Chapter 1053: The book has been published for one year! Summary & Thanks

The book has been published for one year! Summary & Thanks

The book has been published for one year! Summary & Thanks

On January 19, 2022, a new writer on Qidian named "Fish Wood Shao Sheng" opened the Qidian Writer Assistant and casually uploaded about 10,000 words of novel content.

As of January 19, 2023, this book has been published for one year!!!!

On the occasion of this New Year's festival, and also the one-year anniversary of this book, everyone must be very curious about the details when the author was creating it, so I will share with you what preparation work I did before writing this book...

The answer is that I didn't do any preparation work at all.

I also know that everyone must be curious about how the ideas were constructed in the early stages of this book's creation?

The answer is that there were no ideas at all.

I just wanted to try out whether the Qidian Writer Assistant was easy to use!!!!

Why have I already written nearly 4 million words? ！！！！！！

What exactly am I doing now? ！！！！！！！

I don't know if everyone has heard of a famous theory called—"Throw your hat over the wall first."

It roughly means that if you feel you don't have the determination to do something, then throw your hat to the other side of the wall first. This way, having a sunk cost, you have no choice but to climb over the wall to pick the hat back up.

The author threw the hat to the other side of Mount Ximalaya.

When I opened the book, my thoughts were flowing like a spring, and I wrote 10,000 words in three hours. I was really very dashing. A year later, in order to fill the pits, I was scratching my ears and cheeks, and I hadn't finished writing 2,000 words in four hours. I was also really very disheveled.

Digging a pit is fun for a moment, filling the pit is a crematorium!!!!

Every night at two o'clock, waking up from a midnight dream, I have to ask myself, who gave me the courage to start a long novel without writing an outline??!!

I think, perhaps you have never seen any Qidian writer whose main emotion displayed in the one-year summary of their first book is regret.

Why did I add so many settings in the first place? ！！！！Why why why why why why why? ！！！

In order to provide a reasonable origin explanation for the settings I added casually when my brain had a spasm at the time, the books on psychology and behavioral science, especially the part about behavioral motivation, have almost been flipped through by me！！！！

Why did I want to write a system? ！！！

Why did I want to add the setting of the umbrella? ！！！！！！

Why did I want to write about the autism spectrum！！！！！！！

Why is writing a Marvel fanfiction more strenuous than writing a thesis? ！！！

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh！！！！！

Alright, thank you for listening to my roaring. Next, let's talk about business.

First of all, the author's own evaluation of this book is that it is okay overall, but there are also many dissatisfactions.

80% of these points of dissatisfaction come from why I didn't think it through at the time and uploaded the main text directly without writing an outline.

So why didn't I write an outline at the time? ！！！！！

Due to the structure and setting problems in the early stages of the article, it led to spending too much ink later to make up for the loopholes, which also led to the relatively exquisite, fast-paced unit short dramas I had conceived being somewhat impossible to realize.

To write unit short dramas, you need to strengthen details, weaken the main line, and enhance the sense of immersion in every small story. But because many of the previous settings were added casually when I was writing the main text, it led to me having to spend a lot of time explaining what exactly was going on.

When proceeding to this part, the author was like being in prison. On one side was "hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry," and on the other side was regret filled with youthful recklessness.

Because the pressure of filling the pits is really great, it led to the author having too many considerations when unfolding certain plots and being unable to create heartily.

And because the author's emotional pressure will be reflected in the text, the level of this part of the content is also not satisfactory. The author knows all of this.

Many readers will find that their long-form suggestions have been deleted. Some of them might have been swallowed by Qidian, or deleted by the assistant, but many were deleted by the author himself.

Or there are many evaluations that are not bad reviews; they just stated a fact, such as a certain part of the plot being written like dog shit.

When the author saw this evaluation, he didn't feel angry, but just had a very absurd feeling, as if someone finally knew the goods.

So why did I delete these evaluations?

This returns to the first question: why did I open the book?

I just wanted to try out whether the Qidian Writer Assistant client was easy to use.

The answer is that it is really not easy to use！！！！

I replied to these opinions in the background of the Writer Assistant. The person who posted this comment cannot see the reply notification, and the likes I clicked are the same.

Unless I open the Qidian reading client, find your comment from the vast sea of chapter comments, and then reply, you can see the notification.

The problem is, some chapters where opinions appear are already chapters from a long time ago. Looking at the sentence you commented on, I don't even know where it appeared.

However, you wrote so long with great difficulty, and the opinions are also very pertinent. If I don't give feedback, I always feel guilty.

