Chapter 84: The Only Person Who Isn't Special

A "Sora" with blue and red eyes, yet who was not "Sora," stepped forward; it was a sentence from the one standing behind him, who seemed to be protecting him, that broke the silence.

"............ Who?"

Even though an answer was given, the words were filled with an unnecessarily deepened sense of mystery and confusion.

"If you are asking who I am, do not worry. This is the only name by which I can call myself."

"... No, that's not it, how should I put it... um, is Sora temporarily someone else?"

That person was bewildered, not knowing what they wanted to know, and communication was not going well; although they were already exhausted, they still asked for the information they most wanted to know.

By this point, they understood that the information they wanted to know was best chosen carefully and precisely targeted, rather than asked in a general way.

Just as Kalluto thought, if you ask him roughly, he will only answer the bare minimum, but if you ask him in detail, he will give you a proper explanation, so he will tell you without hesitation.

"In terms of personality, I am a different person. First of all, I am a different gender. I think you can tell from my tone and first-person pronoun, but I am a man.

However, this body is absolutely the Master's... Sora's."

The voice, the color of the eyes, the Tattoo on the right hand, the way of speaking different from Sora's, the atmosphere different from Sora's, the appearance different from Sora's. Could he also be a twin brother??

Hearing this answer, Kurt tilted his head and asked, "Does Sora have a split personality or something?"

"Servant, servant, Master... are you a pseudo-personality created by Sora using his Nen Ability?"

"... I don't know much about 'Nen Ability,' but your hypothesis is certainly wrong.

Perhaps, if I were to explain my existence and the way I exist, it might be closest to saying that my ghost is haunting the Master. To be honest, having no other ability on the battlefield besides holding a gun, I instinctively understand the situation of the Master and myself, but theoretically, I do not understand it, so I cannot explain it.

The Master can explain it. After returning this body to the Master, there will be an opportunity to ask me again."

When Hisoka stroked his chin with his slender fingertips and spoke his guess, Karna turned around and immediately denied it.

Moreover, he was throwing the Bullet that Sora seemed to hate, but of course, he had no ill intent. It was just that he felt sorry for being unable to answer, so he only introduced someone who seemed capable of explaining it kindly.

However, his surprisingly serious yet surprisingly ill-timed answer convinced Hisoka that his response was true.

At first, it was too simple to understand, and the title of "Servant" he gave himself, as well as the name "Master" he gave to Sora, were in some ways like the artificial intelligence used by a robotic hand. I thought he was a Lobo-like pseudo-personality, basically without any application or implication, but after chatting for a while, I understood.

The opponent is natural.

First of all, it seems foolish to demand that Sora have common sense regarding Nen Ability at this point, but Hisoka and Illumi had the same understanding, yet even so, it would be difficult to create a "pseudo-personality." An enhancement-type Sora with a manipulation-type ability.

I don't know how accurate Karna's claim that "a ghost named Karna is possessing Sora" is, but it explains the various abilities that cover all of Sora's systems. Hisoka was satisfied for the time being, as he could do that.

While convinced, he further analyzed his opponent.

Perhaps the other party is just as natural, but the master of that body is different from him, Sora, Gon, and Kurapika; although he will never admit it, Illumi, who is by his side, is doing just that.

In other words, he is the most troublesome guy, keeping a straight face and remaining silent, and when you want to know how serious he is, he is always serious.

This type of person naturally cannot read the text and atmosphere behind things, but the head itself turns very well, so you can quickly notice our lies and behind-the-scenes expectations and use psychological warfare. The person who set it up is completely unpredictable and doesn't want it, and the person who has it will also take things away without knowing it, so in fact, Hisoka does not feel bored as a bystander. It's fine because it's interesting, but I'm the type who doesn't want to get involved as a person...

"... Hmph, your Master is still as unfathomable as ever. Should I say hello again?"

Hisoka narrowed his unique eyes and corners of his mouth like a line, smiling like a Demon as he spoke to Karna.

His personality might be the type of opponent Hisoka is not good at, but other than that, for someone who likes everything about Hisoka, he is too one-sided. Killing intent, good feeling, hit.

You can tell by looking at it. This opponent's combat ability is even stronger than Sora's.

First of all, he has an avoidance reaction at the level of Fortune Telling, a strange ability not bound by common sense, and some actions based on outrageous ideas that go beyond that ability. His combat technique is actually poor.

