Chapter 1865

"I had envisioned three situations for myself: upper, middle, and lower. The upper was a flat refusal, ordering me to return to the capital, calling it dangerous. The middle was a reply by fast horse, asking again. The last was the lower strategy."

"I could accept and understand both the upper and middle results, but it just had to be the lower strategy."

When Gao Yang said this, he took out a cigarette, put it in his mouth, and wanted to light it, but found he had no fire, so he looked a bit embarrassed.

"On Canglan Mountain, dozens of soldiers froze to death on the summit. White snow accompanied by howling winds swept past, ravaging the entire Canglan Mountain, a vast expanse of white. In the Sudan Desert, looking at it, besides yellow sand, there was only yellow sand. The sand hitting the face was like a knife cut. When the black sandstorm raged, it was like heaven's punishment. At that time, I was thinking, if His Majesty were here, would she feel shocked?"

"Sometimes His Majesty is too good, so good that I, a poisonous scholar, don't hesitate to do my best to help her, fearing no cost, even if I die, I won't resent her in my heart."

"But sometimes, I also wonder, am I, Gao Yang, the person His Majesty trusts most, or just a blade in His Majesty's hand?"

"Qingluan, what do you say I am?"

Gao Yang raised his head to look at Chu Qingluan, his voice very light.

He clearly smiled very wantonly, but it felt harder to look at than crying.

Chu Qingluan fell into silence.

After a long while, she said, "I know you have grievances in your heart, resenting His Majesty for using you as a blade, but you and I both know very well that in the eyes of those in power, let alone subjects, even loved ones can be blades!"

"I'm not speaking for His Majesty, I just want you to be cautious. Perhaps in His Majesty's 'state,' there really is a place for you!"

"Although, this guess is very far-fetched."

"Qingluan, such guessing is very tiring, and also very meaningless." Gao Yang sighed.

Guesses without facts are all self-deception.

At this moment, Chu Qingluan understood everything and also knew the answer in Gao Yang's heart.

"Actually, before you came, Qingluan, my heart was very chaotic, and I didn't have an answer."

"But after you came, I have one!"