Chapter 955

NO．78：Awake? Awake

"Hei Qian? Are you alright?"

"Shut up……"

"Indeed, we should still tidy up that pile of stuff; it looks rather dangerous."

"Shut up……"

"Then I'll go get something to eat? Let this room return to Azalea Terrace; when you're feeling down, you should have some dessert."

"Exactly, Hei Qian, Xiao Qian is right; you need to pull yourself together."

"Shut up, Kailifu!"

"Ugh……"

Still that small room with the doors and windows tightly shut, even the curtains drawn.

Still that small room where the computer has collapsed into a mess, and even sparks occasionally flare from the exposed wiring, already becoming a safety hazard.

But it's also that small room where the garbage bags that once filled the floor have been cleared out by Xin Tiao Qian, and the floor has been swept and mopped clean.

Clean enough that Hei Qian could just collapse onto it without a care.

Also clean enough that Qian found a blanket to cover her with, without forcibly dragging her to the bedroom next door.

Of course, given her current state, forcibly dragging her would only worsen the situation.

Xintiao Qian is very familiar with this state of hers.

Although at first she still seemed unharmed, even able to recount past events to herself.

She spoke of how, after parting ways with the three-member Gu Li Te alliance, she lived normally in that world until time fell back into a cycle, until the world began to descend into chaos, until mad people and monsters frequently appeared, and finally, as the world started to collapse and she was nearly at her wit's end, she encountered the god's past.

And that god told her the whole truth.

He told her that this entire universe had been devoured by Gu Li Te, and that in order to oppose Gu Li Te, he was devising a way to seize his power.

He also told her that all this chaos was a phenomenon caused by the overproduction of monsters.

The essence of that phenomenon, and also the essence of monsters, is——the chaos brought by extreme freedom, and the soil moisture increase caused by that chaos.

And, the madness of a vicious cycle.

Without a doubt, Xintiao Qian cannot escape responsibility for such a disaster.

And in such a disaster.

Already infected with the madness brought by the soil moisture increase, the monster nature within the restless Hei Qian stirs, yet she simultaneously harbors the unwillingness and hatred born from the deaths of her loved ones and madness.

She decided to help that god, oppose Gu Li Te, and also oppose those who once fought alongside Gu Li Te.

From her perspective, this could even be considered saving the world——although she doesn't care about that.

Everything is a cycle.

She once could encourage Liu Hua to remember to smile while seeing off Xintiao Qian, but now, upon thinking of that world's destruction and those people's deaths, she wishes to let Xintiao Qian experience this feeling herself.

She certainly hates.

The madness brought by the soil moisture increase grows stronger within her; she hates that Xintiao Qian can be saved for no reason, and she hates that Xintiao Qian thinks leaving equals atoning for the past.

The mess she left behind is still wreaking havoc on everything, isn't it?

And that Gu Li Te!

What is that so-called righteous Gu Li Te up to now?!

When the world is destroyed, what is he and his restorative light beam doing? And what are Liu Hua and Nei Hai up to?!

"They're also trapped, caught in this endless school-year cycle." Xintiao Qian clearly replied to her, but this obviously isn't enough to calm someone who already has a permanent madness buff.

"As for the phenomenon of monster proliferation, that is indeed related to me, so I must maintain atonement, but there's one thing: you have actually been completely deceived~"

What?

Deceived?

What is she saying?

Hei Qian did not speak.

Besides recounting the past, she does not want to speak with Xintiao Qian, because the latter makes her feel disgusted; were it not for the gamble, were it not for that special monster model the latter holds, she would love to pick up a utility knife and start cutting.

So she wrote her doubts on her face, prompting Xintiao Qian to immediately speak without beating around the bush:

"Actually, it's not really being deceived, after all you yourself could actually notice it, or rather you must have noticed it long ago, right?"

"Your so-called god, the power he gave you, isn't it to let you freely control this world's chaos?"

"Why? Can the power he gave you control this kind of chaos?"

"Why? Can he also supplement you with those two special kinds of monsters that you cannot create? That is clearly the product of turning Guli Te into monsters, right?"

"That frantic appearance should also match the monster image that ravaged that world in your memory, right?"

This is Xintiao Qian's guess.

Hei Qian did not go into detail about the monster forms that ravaged her own world; that memory is, for her, quite painful and unbearable, so while recounting it, her brow would twitch from time to time, as if she were personally tearing open a scab.

But this does not mean that Xintiao Qian has truly received eighty percent of Aomo's true teachings, enabling her to deduce so much information from minute details.

She simply knows the answer, then works backward from the answer to the process.