His dodging ability is amazing, so even if an attack is launched, he can dodge it, rather than Karna.

Although he carries Aura on his body, it can be considered a rather naked "Wear," and he is not prepared to attack, counter, or escape at any time.

It is clear that Illumi is still not taking any action by Hisoka's side, and although she is just standing there in such a natural way, there is no opportunity to launch an attack anywhere.

Not only because of work, but also because of personal feelings, even Illumi, who wants to get her brother back from the person she dislikes the most, is someone she judges as "I cannot interfere" even if his personality is different. There is no reason for it not to become Hisoka's favorite.

Thus, Hisoka released a one-sided, annoying, and disgusting killing intent, and Illumi's frustration at being unable to Recapture Kalluto began to increase her killing intent toward Karna; Kalluto, completely caught in the crosshairs, was terrified behind Karna, his face turning pale and stiff.

And the person hit by the bloodlust had Sora's face, but a cold face completely different from Sora's.

"No need. I know your name. Hisoka, right?"

"? The way you spoke just now, it sounded like you didn't know about us, didn't it?"

Judging by his words and actions, I thought he didn't share any memories or knowledge with Sora, but when I asked with a happy smile, surprised to find that he had guessed his name, Karna remained as calm as ever and answered quietly.

"For now, if I say that I not only know you, but everyone here, I know them. The information you share might always be better than nothing.

So this child and that black-haired man are just 'familiar' to me; I don't even know what their names are, nor what their relationship with the Master is. Perhaps I only remember those who have been with the Master for a long time, or those who have left a particularly deep impression on me."

Karna's answer made Kalluto's face look hurt, and Illumi's bloodlust increased.

Except for Kalluto behind him, Karna of course knew of Illumi's killing intent, but he did not understand why his words increased the killing intent, and he tilted his head.

This man, although pointed at by Sora and the others, had not yet fully recovered from his bad habits, but he did not realize that this sounded like saying "the Master is not interested in you."

However, it was fortunate that the remarks, which were more troublesome to Sora than the person who said them, Karna, followed in a way that surprised everyone.

"It is an honor to be Sora's most impressive partner."

"Not bad."

Karna answered the smiling Hisoka, who was next to Illumi, with a straight face.

Then, he continued coldly with a straight face.

"Honestly, the stronger my opponent is, the more I want him to fight with all his strength. I sincerely respect his loyal ability to act, and I envy him for being so clear about what he wants to do.

But Hisoka. Please stop the Harassment of the Master. She is more intolerant of these topics than you realize. I am truly afraid."

"... You, weren't you scolded by Sora for talking too much?"

As expected of Karna, who acknowledges the value of all humanity and is the saint among saints, even Hisoka recognized and praised Hisoka's way of existence, but even he seemed unwilling to forgive the Harassment of his precious Master.

Nevertheless, he asked Sora calmly, but Karna would undoubtedly expose the Harassment case, so Hisoka inadvertently sympathized with Sora from the bottom of his heart.

However, as Hisoka read, the natural Karna replied, "No, it's because I was scolded for not saying enough," and weakened Hisoka by answering seriously, achieving a feat no one could boast of.

"... I know you're an idiot, so can you give my brother back to me?"

Hisoka, amused by Karna's words, turned his body, the frustration in his heart subsided, and Illumi, still displeased, glared at Karna with bloodlust and said.

However, Karna considered himself not smart, so he blocked the other party's killing intent and remarks like a willow, and answered with a confused face.

"Little brother?"

"It's about the child you took away; he has been hiding behind you for a while now!"

Even after being told, Karna still did not realize that Kalluto and Illumi behind him were brothers, Illumi roared at me.

Nevertheless, Karna turned around calmly, looking at Kalluto, who was terrified by his older brother's constantly increasing bloodlust. Although he was only looking and did not confirm it with the other party, he raised his voice as if he were satisfied with this.

"I see. It seems I misunderstood."

As I recall, Master likes you, but I only remember him running away from my brother over there, so while thinking about it, I hugged him and ran.

I am sorry to have disturbed you."

With Karna's words, the misunderstanding of the sect, which thought "Sora is not interested in me," was cleared up, and the shadow disappeared from his expression a little.

