Chapter 107: Arguing at the Bedhead, No Peace at the Bedfoot

Chinu is coldly beautiful, captivating the soul.

Since that day he revealed his identity, Du Shanü often recalls those three moles in her dreams......

Lust bestows the soul.

Indeed, it is lust bestowing the soul.

Before this, she never imagined she would have any significant connection with someone so sinister, gloomy, and even somewhat evil.

Even most of the time, she doesn't particularly like clever people.

Dealing with clever people is quite mentally taxing.

She would rather seek out the foolish, simple-minded.

One might accomplish few great things in a lifetime, yet always make people feel like encountering a spring breeze.

But......

Eight or nine out of ten things in life go against one's wishes.

Unpredictable events also make up eight or nine out of ten.

She met Chinu.

She, encountered Chinu.

Chinu's appearance and talent are both unmatched; though his temper is bad, whenever he flares up, it feels as if he's stirring her very entrails.

How can one remove the itch deep within the five viscera and six bowels?

It cannot be removed.

This is also why she repeatedly vows a great oath to Chinu.

Someone like her usually plays and fools around, and most of the time can just laugh it off.

But if anyone tries to take a bite from her, it's as hard as climbing to heaven.

Chinu constantly says he himself is no good.

But he never considered that she, Du Shanü, might not be entirely good either.

Since her previous life, she has been a rather cold-hearted person.

What "smiling tiger," false yaksha—these were all her former nicknames.

Merely being overly capable isn't enough to break out of encirclement and become the youngest academician; one also needs scheming and ability.

Human foolishness knows no bounds; there is always an insatiable desire.

Seeking profit, avoiding harm, selfish and self-serving......

She too is not entirely devoid of it.

But she can control her original heart, constantly adjusting the path she walks.

She also reminds herself that what makes humans human, distinct from beasts, is their incomparable self-control.

No one can remain upright all their life, so she tells Chinu that people can make mistakes.

The oath made under the willow in the forest that day was not entirely for beauty and pity.

Moreover, Du Shanü felt she had seen a kindred spirit.

Exactly.

It sounds ridiculous, but she was indeed utterly captivated, body and soul, by a kindred spirit.

Chinu is different.

Compared to someone like Liu Wenyuan, after tearing off his disguise, his faint yet palpable hatred is simply innate.

Around that time, she thought——

In this life, she cannot be separated from Chinu.

It's not that Yu Baobao isn't good enough; rather, there are things, impurities, she could never voice to him in her lifetime.

But Chinu, is different.

When he cries, she can think of the best thing and wants to promise it first.

When he makes a fuss, she can blurt out everything from her past life all at once.

Should such things be said?

They ought not to be said and cannot be said!

This is her greatest reliance for establishing herself!

But......

Chinu seems to have grown accustomed to hatred.

He doesn't understand.

He just wants to stare fixedly at Yu Baobao, competing with her.

He also doesn't realize that Du Shanü has already given him unique leniency.

And what is called 'appreciating pain' might better be said as......

【Mercy】

Du Shanü pities him.

When he speaks, Du Shanü wishes to give him everything.

Chinu first used this tactic; finding it effective, he continually dissects himself, laying bare all his embarrassment, standing before Du Shanü bloody and raw.

Is this tactic really effective?

It is effective.

It's effective, and indeed it is effective.

But, Du Shanü would rather hear why Chinu initially wanted to become a shop assistant, and how he suddenly said, 'Earn a meager wage through hard work.'

Chinu was preparing where to buy good farmland, how much the good farmland cost, how much the dry field cost, what to plant in spring, what to plant in summer, and in autumn roughly how many people to hire for the harvest......

This is the hope hidden beneath years of pain.

Just from a few words and phrases, she could imagine how full of vitality the young Chinu was.

Du Shanü pitied him.

Du Shanü pitied him.

Du Shanü......

It seemed she somewhat loved him.

Therefore, she wasn't unable to understand Chinu's daily flirtations; she simply also willingly let herself be hooked.

But if one thinks carefully, where did those flirtations come from?

Although sovereign and subject are like husband and wife, Chinu has experienced many emperors; one cannot possibly love each emperor in turn?

Moreover, those emperors were all men.

No matter how one thinks, the difference between her and them, aside from gender, leaves only one variable.

That is, Yu Baobao.

All those variables actually began with Yu Baobao staying behind and saying she wanted to marry into her family.

A good night, hushed and still; all sounds ceased.

Du Shanü finally exhaled her last breath of foul air:

"Ah Nu, tonight we exchange sincerity for sincerity, no one will lie......"

"Tell me honestly, you've been crying and shouting for me to discard Yu Baobao, and also saying I definitely cannot give Yu Baobao first......"

"Are you finally seeing that I have you in my heart, or is it just because you want to outdo Yu Baobao in a breath of anger?"

These two are truly worlds apart.

If placed in a vulgar romance novel, it would probably be like a pair of childhood friends, one envying the other for a long time; seeing the other about to marry, one night ruthlessly sneaking into the other's spouse's room, becoming a flower-picking thief......

"Too bad, Yu Baobao won't care."

Not only because she doesn't understand romantic matters, but also because Yu Baobao's nature is destined not to care about these trivial details.

Even, Yu Baobao had long ago said she hoped to bring Nu Nu along to marry into the family, so they could have a big home.

Those who cannot tolerate Chinu......

Actually, it was never Yu Baobao, but Chinu himself.

He still lies asleep in that years-long dream, unwilling to wake, determined to fight and contend with Yu Baobao.

Du Shanü turned over, pulling the arm tucked under her head into the blanket.

The blanket was warm, yet she no longer felt sleepy:

"I won't either."

"A woman's chastity is never beneath her skirts."

"A noble lady with a chastity arch may keep herself pure all her life, but if she mistreats her juniors and exploits the people, she cannot be called a chaste woman. Your mother, to make a living, endured humiliation to survive; that is what the world forced her to do, and it is not entirely unchaste."

"Don't say it's just sleeping once now; even if you sleep a hundred or a thousand times, have children, as long as you don't trap yourself, turning around is another way of living."

The answer has actually always been in plain sight.

Du Shanü will neither feel guilty for not giving Yu Baobao her first time, nor think it's so hard to bring up sleeping with Chinu.

Even, she won't feel that she herself is the one being slept with.

Love others after loving oneself.

If she doesn't even love herself enough, who else will love her?

Feeling stifled to this point is merely because Yu Baobao is so naive as to be a bit foolish, and Chinu has also been hurt......

Du Shanü tugged at the bedding, facing outward toward the couch.

The room remained dim; she could not tell what the person behind her was doing, and finally she had no energy left to discern.

Before closing her eyes, Du Shanü ultimately only said:

"Ah Nu, I have actually long proven myself......."

"On the contrary, you have never been able to see yourself clearly."

?? Quarreling, quarreling, let the sovereign-subject group cool down a bit, then lift the pure love group a bit.

? Under the peach blossom tree, whoever stands is beautiful; Shasha's love, given to anyone, is also splendid.