Thus, my little brain had a flash of inspiration: as long as I delete the comment, you can see the notification that your comment has been deleted, which means you can know that I have read your comment.

Am I very genius?

Alright, actually it's because there were some big pits before that made the author feel very desperate. During the middle period of creating this book, the author's anxiety once reached the point of needing medication.

During that period, my mental state wasn't very normal. I felt that all comments longer than three lines were scolding me, so I deleted them all. For a period of time, I even indiscriminately swept all evaluations, squatting in the author's background and mechanically deleting comments for three hours.

I feel the probability of accidentally hurting good reviews is fifty-fifty. If everyone finds that their long reviews have been deleted, it might be the product of the author not taking medicine and going crazy in the middle of the night.

I was wrong. I will take my medicine properly in the future. I am very sorry to the readers whose comments were deleted or who were accidentally hurt. The author will try to reduce the number of times of going crazy in the future.

Of course, some comments you wrote too long might be swallowed by Qidian. That is not something the author can control. If you indeed feel that your suggestions are very pertinent and very useful to the author, you can join the group and then knock on my private window to contact me.

On the internet, the evaluation of this book is generally mixed.

But there is a very interesting phenomenon: half of the people say that the first 30 chapters I wrote are like a pile of dog shit, and the other half say that after 30 chapters, what I wrote is like a pile of dog shit.

This is not a simple product of internet dualism, but represents two reader groups.

Although the previous part had no outline and the plot was relatively thin overall, following the traditional linear web novel route, there was not much room for writing style to be displayed, but the rhythm was fast, the sense of refreshment was sufficient, and it was relatively suitable for readers accustomed to fast-paced reading.

In the second half, when the author began to reorganize the plot and turned to try the unit drama writing style, this type of reader might feel that the rhythm became sluggish, mixed with too many descriptions and lyricism that were meaningless to the plot advancement.

And readers who like to watch the second half might appreciate the author's writing power and style. At the same time, their acceptance of unit drama narrative is also relatively high, so they will feel that the protagonist frequently switching worlds in the front, acting as a plot-pushing tool person without feelings, is slightly thin.

If you want to ask which type the author likes more, the types actually have their own merits and demerits. If the whole book was unfolded in the way of the first 30 chapters, the author would be very comfortable.

As someone who once skillfully mingled in certain refreshing novel websites, writing a refreshing novel with single-line narrative, fast rhythm, and filled with a large number of refreshing points doesn't need to use my brain at all.

Those methods of constructing refreshing points are as if they were engraved in my genes. I once also held this knife, dominated certain websites, killed my way out, and achieved not-bad results.

And if the second method is adopted, the time and energy required are completely incomparable. The author's outline and detailed outline mostly consist of main plot and character settings.

All the callbacks, burying foreshadowing, collecting foreshadowing, the use of certain repeated sentences, certain repeated reactions of characters, and progressive reactions you see in the text are all recorded in the author's brain.

On one hand, my brain has to undertake very trivial recording work, and on the other hand, it has to undertake great emotional pressure to perfect the plot. Although the author has not stepped out of the house for the past year, the life I lived was called ups and downs, magnificent.

In certain plots before, the author said he drank alcohol, he really drank alcohol.

And the degree of drinking might be more serious than you imagine, especially the Gotham part. In many cases, it was in the prelude period of being unconscious.

Many people might feel that the transformation process of Batman in this book is very interesting, because that is actually the author's recovery process.

The paranoia, stubbornness, and chaos in the first half were mostly produced under the numbing effect of alcohol, while the rationality, persistence, and sudden enlightenment in the later period were mostly written under the effect of sufficient medication.

For a very long period of time, I didn't know what I was doing.

Someone might feel that I was forced by life, to earn money, but actually it's not.

My family situation is okay, there is no family pressure, no brothers and sisters, no complex interpersonal relationships. The money I earned from going to work and writing novels before is enough for me to live very dashingly in a city where the cost of living is comparable to a first-tier city.

So, what exactly am I doing? Why do I want to make myself so painful? Why do I want to choose the most thankless path between simple and difficult?

I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, got up and thought carefully, only to find that the dense words between the lines were two words—"Love."

You might feel a bit cheesy, but actually, all authors who carry out long novels, when creating, if there is no love and creative passion supporting them, the money earned is not enough to buy medicine.

The premise is serious creation, not like I used to be, picking up a pen to create shit.

