[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-shao-song":3,"chapter-shao-song-shao-song-chapter-345":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"chinese","Shao Song",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1558511,2024,"Chapter 345: Back Alive, Offering a Formal Apology and Explanation to Everyone","shao-song-chapter-345",345,"\u003Cp>I'm back alive. Let me offer a formal apology and explanation to everyone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>An apology is necessary—this time I went too far.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But I must emphasize that, at its core, this was essentially writer's block—I simply couldn't write, my state completely collapsed. Of course, games did play a role as a trigger here.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Actually, I definitely played games, but I watched even more shows—besides three seasons of *Golden Kamuy* and *Hyouka*, I also discovered I rewatched *The Lord of the Rings* and *The Hobbit* on Bilibili.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I read a collection of essays on Song Dynasty southeastern commercial taxes while forgetting everything—two hundred pages in, and I'd already forgotten what I'd read before.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was completely broken as a person.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To be honest, I'm a bit surprised myself... I only just realized I haven't scooped the cat's litter in four days.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There's still a pot of dog meat soup in the fridge that hasn't been touched in four days, two meat buns—judging by the delivery bags, one is three days old and the other two days old—trash everywhere, I haven't been on Zhihu for about two days, WeChat has a pile of unread messages, and there are two packages at the door that I don't know when they arrived.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then I thought back for a long time before I remembered the fact that I saw someone on Zhihu showing off dog meat, got curious and bought a pack, cooked it, and only ate half.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It feels a bit like dog meat soup poisoning, but it definitely isn't.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As for why the writer's block got this bad? I don't know how it is for others, but for me, there's this growing feeling that everything I wrote before is garbage, and yet I simply lack the ability to improve, to write something that meets my own expectations—so the more I write, the more agitated and depressed I get, and it hits me every so often... In the past, people said it happened once a month, but now it's more and more frequent. This is what it means to hit the ceiling of personal ability and talent.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Someone also reminded me that my last leave notice stirred up public anger... To be honest, I didn't read it, and I didn't dare to, but I can roughly understand why people got angry—probably the tone and attitude?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But I really don't know what attitude I should have taken.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I've always thought of myself as a person with self-respect... I think it was when *Movie King* was approaching three million words, I begged for subscriptions at the end of a chapter again, and someone directly dissed me in the group chat, saying that begging for subscriptions ruins the reading experience.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After that, I basically never begged for subscriptions again, and I probably never begged for monthly tickets or recommendation tickets either—I did beg for tips once, I think... because during *Overthrowing Han*, some readers organized a Hundred Alliance event, so I'm not qualified to talk about that.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But at its core, there's always been something in my heart—call it arrogance or stubbornness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It's that line I said when I started the book... \"I'll write slowly, you read slowly\"... the idea of not wanting to be one of those flashy, cheap types.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Still, I hope everyone understands that there's no impatience or malice in my heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And this time, I really did go too far.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So, I sincerely ask for your forgiveness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I won't kowtow—kowtowing would just annoy everyone... I bow in apology... I need to take a shower, and I hope everything can recover.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But right now, I don't even know what to do with that pot of dog meat soup.\u003C\u002Fp>",614,"2026-06-06T07:46:04.529Z",1,"Novelzhen Translator","1ea96e9605fcfc8f7f914cce5c06352d2462fe968c87a1d9c2f2c8d56c531afa","shao-song-chapter-346","shao-song-chapter-344",489,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fshao-song-cover.jpg"]