Chapter 643: Rural Absurd Past Events Chapter 643: So, Do You Want to Break Up with Me?

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Protagonist:

Li Xiulan

Wang Xiaohua was scolded by Wan Zhiyuan like that, and no longer had the mood to watch those unsuitable-for-minors videos; a sense of defeat filled his entire heart, and unfortunately he was a very competitive person.

This made him feel extremely painful, as if being punished.

That night, Wang Xiaohua tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep.

Li Jianjia sent him a WeChat message, and for a moment he didn't know how to reply.

His heart became complicated, and he began to waver.

Should he choose love, or academics?

You can't have both fish and bear's paw; Wan Zhiyuan was right.

With his aptitude, it was absolutely impossible to focus on two things at once.

"Are you asleep?"

Seeing that Wang Xiaohua hadn't replied to her for a long time, Li Jianjia sent another message.

"I'll give you three more seconds; if you don't reply, I'll assume you're asleep."

"Good night, I'm going to sleep too. I have to get up early tomorrow, looking forward to climbing the Great Wall together."

Looking at Li Jianjia's WeChat, Wang Xiaohua's mood had never been so chaotic.

He knew that his love with Li Jianjia was rare and hard to find; if he missed it, he might never meet another woman as pure as Li Jianjia in his entire life.

Even if he achieved fame and success in the future and became a successful person, he could never meet a second Li Jianjia.

But wasn't his studies at Tsinghua University also something that, once missed, could never be reclaimed?

Time passes quickly; as long as he slackens a little, the four years of undergraduate studies will pass in the blink of an eye. If he couldn't achieve something in these four years, he would surely become mediocre thereafter.

Perhaps Wan Zhiyuan's offhand remark would come true: after graduating from undergraduate studies, he would return to his hometown to marry and have children. Perhaps his achievement as a Tsinghua undergraduate would already make ordinary people envious, allowing him to rise smoothly in his hometown.

But was this really what he wanted?

Did his competitive heart truly willing to be ordinary, willing to become a failure in this university dormitory, or even this university class?

He didn't understand, he didn't know; his heart was in turmoil, and he couldn't make up his mind.

So that night he tossed and turned, and he suffered from insomnia.

The next morning, Wang Xiaohua dragged his tired body to find Li Jianjia.

He no longer had that simple joy and happiness, carrying endless struggle in his heart.

Li Jianjia had originally been happy and excited, but seeing that Wang Xiaohua's complexion wasn't right, she was stunned.

"What's wrong with you?"

Wang Xiaohua covered it up: "Nothing."

"I can tell you're not right."

Li Jianjia looked Wang Xiaohua up and down.

"Where am I not right?"

"The way you look at me isn't right." Li Jianjia was a smart girl; she immediately sensed something was off. "Can you tell me what happened?"

"Nothing, I just didn't sleep well last night. Let's hurry up and set off; it's still quite far from Badaling Great Wall."

Wang Xiaohua didn't know how to explain to Li Jianjia for a moment, so he could only hurriedly change the subject.

He knew he should open his heart to Li Jianjia; he didn't need to hide and cover up. He wasn't with another woman; he was just worried about his studies, and his heart was severely defeated by the final exam results.

But from childhood to adulthood, no one had taught him how to handle these setbacks, and no one had taught him how to handle feelings between men and women.

As a result, he knew clearly in his heart what was the right thing to do, but he still couldn't open his mouth or take action.

This is just as Mr. Sun Yat-sen said: knowing is easy, doing is difficult.

And to achieve what Wang Yangming called "unity of knowledge and action," what determination would that require?

Wang Xiaohua didn't want to say, and Li Jianjia didn't want to ask too much.

The two left the hotel and took a car to Badaling Great Wall.

Along the way, Li Jianjia took the initiative to hold Wang Xiaohua's hand, but Wang Xiaohua was silent and taciturn. From talking about everything yesterday to being silent today, it only took one night.

If it were another girl, she would probably have been angry long ago.

Only Li Jianjia could remain calm.

She didn't say anything along the way, just holding Wang Xiaohua's hand.

