Chapter 192: This hatred needs no words

Du Shanü remembers this night.

Several decades later, Du Shanü still remembers this night.

Du Shanü swore that several decades later she would still remember this night.

Du Shanü swore that several decades later she still remembered beneath this night that gorgeous ghost's......

Tooth marks.

The sky was dim, the earth dark.

When that fierce and gorgeous ghost bared its fangs and took the first bite, this night had not yet passed half.

Du Shanü specially held a candle to see clearly that tooth mark.

This night had no moon; it was a half-month.

Du Shanü then guessed, it was not only Chinu who hated heaven and earth; perhaps she also harbored some hatred for Chinu.

But what exactly she hated......

She herself could not say.

Perhaps it was only because she was young, her hatred unclear.

Or perhaps she herself had not realized that her heart had always hated Chinu, so she so readily agreed to follow her to death.

Life and death, over and over.

Lifetime after lifetime.

These are not words easily spoken, nor vows easily made.

Human hearts are self-serving; no matter how selfish, greedy, or cowardly, there are always traces to follow.

However Chinu might resist, flatter, or be selfish, it is all to be expected.

But he should never have counter-asked "When?"

It seemed, it seemed, he had long decided to share life and death with her, seeking only a resting place.

But, but...... (ellipsis)

What good is death, after all?

Ten thousand deaths come to nothing, grudges and favors all vanish.

When people console others, they say, in the next life be reborn into a good womb.

But according to Du Shanü's thoughts, what use would the next life be?

To be reborn into a good womb in the next life would be admitting defeat in this life.

If it were not truly impossible, she herself would not readily accept death.

And Chinu, her Chinu...... (ellipsis)

She ought to have been radiant, the Chinu who should have had everything, yet she lightly set her own death date.

This is not right.

This is not good.

Therefore, Du Shanü hates him.

Du Shanü hates his hatred, she hates his obsession, she hates his appearance, she hates his temperament, she hates his servile nature to the bone...... (ellipsis)

Du Shanü simply hates everything about him.

Du Shanü...... (ellipsis)

Du Shanü also delights in everything about him.

Unable to bear to part.

Only she is unable to bear to part.

Having said so much, having expressed a thousand grudges, ten thousand grudges, yet if only one sentence were to be said, it would be——

Let her personally witness Chinu's death, then she would be unable to bear to part.

Therefore, when that gorgeous ghost knelt and bit a second mark carrying the meaning of mutual annihilation, Du Shanü pried open his teeth.

Du Shanü kissed him.

Du Shanü tried to tell him...... (ellipsis)

She also hated him thoroughly.

However, however.

Each time at this moment, Chinu would always use actions to tell her.

No matter how much she hates him, he always hates him a bit more.

That tongue is soft, tender, smooth; moving it aside, one can count the white, jade-like teeth...... (ellipsis)

She then discovered that this gorgeous ghost's teeth were not as sharp as she imagined; what they left behind was not tooth marks but rather streaks...... 【obsessive hatred】.

His questions are always penetrating and thorough, just like himself.

He asked: "Wife Master, whom do you favor today?"

Du Shanü answered, and he then asked: "Then who am I?"

Du Shanü answered again, and he asked once more: "Wife Master, when A Nu's beauty fades, will you still favor A Nu? If so, then...... could you love A Nu?"

【Love】

When this word appeared, all sounds fell silent.

Du Shanü heard it in her ears, struck by this word until she almost saw stars——

Wrong.

Wrong.

Her heart full of long discourse on how much she hates him, word by word hatred, yet hatred after hatred...... (ellipsis)

She actually forgot, she wanted to love him.

When she loved him, he said he hated her.

When she said she hated her, he asked her when she could love him......

Chinu is always Chinu; being loved is also like praying for love, never stating it outright, but always beating around the bush.

But in matters of love, he always seems to be one step ahead; no matter how Du Shanü follows, it seems insufficient.

Not enough for his love and hate, even less for his vivid intensity.

Du Shanü is going crazy.

Du Shanü really is being driven crazy by him.

But......

She really has no way with Chinu.

If Chinu's obsessive hatred lasts ten thousand years without fading, then let the tooth marks last ten thousand years follow her left and right......

Let the two, life and death, also be entangled for lifetimes......

The thin mist dissipates, the sky returns to moonlight.

Du Shanü finally sinks into the land of dreams.

This sleep is extremely deep, extremely sunk.

She also rarely dreamed of the bits and pieces of her past life.

She dreamed she stood at the familiar unit's entrance, just as night grew deep, rain curtains continuous.

But fortunately, Chinu always waited with an umbrella by the car.

When Du Shanü appeared, he rushed forward impatiently, sniffing east and west, as if wanting to dissect cleanly whom she had seen and touched today......

But today, unfortunately, Du Shanü happened to have a smoking friend come visit.

Thus, Chinu grew jealous, his face fell on the spot, wishing to scrub her in the rain.

The Du Shanü in the dream was very helpless.

But fortunately, after they got in the car, inside the car awaited a curved-eyebrow Yu Baobao.

Yu Baobao always gentle and considerate, prepared warming ginger tea and a blanket for her; she took a sip, her mind steadied.

Thus they kissed once, but before even one, they were separated by the furious Chinu.

Chinu in the dream is also Chinu, hating her for not understanding his bitter wait, hating her for ignoring his annoyance, immediately he both cried and......

This dream spring dream was too real; upon waking, Du Shanü could not even tell where and when she was.

Chinu, on the other hand, woke early, clinging to her and softly asking:

"Wife Master, why don't you sleep a little longer?"

Du Shanü stared at the dust on the bed for a while, then finally came to her senses, and spoke with painful resolve:

"...... I want to abstain from lust."

Chinu: "?"

"Wife Master, what nonsense are you spouting early in the morning?"

"Forget it, having a bit of ambition and vigor early in the morning is normal; just don't say this at night!"

Chinu hummed, took it as a reply, and immediately tightened his grip even more.

Du Shanü went limp:

"Really. I swear, this time I will definitely abstain."

"Otherwise, someday I'll die on the bed."

"Poor Hei Lao Daifu, such a good doctor, we can't let down his medical advice, can we!?"

Du Shanü said two whole sentences before realizing whether it was from holding back her voice last night or her condition worsening, today her voice even became hoarse.

"Where's the medicine?"

Du Shanü could bear it no more, sat up:

"Hei Lao Daifu, where's the medicine you prescribed for me?"

"Fish it out!"

"Hei Lao Daifu, quickly fish her out!"

"If not remedied soon, she fears she'll again have blood flowing three thousand zhang today."

Chinu was pushed away, somewhat unwillingly rose:

"Someone sent it early last night, but I didn't open the door...... It should be outside, I'll go get it."

Du Shanü hesitated slightly:

"...... Someone actually came last night? You didn't notice? Or you shouldn't get the medicine, just leave early? Otherwise if caught......"

Chinu resentfully gave his own Wife Master a white-eye; Du Shanü in the end didn't continue speaking.

Chinu also didn't know what he was thinking, his hand dressing paused, a subtle smile appeared on his lips, and he said:

"Whether caught or not, it's pretty much the same."

"Last night several people came to the door, especially Ruan Jintian, who even stood there for most of the night......"

Du Shanü this time really froze.

She even didn't know whether to first ask who each person was, or first ask Ruan Jintian why he stood half the night.

She opened her mouth again and again, finally couldn't bear it and cursed:

"This Ruan Jintian is sick, huh!"

?? Chinu: "Having some ambition and vigor early in the morning is normal, having some ambition and vigor early in the morning is normal" (murmur. jpg)

? Today is "release as written", so chapter two will be a bit late~