[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-reincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son":3,"chapter-reincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son-reincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son-chapter-57":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","Reincarnated As The Villainess's Son",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1365800,1806,"Chapter 57: [Weapon Selection] [5]","reincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son-chapter-57",57,"\u003Cp>\"Urgh...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As my eyes fluttered open, a groan escaped my mouth, confusion itching in my mind as I massaged my temples.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'El?'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Yeah.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'I lost control.'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[You did.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'...And I beat him up brutally.'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Focusing my gaze, I looked at Tristan, who was being taken away on a stretcher by staff members.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>An oxygen mask covered his face, while a nurse attempted to stop the bleeding on his wounded shoulder.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The students were scattered around him, including Oliver, Ashlyn, Arianell, and Shyamal.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I didn't know if it was intentional or not, but the axe had lodged into his dominant hand's shoulder, and I was quite sure he would have a hard time using a sword for quite some time, if not for his entire life.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'Crazy bastard.'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I thought as I stood up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>All eyes turned to me as I walked towards the exit.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I thought he was weak.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Yeah, maybe he took some type of drug.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Lunatic, nearly killing someone.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Monster.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As I walked past the students, their gossip and low voices entered my ears.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'Monster, huh?'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That truly summed me up perfectly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A monster who didn't deserve love.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Sigh...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sighing, I walked out of the hall and turned towards the building beside it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Without much delay, I walked up the stairs until I reached the terrace of the building.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Click.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slam!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>With a click I opened the door before, I slammed it shut as I walked in.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The cold air breezed against my skin as I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"El.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Yeah?]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Did Inder say something to you?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[...He said to stop doing what you're doing right now.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"And what the fuck am I doing?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[.... Burdening yourself with all those responsibilities.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Haha,\" I let out a small chuckle as I walked closer towards the edge of the building.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The entire academy came into view as I looked down from here.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"So, what does he want me to do?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I mumbled as I leaned against the wall.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[....Why are you even trying to take everything on yourself—]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"El, El,\" I interjected.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"How hard is it for you to understand this?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>How many times do I have to say it?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am cursed!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am cursed since the day I was born!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Clenching my fists, I shouted, trying my best to not let my anger consume me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Whoever loves me, cares for me, dies! They die!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[... Why are you even saying that you are cursed—]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Because I have seen... whoever loved me die.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Bringing my trembling hands to my face, I replied,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I saw... Shane die in front of my eyes, and I couldn't do anything to save him...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I whispered softly as I looked at my hands.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"He was... a brother to me, El.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[.... That wasn't your fault—]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Aunt Belly,\" I interjected again as I muttered,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You know what she was to me?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[.... No.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"When I first started to walk, it wasn't my mother who was there for me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I first learned to talk, I called her name before anyone else's.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I was in pain, when I needed anything, when I was sad, I always ran towards her...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I always found myself beside her at the end of the day...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slowly, I sat on the floor, ignoring the ache in my heart as I continued,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\".....But when I tried to open up to her...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I tried to tell her what I was going through...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She lost her life.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was executed, El.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was executed right in front of my eyes...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[.....]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"And you know what her last words were?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I asked softly as I rested my head against the wall.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Take care of my loved ones and myself.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She told me that with a smile on her face before her head was decapitated from her body.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was helpless...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I couldn't do anything but just watch her die because of me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[....You always knew you can't keep your end of the deal with your mother, didn't you?]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'.....'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[....You made the deal even though you knew you will lose your life.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'Yeah,' I replied, closing my eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>From the first day when I made a deal with her, I knew I would not live much longer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I always knew that I would die the day I turned sixteen.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But with my remaining life, I didn't drown myself in pleasure or happiness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I drowned myself in hate and sorrow so that when I disappear from their life...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I die...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They can move on with their lives...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Without being tormented by my death...