Chapter 1766: with translation of chapter title

NO. 381: Think about what Aomo Lindun would do

- Contains 'Aomo Lindun' (provided). Also 'NO. 381:' is just a number, not a name.

Even if you have a will to survive, what can you do about it?

- No named entities.

Taking out the convenience of boyfriend status entails fulfilling the 'price' of boyfriend status, but for little Aomo that is absolutely impossible.

However, besides the troublesome girlfriends led by Huoerhaiya and Yishamala, there are also some women who, despite having no romantic ties, try to take action.

Indeed, they probably should also realize that taking advantage of someone's peril doesn't last long.

Explaining one's feelings to a child is utterly useless; it only shatters the painstakingly maintained balance in the relationship.

But in little Aomo's eyes, the horse-girl teams led by Ailisuzhi and symbolized by Sirius are not honest at all.

They're all impatient folks; in this regard, they're not even as good as my little sister.

Although she had obviously repaired her relationship with Aizhi, she had no intention of joining the big group to make things harder for little Aomo. She only joined in at the beginning, when everyone was watching little Aomo, and together they pulled at that child who didn't know whether to call him brother or little brother.

After that, it was just some help bringing drinks and snacks.

And going to play with the middle-school horse-girl travel companions of the same age.

If this is truly a clever scheme, little Aomo wouldn't hesitate to praise it.

Competing with others is indeed like that.

You don't have to reach the extreme and be sublimated; you just need not to be worse than others.

The so-called red-skill-specialized gate horse is exactly taking this route; when you maintain stability, they frequently make blunders, which likewise lets you stand out.

Not seeking the ultimate speed, but seeking the crown of victory.

Although such a choice is often looked down upon by the purity faction, competitive sports are precisely about winning and losing, aren't they?

The same goes for emotional problems.

You never need to become the best person; you just need to be the person who is good in the eyes of relatives, friends, parents, and lovers.

In other words, you need to adjust the endpoint on your track.

Different endpoints represent different tracks, and even different competitive directions; this should be common sense, needing no elaboration, but for these excellent horse girls, it might be a blind spot they've never considered.

Precisely because they are excellent, on the track they yearn more for their own improvement than for disturbing opponents or hoping for opponents' mistakes.

—This mindset is etched into their hearts through their athletic careers.

It makes them habitually pursue a better self.

Furthermore, they believe that if excellence can attract so many fans, it will certainly also attract the person they hope to attract.

To be frank, this logic isn't wrong, but when it involves the elements of love and competition, there are indeed some subtle discrepancies.

And these subtle discrepancies will, in the later long-distance run, prove the Eastern saying "a tiny error leads to a great mistake".

It's hard to believe that among high schoolers, college students, and graduates who have been out for several years, the first to realize this was a middle school student.

But thinking about where this middle school student learned from… and thinking that these high schoolers, college students, and graduates are at a crucial stage in their careers, the mindset of wholeheartedly preparing for competition is indeed guided by that goal into a blind spot logic chain… little Aomo then has nothing to sigh about.

At most, sigh that there are bad people in the crowd.

After all, such a blind spot lasting a while at first is fine, but to say it could persist for several months, causing Aomo Lindun in memory to take several measures to restrict, even to make explicit responses, and still not wake up—there are only two possibilities.

Setting aside the possibility that everyone is a one-sided extreme love-brain, completely indifferent to the man's thoughts, the only thing left is artificial micro-control.

You little clique of girlfriends, you usually share information so quickly, yet when it comes to this most crucial part, you suddenly keep it secret?

What kind of thing is this?

Should I intervene?

Little Aomo doesn't think maintaining this status quo is a good thing.

On one hand, it might turn into a big conflict within the horse-girl team; on the other hand, letting these big-eared older sisters continue muddling along will only torment oneself.

But…

The ladies' war, perhaps anyone can intervene, except the man who is seen as the endpoint.

Even if one cannot achieve current balance, one should still do what one can to be impartial.

But having said that, isn't the reason I chose to take on multiple girlfriends just for the classic, greedy phrase "I want it all"?

Sighing at the distortion, rejecting loss, one hopes to grasp as much of the other's half as possible.

To achieve deep stability for them, the utmost is to make decisions for them; this is a pathological desire for maintenance.

Perhaps someone would use "protecting the other" to package it as normal sentiment, but Aomo Lindun's analysis of this has always been thorough; he would only see it as a complex composition whose main component is the manifestation of a desire for control.

He also does not hide it at all.

There have been countless opportunities to reveal this to the women, and he is not stingy with entrusting his feelings; thus he is also willing to entrust his own half to them.

Precisely because many aspects are not equal, one needs to offer different-direction responses as compensation to show sincerity.

But this belongs to considerations under an already dating relationship.

Although little Aomo thinks that will probably happen sooner or later, as long as it hasn't happened yet, it shouldn't be included in present considerations.

At this point, one shouldn't even discuss "who owes whom"; even if they actually start dating, they shouldn't talk about who owes whom, but rather discuss an emotional value; only after looking back calmly should one tearfully discuss "who owes whom". Now, little Aomo's dilemma is exactly whether to lean toward "their current stance" or "his own desire".

To be frank, with little Aomo's way of thinking, this kind of problem would instantly choose the latter.

After all, he is someone who never considers a second person, let alone a third or fourth, with his mind filled only with his own stage.

Accustomed to taking care of himself, accustomed to not relying on others, he therefore never feels he owes anyone. That is, having a legally recognized adoptive father-son relationship with Molisen, he is forced to consider a non-human vampire.

In Aomo Lindun's original growth trajectory, it would still take another one or two years for him to completely get used to the sight of always having a vampire foster father in his view.

Also, after those one or two years, the adolescent Aomo Lindun would have more economic paths available; family finances would become more affluent, life relatively freer, he would begin to intensely follow horse girls in earnest, and would also start to pay some vague attention to his foster father's situation, entering the ultimate stage of "hoping for the father to become a dragon".

That is all something that will happen one or two years later.

But little Aomo is ultimately not that twelve-year-old boy.

He is merely a twenty-year-old youth whose mentality has regressed to the stage of twelve.

With twenty years of memories all in mind, it's truly impossible to put on a brave face and claim to be a genuine child who can willfully ignore everything.

After all, you still have to take responsibility for your actions, so you still need to consider those girls' perceptions, as well as the possible causal chain that could be triggered if those perceptions change.

Then Little Aomo would think.

Think about what the twenty-year-old self would do.

(End of chapter)