However, he did not pursue Illumi at all, and Illumi was even more annoyed. This time, he called his brother "Kalluto!" in a hard tone and ordered him to walk over here.

Although terrified by his brother's increasingly worsening mood, Kalluto replied weakly: "... Yes, brother." Then he left Karna, trying to return to his brother's side.

But Kurt's small body was pulled back by his hand, his right hand adorned with stars, the moon, and the Sun, things that make the sky shine.

Facing this move, the bloodthirsty coldness that had been coming from all directions during Illumi's eighth attack was restrained by Karna alone.

"... What are you thinking?" Illumi asked in an inhuman, doll-like voice.

Hisoka watched Illumi, who was completely in work mode, with amusement. Kalluto was even more afraid, and at the same time unable to understand Karna's actions, he was confused, comparing the two.

Even with the blade-like murderous intent, Karna remained unchanged.

Unwavering.

"I misunderstood and did some unnecessary things.

But, regardless of whether he is my brother, I cannot hand this child over to someone who is afraid and terrified... I cannot hand Kalluto over to someone I know will inflict unnecessary punishment. Master would never allow it, and neither will I."

"... If the master is the master, then the servant is also the servant. Do not interfere with other people's family education policies."

Illumi sneered at Karna's words.

The more they interacted, the more they looked nothing alike. If they weren't wearing clothes that exposed their figures, but were wearing the gender-neutral Sweatpants as usual, one would definitely say they were Sora's twin brothers or younger brothers. To the extent that I can honestly believe and accept them, they are definitely different people, but as Illumi said, their words and actions are the same.

Without a doubt, even if his heart belonged to Sora, he would say the same thing and would not pass through Kalluto in the same way.

Was Illumi irritated by the servant who was exactly like his master, or did he himself feel that his behavior was "the same"?

As if seeing through Illumi's state of mind, those blue eyes were staring straight at Illumi with a bloodthirsty gaze.

Kalluto knew the current situation was because he had accidentally discovered Sora and done some unnecessary things, so Karna did not want Sora, the owner of that body, to be involved, and he himself. This opponent, Karna, was even stronger than Sora; even his brother did not know if he had a chance of winning.

"No, stop! Although it was before work, I snuck out and did some unnecessary things, so it is only natural to be scolded, so stop!! Don't fight with Brother Illumi! —San!!"

Karna's arm was pulled, and his gaze shifted from Illumi to Kalluto.

Unlike Sora's eyes, she was so beautiful that one could not look directly at her. No, the mirror-like eyes made the cultist shrink back, but those eyes immediately became soft and narrowed.

"I'm sorry. You scared me."

Karna apologized with a soft smile, narrowing his eyes to try not to scare the sect.

Then he pulled out the hand that Kalluto was holding and used that hand to push Kalluto's back.

"It seems everything was taken care of needlessly. Really, I'm sorry."

Illumi, who wanted to do that, and Hisoka, who was a bystander, were a bit surprised by the fact that he retreated more easily than I imagined, and trying to send me back to Illumi, I understood.

Perhaps knowing nothing about the situation of the three of them, Karna, who always proceeded at his own pace, had a calm, flat, and natural tone.

"But Kalluto. Don't forget this. There is no need to commit suicide just because you want someone to love you.

You are loved enough just because of who you are, not because you are special. At the very least, Master is definitely not a special person; he loves you as the only sect where no one is there, and I am also grateful to you for worrying about Master without compensation."

Hearing Karna's words, Kurt, who had turned pale and afraid due to Illumi and Hisoka's involvement, blushed, his cheeks flushed red.

Perhaps she did not like her brother's reaction and Karna's words, Illumi strongly called his brother "Kalluto!"

Kurt felt that if he hurt his younger brother's mood again, it would not just be a punishment. Stay.

Illumi, who did not like it from the bottom of his heart, did not even look at Kalluto, ordering him to go to the cemetery building first, because Grandpa Maha should have left first, while glaring at Karna.

Kurt hesitated to say something to his brother, but he understood that his true intention of "don't kill Sora and Karna" was exactly his brother's anger, so in the end, he trusted Karna's ability and took back his thoughts. I tried to leave while looking back.

Karna smiled lightly at such a sect, as if saying "don't worry," and then turned his gaze to Illumi.