Actually, I have also seriously analyzed that the vast majority of the source of my anxiety is that I know clearly that this is a book destined to be not perfect enough, just like the protagonist of this book, Schiller, who was born with almost incurable mental illness.

However, a very important manifestation of anxiety disorder is the tendency toward perfectionism, which is commonly known as obsessive-compulsive disorder.

For a period of time, I sat at the table looking at the wine bottle on the table, as if another me was sitting opposite.

That me was incomplete, and no matter what method was used, it was impossible to become perfect again, like this novel, and also like many people's life experiences.

She kept saying to me, if you continue, it's just adding pain to everyone, just like those patients who were born with mental illness but came to this world.

Others can't bear for him to die, but he also can't live well.

There will be a voice in your heart urging you to make a decision that should have been extreme, but she tells you that this is a decision of decisiveness and judgment.

So at that time, why didn't I make this decision?

Because I tossed and turned, thought about it, and still felt reluctant.

Perhaps many people know that my practice work on a certain website is no longer updated for various reasons. When I made this decision, I had a very strong sense of guilt, not toward the readers, but toward the characters in the book.

I spent a lot of effort to shape them so vividly. Every action they appeared in the plot was made by themselves in my brain, not controlled by me.

And once I decided not to continue creating this book, it meant that my children were dead and would never come back again.

I don't want to experience this feeling again.

This is the most important reason why this book can stumble to today, no one else.

After all, in a situation where the mental state is not very normal, it is very difficult for you to make me rationally think about the gains and losses of interests.

Only more extreme emotions can move me, including my love for every character in the book.

In recent times, there might be many people who don't understand the depiction of greed, but actually, this is a portrayal of the author's heart.

In order to continue to shape these superheroes I love, and give everyone the best ending, I have to write even if I can't write, I have to update even if I can't update, even if the mental state slides uncontrollably, I still have to write.

And if you ask how the author's illness was cured...

Do you think I will say it's because of you?

Alright, I know that saying this will definitely trick some people into being moved to tears. After all, the book review area of this book always has some little fools who are tricked by the plot.

However, as an author committed to popularizing psychology and psychiatry, I must tell everyone that the main reason for my condition to improve is sufficient medication, there is no other answer.

I have also seen many comments in the comment area sharing their inner trauma or wanting to seek psychological counseling from the author.

But first of all, the author has no license, so it is impossible to provide you with any treatment suggestions. All I can do is tell you, don't be afraid to see a doctor.

Some people feel that it is outrageous to take medicine because of mental illness, thinking it is drug abuse, but actually, the problems you think only exist in psychology and emotions might have already affected physiology. It's just that the overly low mood makes you ignore this point, and seeking medical treatment and taking medicine as early as possible will open the door to a new world for you.

Of course, it must be admitted that in terms of psychology in China, the development is still not perfect enough. The distinction between psychologists, psychological counselors, and psychiatrists is not obvious enough, leading to many people being deceived.

The author says it again: the vast majority of so-called psychological counselors have no prescription rights. He is not a doctor and cannot cure diseases, but he can comfort you.

Psychologists have prescription rights and can also be responsible for comforting you.

Psychiatrists have prescription rights and might be able to comfort you, or might not. Some doctors are only responsible for the diagnosis of mental illness and are not responsible for "talk therapy" in the traditional sense.

So, don't expect psychological counselors to prescribe medicine for you, and don't go to the psychiatry department and grab any doctor to let him comfort you.

The correct process is to register at the psychiatry department of a regular hospital and follow the process for examination and diagnosis.

If the doctor judges that you don't need medication, but you still feel very uncomfortable, then go find a professional psychological counselor and listen to him explain things to you.

And if it is judged that you need to use medication, then you must follow the doctor's advice, instead of feeling that as long as you listen to the psychologist talk for two sentences, the disease will naturally disappear.

Furthermore, the vast majority of mental illness reactions I described in the book come from what I have seen with my own eyes.

And the purpose of my writing this content is to hope that everyone will not demonize mental illness. It is the same as ordinary diseases, with causes, symptoms, and pathology, and can be treated and cured.

At the same time, I also hope that everyone will have enough patience for patients suffering from mental illness, especially those with long courses of disease or congenital diseases. These people are really already very painful.

The autism spectrum that the protagonist of this book, Schiller, suffers from is a very typical congenital mental problem with unclear causes, and currently, there is no very scientific method for complete cure.

Of course, not being able to be completely cured does not mean it cannot be cured in stages. If you start a network-style screening from people you know and people people you know know, you will find that the number of children on the spectrum in the past is much more than you imagine.

