[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-reborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army":3,"chapter-reborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army-reborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army-chapter-1553":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","Reborn As A Ghost: Time To Build My Undead Army!",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1694209,2163,"Chapter 1553: My Fear","reborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army-chapter-1553",1553,"\u003Cp>-----\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Hahaha... You’re really a crazy woman, aren’t you?\" he laughed, his original personality returning. \"But I like that... among all the flaws you have as a mortal, I suppose there’s one thing I like, your pride and your reckless willpower, the determination to do things, courage that stems from seemingly nowhere. I once hated mortals, I believed them to be stupid and sinful beings... But I also pitied them and didn’t like what my siblings were doing. Over time, I learned to accept them and even admire them to an extent... and now, I finally understand why I’m here. It’s because I was the only one among my siblings to stand up for your kind.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"If they won’t stop bothering me until I die, I might as well bring war to them,\" I nodded. \"And... well, my greatest fear?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I looked down at the vortex, ignoring the eyes of the primordial beings prying at my \"ascension,\" something that went beyond just a Divine Ember, I’m sure.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I looked at the system descriptions again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[You have obtained a Memory Fragment: 3\u002F3]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Congratulations, you have successfully gathered all Memory Fragments before the time limit!]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[You are now undergoing Existence Evolution, however, there’s a need for personal input.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[To continue evolving from this point onward, you will be required to recognize the depths of who you truly are.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[To embrace the Nightmarish Fragment within you and use it to evolve as you wish, you must accept your greatest Fear.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[This Fear, which has led you to all of your decisions, until this very moment.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To embrace my Nightmarish Fragment and my Fear...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>By Fragment, it means the power I took from the Original Nightmare Curse.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And by Fear... well, my greatest Fear is...?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What is it?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What guided me until this very moment?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What has defined every single one of my Memories so far?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fear of dying? Not really.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fear of...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Yeah, I know what I fear the most.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Despite being someone who never had that many friends.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And who was always fighting with her sister...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My greatest fear, since my father left me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was the Fear of being alone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The Fear of Loneliness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was simple.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It wasn’t the fear of dying, starvation, or any other thing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was simply the fear of being alone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I never wanted to be alone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Since I was a little toddler, I feared being alone, and it tortured me that I was never popular or could not make friends that easily.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When my father left me, I was devastated. I was only a little baby girl at that time, and yet...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I constantly cried to my mother to never leave me like my father did.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then, when I grew up, I feared being alone too. I didn’t want Christopher to one day forget about me, so I tried to make him my boyfriend. I even dreamed about marrying him and living together forever.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was... a little obsessive in the end, and maybe that creeped him out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But I was just afraid that he would leave me...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I didn’t want to be alone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And then in the library, when I fought with my sister, I felt sorry afterward because I was overly rude. I loved my sister and would never want her to leave my side.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was once more afraid of being alone, so I intended to apologize, to bring her a gift so she would forgive me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As Maria, I never faced that Fear again until the bitter end, when I died and became a Ghost. The first thing I did...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Almost instinctively, as I was so afraid of being alone, was to create Partner, turning my own Skeleton into an Undead that would accompany me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I continued gathering friends, mostly dead friends, because we were all lonely...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And when you’re an Undead, your Fears and Traumas intensify tremendously.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This is how I ended up surrounded by so many people. I couldn’t help but seek them to be at my side.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I couldn’t bear being alone on my own again. I feared that more than dying again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was a creeping and terrifying fear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And right now, this Fear is manifesting again. The friends I made here, I’ve become too attached to them, even though I only met them a couple of days ago.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This is also connected to my loneliness, to my longing for company...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I always thought I could be like those people who are perfectly content with being alone, and I respect them a lot...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Those who go on their own journeys and don’t really need anybody by their side.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But... I am not like them. I can’t really be like them.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In the end, I need them all by my side.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To continue moving forward, to continue fighting even when I’m so afraid.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And even now, with Michael, I wanted him to be by my side, because I knew he was also very lonely and sad.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Michael,\" I smiled. \"You will never be alone ever again, alright?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"M-Maria...\" he looked at me with surprise. \"I see... so that’s your greatest Fear? What you’ll embody?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Yes...\" I smiled, as my entire body started melting into particles of darkness and light.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My eyes shone brightly, resembling a pair of crimson stars, as the swirling vortex of energies, memories, and power engulfed my entire being and transformed me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"My Greatest Fear is... Loneliness.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I had to accept myself, my own vulnerability, my greatest weakness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They were all gazing upon it. They now knew it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But it didn’t matter, because this weakness, this fear...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was about to become my greatest strength.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I felt my body melting. Everything became a starry darkness, which then turned red, black, and white and melted away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I felt a cold wave of... loneliness. Dread consumed me, and then I consumed my own dread and loneliness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I started crying endlessly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Black tears covered the cosmos before me, as I couldn’t help but weep at my own loneliness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My nightmarish power manifested, shattering stars and melting them as they forged the evolution of my soul into something even more warped than before.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>-----\u003C\u002Fp>",1027,"2026-06-06T14:08:05.341Z",1,"novelbin.me","883ad7a007d119d9d1b7f19d10a5509ea4c81050a4a9f3c3f16a0f9bf0f7dc2b","reborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army-chapter-1554","reborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army-chapter-1552",1954,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Freborn-as-a-ghost-time-to-build-my-undead-army-cover.jpg"]