It seemed he was not angry or hostile, his face was as calm and cool as ever, but he looked a little surprised. Unexpectedly, his expression might be rich because he did not have enough words.

In fact, Karna was surprised.

"Illumi. I don't know what to say, but you are not good at expressing your feelings."

"Don't say I'm relaxed. And don't say you know someone you've met for the first time."

"I can tell from your eyes that even if you meet them for the first time, you love your family deeply.

If you can tell him to come quickly because he is worried, why make your brother feel scared?"

At Karna's words, Kalluto stopped involuntarily.

I always thought my brother was angry at me for doing something unnecessary, and angry that my weak self was caught by Karna and could not escape.

I didn't know you were worried.

Illumi's mask did not react to Karna's words. Don't move your eyebrows. Unwavering.

Karna just used an inorganic voice to tell Illumi to "shut up," but he had the habit of basically listening to people's requests, no need for Sora to scold "one word is not enough," ignored him, and continued to speak.

While staring at the other party with eyes that could not tolerate hypocrisy anywhere.

... Somewhere, looking at the man in front of him who was playing the "ideal self that someone wants," he was like a half-brother.

"My memory is blurry, but I'm sure you make a living by killing, right? Do you think you can't let people who engage in killing love their families and others?

If so, I respect the self-control that allows such deep love to be suppressed by the pride and responsibility of your family business.... But, I'm sorry, I have to say, your self-control is in vain, and your love is becoming self-righteous.

If you love me, tell me. Your love, shrouded in that kind of self-control, seems to say it's worthless unless it's a puppet that listens to you. It's only aimed at you. Only you can save yourself.

Because of this, a younger brother who doesn't want to get hurt and is worried, if he misunderstands me, will hate me one day, that is putting the cart before the horse."

Hearing this, Hisoka interjected: "... Karna. Do you know Killua?"

Karna looked puzzled, as if to ask why he was suddenly asking such a question, and immediately replied: "Ah, I remember his name; he is the boy cherished by Master." He did not realize that Illumi and Killua were brothers, just like Kurt.

Even so, Hisoka spoke as if he had known the two of them since the Hunter Exam, saying the other party was more troublesome than he had imagined, while updating information on Karna and keeping a close eye on Illumi's situation.

"That is just unnecessary care."

I had hoped Illumi would show some human warmth as he did toward Sora, but Illumi, who correctly judged and understood his opponent's abilities, seemed to have no intention of fighting while Kalluto was back, merely replying quietly.

Even if Sora looked like Sora and said things similar to Sora, if it were someone else, he would not be as shaken as he was when she was the opponent, the dark Puppet known as the "Assassin."

But even so, as far as I understand, was he annoyed because he was talking about such a person, and was he disapproved of by him? When Karna began to walk toward

"As for your family, I certainly have no right to interfere."

"However, since your uninhibited expression of love has disturbed you, you should at least have the right to give some Suggestion."

"Annoying?"

Karna, who had remained calm, said in a slightly angry tone, so Illumi parroted him and looked back.

He probably wanted to apologize, even if only verbally, because he did not want to make an enemy of his opponent's abilities, but he had made a mistake in his judgment.

Karna crossed his arms, his expression and tone one of disapproval, which was actually genuine disgust.

"Illumi, you want to kill the person you love because you miss them. Isn't that paranoid, paranoid?

I won't honestly admit my own feelings and be nicer to you, but at the very least, every time you can't even kill Master, don't attack Master again."

Illumi's Malice erupted the moment Karna spoke softly.

"……Hmm, those born with eyes are naturally terrifying."

Hisoka spoke to the bewildered Kurt, who was still suppressing laughter in his stomach, holding his flushed face with both hands.

"……Hmm? ……Who do you miss? ……Illumi……brother?"

"Yeah, if you think it's for Illumi, you might as well pretend you didn't ask."

A nuclear-warhead-level bomb, dropped with a straight face; do not do to me what you would not have me do to you. In any case, this guy knows what he is doing.

Kalluto, of course, was too slow to notice Hisoka's Malice, desperately moving his brain, which was unable to function properly due to a fever, struggling to process the information.

However, the more information he processed, the more uncomfortable he felt about Illumi's behavior, but Karna's words convinced him—the vivid fact that he had fallen in love with the brother he admired. Perhaps the stimulation was too strong for the boxed-in Kalluto; his face was flushed as if it were steaming, and with a look of wanting to cry, he asked Hisoka: "……What should I do?"