【Source of Madness】

The original intention behind letting the little snake act is precisely the ability to affect all monsters, such that even electronic information of three-dimensional monster recordings cannot escape.

Although he is called 'Legs Very Fat' by Bi Ze, giving him a somewhat comical air, when Hei Qian recounts her past and mentions the phenomenon of creating monsters, she suddenly understands why that guy has that appearance.

Isn't that the original Godzilla suit from the Showa monster series?

The monster-obsessed Xintiao Qian even remembers the goofy photo of the original suit actor Haruo Nakajima wearing the lower-half Godzilla suit.

Upon thinking of Godzilla's title as King of Monsters, and then connecting it to the so-called 'monster overproduction phenomenon,' Xintiao Qian can almost immediately arrive at a simple, brutal conclusion that only a monster aficionado would have.

——Isn't the true embodiment of the monster overproduction phenomenon precisely that guy with the outline of the King of Monsters!?

They are the true mastermind, constantly catalyzing the increase in moisture, using Gulite as a pretext to destroy the world, and at the same time deceiving you.

How...

How could it be impossible, Heixi~

Even Kailifu found an opportunity to deliver a finishing blow.

Don't forget that your current ability enhancement surpasses that of the little Heixi from before, and it's also because of them. Why do you think they can grant you monster-related powers? In this world, aren't monsters themselves synonymous with chaos?

Silence—this finishing blow left Heixi utterly silent, and for the entire hour she sat in the chair staring at the broken computer.

Like being dazed, yet also like being heart-dead.

Xin Tiao Xi and Alexis Kailifu both maintained the same silence.

To prevent her from going mad after her heart died.

The two just watched as the girl finally rose from the chair, not choosing to rise again on the battlefield, but instead slipping after just a few steps, performing a pratfall that left both of them unable to laugh.

"Ouch…" she whispered, yet she didn't say anything else.

She also didn't get up.

Vividly illustrating what it means to 'fall where you fall, lie where you fall'.

It's not hard to see that this blow to the mind was thorough.

Even before, Heixi's mind had already been traumatized.

Devoting oneself to the source of chaos does not mean the mind's wounds have healed; rather, it moves toward draining vitality.

And in those repeated futile attempts before, her patience was constantly being worn down.

Xin Tiao Xi's occasional actions and words also interfered like a slow simmer over a low flame, never giving her a chance to 'take a deep breath and adjust her state'.

Next, the one that drove her mental state to the killing line was the Nijicalis jointly wielded by Aomo and Apon.

Compared to the dream she herself built that did not strike according to her plan, it was the dragon of punitive destruction that ran rampant on the stage she constructed that utterly destroyed her confidence.

After all, that stage was her own creation.

She was quite aware that Aomo Lindun had not at all seized control of her dream world; the other party could not produce something that doesn't exist in reality on the terrain she built.

In other words.

That is a truly existing monster.

The Heaven's Authority Judgment Nijicalis, even without seizing control of the dream, could still command heaven and earth; although monsters are often described as having godlike power, that monster is different.

They truly were like a god, easily destroying all enemies, together with the stage.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but face the problem that immediately followed:

If they appear in reality afterward, could she create a monster capable of defeating them…?

She didn't know.

Leaning on the chair, staring blankly at the computer and desk smashed by the tip of the other's claw, she thought a lot, yet didn't know what she was thinking.

She thought about how to respond, about waiting in silence for the god's descent, about needing only to stay quiet and hidden, awaiting the other's victory…

But she could not deny.

Unable to deny that she had doubted whether that 'god' could win, and doubted whether she herself would lose.

She even thought that, even if the god won, her now-useless self would be dealt with in some way.

She thought so much that it could almost be said she was constantly indulging in wild speculation, and the only thing certain about those thoughts was that she could no longer do anything.

Just thinking of that, she felt boundless fatigue and emptiness.

Having given up school, given up normal life, and poured her whole heart into building and controlling the stage, the final thing was to abandon the stage itself.

Then what could she still do?

It was precisely in that emptiness that she gave Xin Tiao Xi the opportunity to show sincerity.

She recounted her past.

And Xin Tiao Xi also pointed out the detail she had long ignored through her obsessive effort.

Anger?

Not even the strength to be angry remained.

She couldn't even mock herself, feeling only numbness.

She had been deceived, deceived into abandoning everything, deceived into aiding evil, wasting time day after day in the same scenery, even unable to recall that day's oath.

What was said in the classroom?

What had been agreed upon there?

Even now, what does she hate?

She can no longer tell them apart.