Until the two walked hand in hand, climbing to a high place on the Great Wall.

Looking down at the mountains and rivers below.

"Ah!"

Li Jianjia shouted loudly toward the distance.

Then she said to Wang Xiaohua:

"You shout too, shout out loud."

Wang Xiaohua was a bit restrained and absent-minded.

Li Jianjia continued shouting:

"Ah, Great Wall, you are truly so long! Longer than the Yangtze River!"

Wang Xiaohua was amused by Li Jianjia and couldn't help but show a smile.

"You shout too, don't be afraid; it's rare to come to the Great Wall once!"

Wang Xiaohua said:

"The Great Wall isn't as long as the Yangtze River."

Li Jianjia then said:

"Who cares if it's as long as the Yangtze River? Shout it out—shouting will make your mood much better!"

Wang Xiaohua was stunned; only then did he realize that Li Jianjia had ignored the strange looks of other passengers, all for his sake.

"Ah!"

Wang Xiaohua shouted at the rolling distant mountains.

Indeed, his mood was much better.

The gloom in his heart dissipated all at once.

"Jianjia, thank you."

Wang Xiaohua thanked Li Jianjia from the bottom of his heart.

"Don't be so polite. We're close—why bother thanking me?"

Li Jianjia showed a sweet smile, then said:

"Now you feel much better, so can you tell me what exactly happened? I think that when two people are together, the most important thing is communication and honesty, don't you agree?"

Wang Xiaohua nodded:

"You're right."

Actually, he had wanted to tell Li Jianjia before, but just didn't know how to bring it up.

Now Li Jianjia had paved the way for everything, and he could bring it up naturally.

There would be no more stiffness, no more unease all over.

"The final exam results are out."

"Did you mess up and not do well?" Li Jianjia asked with concern.

"It's true I didn't do well, but it's not that I messed up. I've already put in maximum effort and performed at my normal level, but I can still only be the tail of the class."

The root of Wang Xiaohua's pain was that he was very competitive; he always liked comparing himself with excellent people and always wanted to take first place.

Especially after experiencing ordinariness in junior high and a comeback in high school, this gave him an illusion—he mistakenly thought that as long as he worked hard enough, he could surpass others.

But in this big environment at Tsinghua University, it gave him a deep sense of powerlessness, letting him clearly see just how enormous the gap between people is.

The crushing superiority brought by aptitude is a chasm that cannot be crossed no matter how hard you try.

Courses others learn easily, he might need to work very hard to learn, just to barely keep up with their pace.

But at Tsinghua University, hard work is the least thing worth showing off, because most people work very hard.

Take Wan Zhiyuan—he was already a Genius Youth, yet he never slackened.

His level of effort was even more abnormal than Wang Xiaohua's; studying until eleven or twelve o'clock at night before returning to the dorm had become his daily routine.

"Are your scores very low? Did you fail a course?"

Li Jianjia continued to ask with concern.

Seeing Wang Xiaohua dejected, with pain on his face, she also felt some heartache.

"The scores aren't very low, and failing a course is out of the question. My GPA barely reached 4.0, but compared to the people around me, I'm still too far behind. I've discovered that no matter what, I can't catch up with them."

Wang Xiaohua sighed.

Li Jianjia then comforted him:

"That's already not bad. Don't compare yourself with others; compare yourself with yourself. Be content and happy. Being able to get into Tsinghua University from a small County Town is already remarkable. Being content with mediocrity is actually also a kind of happiness."

Wang Xiaohua sighed again:

"How could I not know to be content and happy? But if I truly became content with mediocrity, I might become mediocre."

At this moment Wang Xiaohua turned to look at Li Jianjia; he finally had the courage to look directly into her eyes:

"Jianjia, last night Wan Zhiyuan scolded me. What he said was harsh, but it was also the truth. He said you can't have both fish and bear's paw, and he said that with my aptitude, if I date, I absolutely cannot do well in my studies. I know he's right. I don't know what to do now, so my heart is very painful and conflicted."

Li Jianjia, hearing this, was stunned:

"So, do you want to break up with me?"