"For now, why don't you go to work? I don't know if Illumi can go to work, or if he still remembers his original job."

Hisoka narrowed his eyes, watching Karna and Illumi, who were leaping between buildings and engaging in a spectacular aerial battle.

Karna's revelation was likely without Malice, "You'll understand if you look," so he thought others would notice too. He said he wanted to kill him, but Karna handled it lightly.

Hisoka licked his lips with his Tongue, convincing himself that Karna's ability was incomparable to Sora's.

Karna did not seem to have any intention of killing Illumi, and he was much more relaxed than Sora, focusing entirely on defense, so even if I left them alone, those two, including Sora, would likely not die. "If Illumi doesn't die," Chrollo might lose if he doesn't get rid of Ten-Ryo no Kashira.

I think it might be a good idea to give up on him and let Karna play with him, because I have discovered a talent I am certain is more delicious than Chrollo's. Judging by his personality, it is not so easy to kill the other party as one pleases.

It can be seen from every word of Karna that he enjoys fighting, but he is not a fanatical fighter like himself or Uvogin; he is likely a warrior type similar to Kastro.

What he likes is not "killing each other," but "fighting" itself, and most importantly, he does not like to involve unrelated people in "fighting." Peace is something that loses its value because he can only live on the battlefield. Even after realizing this, he still seeks that peace more than "fighting," and protects and cherishes it. This became clear when I tried to calm down.

As long as he has Sora as his Master, he should at least be as kind as Sora.

It is hard to imagine him fighting inside his own Master's body, staining his Master's hands with someone else's blood, someone else's death.

He was fully defensive against Illumi, not because he had no room to attack, or because he had to do so, but because he was thinking of his Master.

Thinking of Sora's words, I shouldn't have made such grandiloquent remarks in the first place, but I cannot pretend that what I dropped no longer exists, so I put them aside.

Therefore, if Illumi supported him and attacked Karna, he might be serious, but his seriousness was only in defense and escape, or rather, neutralizing without killing them; he would absolutely not kill each other.

Hisoka could not stand being teased by such a good-looking opponent and then running away.

If the killing with Karna ended in frustration and he lost Chrollo, then I don't know why I would disguise myself to join the Brigade. I haven't been active as a member of the Phantom Troupe, but I don't want to waste the full three years since I joined.

That is why Hisoka decided today to rely on Karna instead of Illumi.

If Illumi went back to work as soon as possible and did Karna a favor, if he were surprisingly serious, he would say, "Kill or let's get Together." I accepted this Suggestion.

Of course, at first he would refuse, saying he did not want to fight in vain with Sora's body. Because of the killing or because he wanted to fight him, and also because he cared about his Master, Karna eventually relented and accepted the fact that he was more suited to fight than Sora, whose fighting ability was inferior to Hisoka's, and his nature was not low.

Hisoka, who had prepared as many toys for himself as possible, said to Kurt, who was still hesitating about what to do: "Then I will try to persuade Illumi not to go to work." He also jumped over the building and headed toward Karna and Illumi.

Staring at it for a while, Kurt patted his cheeks twice with both hands before regaining his composure.

Kalluto barely trusted this disgusting clown, but he knew he could not stop Illumi, so he reluctantly went to work as Hisoka said.

First of all, due to her selfish behavior, Illumi met Karna, and she absolutely did not want her brother to know about this himself; as a result, I was told a few things.

If Illumi did not at least complete the task entrusted to him, it would be too sorry, so Kurt quickly headed to the cemetery building where Maha should be, according to the plan.

Kurt jumped and moved without disturbing the hem of his kimono, trying to stop thinking about Karna's Explosion of words for Illumi's sake; Karna's words were also very sudden.

"Just because I want you to love me doesn't mean you have to kill yourself."

"You are loved enough just because of who you are, not because you are special. At the very least, Master is definitely not someone special; he loves you as the only one without anyone else, Kalluto, and I am also grateful that you worry about Master without any reward."

Kurt did not quite understand why he would say such things at that time, but this was what Kurt had always hoped someone would say.

Kalluto loved his home, his family. I love you. This is a place more important and significant than anything else, and I decided this is the world I should live in.