But they are also like ordinary people, living in this society, just that certain behavioral manifestations might produce some abnormalities.

If you notice some abnormalities in life, or discover reactions like some details described in this article, please don't make a fuss, and don't over-care. That is just an ordinary person.

Of course, finally, I must thank the readers. Although medication is the main reason for my recovery, the biggest difference between psychological and mental problems and other diseases is that it needs a better recovery environment.

For a long time, the reason why I recovered quickly was because every time I opened the book review area, it was like entering a group of praise. Many people held a kind of firmness that even made me feel confused, to praise me.

It somewhat left me speechless.

I don't know why they are so firm, why they can discover so many shining points in a work destined to be incomplete, and it is even worth them typing so many words to praise me.

This gives me a feeling of "So this is what a normal person is?"

Patients with anxiety disorder are like constantly being in a sea of nothingness, on one hand desperately swimming forward, not wanting to drown, and on the other hand knowing that the boat will not come.

If the ocean where ordinary anxiety disorder patients are is a sea of nothingness and confusion, then the author is lost in the ocean of praise.

You might feel that at the moment the comment is sent, after your emotional value is released, it disappears into the air, but actually it didn't.

I can figure out the psychology of everyone posting through every sentence and every word, and feel this emotion more deeply than you.

This ability once brought me disaster. In the situation where I had not encountered any major setbacks and my family was happy, I had always been troubled by mental illness precisely because of my overly strong empathy ability.

And at this moment, it became my boat.

If there is really a high tower in my thinking space, medication just glued it back together, but you, all the readers of this book, all your subscriptions, comments, and likes, painted its surface into the perfect appearance I have always wanted but could not get.

Although I know that there is nothing perfect in this world, what anxiety disorder patients pursue is an illusion.

And the reason why they cannot be cured is that in the cruel real society, in the vast majority of cases, they cannot even get an illusion.

I am very lucky. All the readers, with every action of theirs, wove a utopia.

Letting me, as long as I click on the Writer Assistant, be able to cast aside all troubles, go to see the words and sentences of the imperfect works created for me by many imperfect people in this world, and feel my heart shake.

So, on the occasion of this one-year anniversary, I want to solemnly thank all the readers of this book, including readers who might not have money to read the genuine version, or who have published suggestions for this book on other social platforms.

Thank you, my good medicine.

In addition, I also want to emphatically thank all the reader friends who have tipped this book.

I really can't imagine what kind of mood you are in, when you have already spent money to subscribe to this book, you actually spent extra money to tip?!!

This behavior of yours brings me a much, much greater shock than the money you tipped.

Of course, there are also people who really brought me a little shock in terms of money, such as the 45 alliance leaders of this book so far.

Alliance leaders! Friends! One alliance leader is 1000 yuan!!!

Every time I think of this matter, I feel that my current worry-free life state might just be because I haven't seen the world.

And what makes me feel even more like I haven't seen the world is a silver alliance leader of this book, "Kratiaas," and a silver grand alliance leader, "Chen Yi Sain."

How can this book have two silver alliance leaders? ！！！

I didn't even write an outline when I opened the book！！！！

... Why didn't I write an outline when I opened the book?!

In addition, when the first silver alliance leader, Kratiaas, appeared, I had just finished 20,000 words a day. At that time, my mental state was relatively poor, and I didn't conduct a single chapter or special thanks. I am really very sorry!

And also!!! Chen Yi, the big boss, is forever the god!! The first silver grand alliance leader!! The whole site banner is here!!! Really thank you very much!!!

I said before that after the silver alliance leader appears, I will add updates, but because after the comprehensive opening, the author has to commute for three hours every day to work, it is really impossible to finish writing.

So, the big boss can wait for me to be free, then I will add updates, or directly point out the plot, whatever you point out, I will write.

The word count is uncertain, depending on the complexity of the plot. You can write CP, but basically there is no way to have edge-ball content, because the review won't let it pass, and some sensitive topics are the same.

Of course, given that I am a fanfiction nail-householder, this kind of customized extra story might not have much room for appreciation, but I will definitely write it seriously, and I will definitely write an outline in advance.

... So why didn't I write an outline in advance before? ！！！！

Alright, on the occasion of this one-year anniversary, and also coinciding with the New Year's festival, I wish all reader friends good luck in the Year of the Rabbit!

Happy New Year!

... Why didn't I write an outline in advance? ！！！！ ===== CHAPTER 1054 =====