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"It's not like I don't want to be loved, El....\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I just don't want those who love me to die.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am just tired...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am scared of losing them...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No matter how much I do to change that...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I will always be left alone...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I will always be left with me....\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[.....]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I am a monster, El...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Born on the dead bodies of millions....\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Died buried between the dead bodies of millions...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[...What are you saying?]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"In the game,\" I mumbled softly, my eyes still closed, \"I did a massacre far worse than what my mother did.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Even though I wasn't in control of my body... But still I alone took millions of lives.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[.....]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Do you still think I am not cursed?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[....You know, Azariah... I am not the right person to talk to about this.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'Click.'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I opened my eyes gently as I heard the sound of the door clicking open.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Hey... Az...ariah.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Waving her hand, she called me awkwardly as I shifted my position and sat properly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What brings you here, Ashlyn?\" With a smile, I asked as I looked at her beautiful golden eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"....I was trying to find you, but you just disappeared from the hall.\" Walking slowly closer towards me, she replied.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I just wanted to have some time alone.\" I replied as I averted my gaze away from her, \"you know I don't feel alright with all that happened there.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I feel hungry, Azariah... let's get something to eat.\" Standing in front of me, she said with a gentle smile.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...No, I don't feel like eating anything.\" Shaking my head, I replied, \"you can go ahead and eat something.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"It's fine then...I don't feel much hungry anyway.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You know you don't have to come here.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I said looking around as she took another step closer to me,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I am not in my right state of mind and being with me right now isn't the best—.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Azariah.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Kneeling beside me, she called while gently squeezing my hand.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Y-yeah.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Look at me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I shifted slightly as I faced her, looking into her eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"It's still bleeding.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She whispered as she took out a handkerchief from her pocket before placing it on my wounded throat.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I just looked at her as she tried to clean my wound with a concerned look.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>'She is too kind.'\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's been like five days since I have known her, only five and even in these five days, she has seen how people treat me...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>how I am hated by most of the people.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's honestly her kindness that she is still sticking with me even when Miley tried so many times to separate us.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Azariah.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Ashlyn.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Do you need a hug?\" She whispered softly, looking into my eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No, I am fine, nothing happened to m—.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And before I could properly reject her, she stood on her knees and hugged my head gently.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Everything will be alright,\" she whispered, gently caressing my hair.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Everything is alri—.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You are not very good at hiding emotions.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I am.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No, silly, you are not.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I closed my eyes as I stopped talking, slowly inhaling her scent.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It smelled good... like that of an angel, far better than any human could.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slam!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Azariah.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The door once again slammed open as a loud voice called me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"....\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My eyes met with Oliver's, who stood at the door as Ashlyn slowly moved away from me, breaking the hug.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slam!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Sister-in-law, why are you following me?\" Slamming the door, he shouted, making me alert as I stood up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Stup up, Oliver.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slam!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The door once again slammed open, but this time it was a white-haired girl who opened the door.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And Oliver, like a scaredy-cat, walked behind her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Azariah, you alright, man?\" Moving away from Arianell, he ran towards me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Yeah,\" I replied, shaking my head.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Let me hug you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As soon as he walked closer, he grabbed me and slammed me against his chest.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slap!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Urgh...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Keep your tits away from my face.\" Slapping his chest, I grumbled as I took a step back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why the discrimination?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He muttered, massaging his chest, while Ashlyn quickly created a distance between us with a small blush on her face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why are you here?\" I asked, looking at him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Because I was concerned about you,\" he replied.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Where is Aimar?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\".... Miley stopped him.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...Fucking simp.\" Shaking my head, I looked towards Arianell.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"And why are you here, princess?\" I asked, walking right towards her, trying to invade her private space.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Time to irritate the princess a little.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"There is a call from your mother.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I halted my steps as blood started to drain from my face.\u003C\u002Fp>",1545,"2026-06-05T21:29:08.031Z",1,"novelbin.me","78f84e2e61a7fdd43ed86d086ba5b38f886758d156e535887fa02f539edc7f3e","reincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son-chapter-58","reincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son-chapter-56",556,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Freincarnated-as-the-villainess-s-son-cover.jpg"]