But I thought I had to be "special" to be there.

The anxiety that if I am not excellent, I will not be worthy of existing, is sinking deep into my chest.

Unless you are a "special" person who specializes in killing and assassination and has the ability to be worthy of Zoldyck, you cannot stay in that house.

The thought that if it were not so, I might be abandoned was only a small part of my heart, but it was certain and had always been there.

To that extent, all other family members were special and excellent.

They were all suitable candidates for Zoldyck.

And when Killua, who had the talent most suitable for Zoldyck, left home, I knew Father allowed prioritizing Killua's own wishes, but somewhere in my heart I thought, "Killua is actually because his heart is not suitable for Zoldyck."

This is the extent to which I know that house is looking for "people worthy of Zoldyck."

However, the sediment accumulated at the bottom of my heart disappeared after Karna's words.

A little bit of anxiety vanished; I was simply persuaded.

To a large extent, it was because he acknowledged my worth, but there was another fact that was very important to Kalluto.

"Illumi. This is what I said, but you are not good at expressing affection."

"Do you think a person who engages in murder cannot show concern for their family?"

Perhaps this was also a sentence Illumi wanted to forget, but Kalluto was certainly unable to forget it.

Because these words so beautifully transformed the anxiety I was bearing into a kind of acceptance.

The fact that my family is looking for "performance and personality suitable for the Zoldyck Family" has not changed.

However, I am certain he loves me, even if it is not.

Killua, who left home to find something he did not understand, finally realized that the eldest brother who had always been mentally distant from him was actually too close.

I am certain Illumi thinks the same as I do.

I have the same anxiety. It does not have to be special, it does not have to be excellent; to be worthy of the Zoldyck Family, one must be the ideal of the Zoldyck Family itself. I thought about it and I did it.

I am afraid of my brother's education.

Although Illumi knows he loves his younger brother, if he does not grow up the way his brother says, if he does not become the person his brother says, will he be abandoned? I am worried.

This is Illumi's strict education.

But if my brother also has the same anxiety, it is because he likes education, because it is important, and because he never wants to throw it away.

Precisely because he treats Kalluto as a Kalluto, as his little brother, and because he does not want to let go, he cannot let this Kalluto always be "just a Kalluto"—this is probably the reason he harbors such a terrible contradiction.

Looking back, because I was involved with Sora, being scolded for "not being like a Zoldyck" and "not being worthy of the Zoldyck Family," I can reflect on it.

I will not say I look forward to the sermons and punishments after this terrible work, but it is not enough to make me break into a cold sweat or stiffen up.

I feel much better, and my body feels lighter.

Kalluto rushed toward Maha while further accelerating his running speed.

Even if Illumi is too late, I want to finish my work alone to put my brother at ease.

"I am absolutely worthy of the Zoldyck Family," I thought, wanting to Eliminate the anxiety my brother might have.

Not because I do not want to be thrown away, but because I want to be there; I want to be a special person, a person "suitable for the Zoldyck Family."

From the beginning, if you are loved by the "only non-special person" that Kalluto longs for, I want to ensure that the person who loves you will not feel uneasy because they "have to throw it away." I want to.

... But at the same time, Kurt had another thought.

I found what I wanted, what I desired.

If it is not just me and my brother who think "if I am not worthy of the Zoldyck Family, I must throw it away," and my father and grandfather are also trapped in the same spell...

If you truly think you should not love someone, even if you love someone who is not special, you do not love anyone...

So, if he wants to take it back but cannot, Kalluto wants to expose his true intentions and take it back.

The "special" among the "special," deeply Sealed in the Zoldyck Family.

A person who has been stripped of everything by such a "special" thing is not suitable for the Zoldyck Family, not special.

Kalluto began to want to take back his only "brother."

... Although Karna is becoming more and more foolish, the story has not progressed to the point of surprising me, because basically no one is rushing in.

I realized it is difficult to have a character who is consistently ambiguous from beginning to end. Even if I correct the direction of the story, Karna will take it in some direction the day after tomorrow...

Also, when the Apocrypha animation aired, Karna appeared, and when I met Illumi, I had to recreate what Karna said to the Queen (a sense of mission). I do not regret it at all. I did not do it, but I am sorry, Illumi. I am really sorry.

Next time, as you might have expected, Illumi is just a pitiful time.