see.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"How do you even get in here?\" Wenzhi stared at him suspiciously. \"The door is always locked.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"It’s locked,\" Xinyuan replied calmly, \"but not secured.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His gaze slowly dragged over Wenzhi’s exposed torso.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The freckles. The fading hickeys he had left scattered across his skin.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi frowned. \"This place is already cramped enough. You need to stop coming here.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"That’s why I’m here.\" Xinyuan rose to his feet and walked toward him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Surprisingly, he didn’t touch him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instead, he reached into his pocket and pulled out a card key before holding it out toward Wenzhi.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wenzhi took it cautiously, eyeing the expensive-looking access card.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was definitely not for some cheap apartment.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He looked back up at Xinyuan with a frown. \"What did you do?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"There’s a house here in Findio City,\" Xinyuan smiled. \"It’s private. Untraceable. I’ve prepared everything for us and...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No. No, you can’t...\" Wenzhi shook his head.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He didn’t like this. Not even a little bit.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xinyuan’s smile vanished. \"But....\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I feel like every word I say just leaks out through your ears, Shao Xinyuan.\" Wenzhi switched to sign language out of frustration. \"I. Do. Not. Want. You. Around. Me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He shoved the access card back toward him. \"Take this and get out.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xinyuan stared at the card for a moment before slowly collecting it, lips pressing tightly together. \"You aren’t comfortable here.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His gaze drifted across the cramped motel room. \"After all, it’s my fault you’re—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What do you know about my comfort?!\" Wenzhi glared at him. \"All you bring into my life is discomfort.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That visibly hurt Xinyuan. His eyes lowered toward the access card in his hand.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You got shot because of me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No shit.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I can’t sit still while you live like this,\" Xinyuan took a step to him. \"I don’t want you living like you’re hiding from the world.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Enough!\" Wenzhi shoved Xinyuan back hard. \"Enough, okay?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His breathing turned uneven. \"I know you’re attached to me. Fine. Whatever. Maybe that’s normal for someone who spent almost a decade being treated like a lab rat.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A look of pure astonishment crossed Xinyuan’s face. \"You saved me, Wenzhi,\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I did not,\" Wenzhi shook his head slowly, a bitter smile ghosting his lips. \"I can’t save you. I can’t even save myself.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xinyuan stared at him motionlessly. \"Wen....\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Shao Xinyuan!\" Wenzhi’s jaw clenched hard. \"You don’t owe me anything and I don’t owe you either.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His voice lowered dangerously. \"So go away. There is no us.\"\u003C\u002Fp>",1049,"2026-06-06T14:53:12.659Z",1,"novelbin.me","05b24b11cf33beb1ec15ea3e3a1c80527445e33c8d3d2f63585133aff4a91d8b","help-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster-chapter-54","help-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster-chapter-52",73,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fhelp-i-do-not-want-to-guide-a-disaster-cover.jpg"]