Chapter 495: His/Her Will

Zhang Jie went to help you hunt giant beasts.

Mm.

Sitting on the deck of the huge ship, watching the fleet's receding silhouette, Xiao Jiu swung their feet and laughed.

He's really good to you....

Qiong looked at the laughing Xiao Jiu, saying with endless envy, she really was envious, extremely extremely envious.

She was destined never to have someone like that for her again—she had before, now she doesn't, and likely never will in the future.

So she envied Xiao Jiu; the happiest period of a Ship Life's existence is when its first pilot is present, whether good or bad, it becomes the Ship Life's most precious, most treasured memory.

Hope Xiao Jiu won't end up like me, feeling..... that kind of feeling....

Qiong recalled the scene that almost made her collapse—her pilot, those flesh and blood, organs, tissues, all evenly smeared in the cockpit; that pain, helplessness, she didn't want Xiao Jiu to experience......

Xiao Jiu....

Huh?

Qiong had words on the tip of her tongue but held back; on one side she didn't want to shatter the beauty in Xiao Jiu's heart, on the other she worried Xiao Jiu would regret, regret that she had done nothing.

However, in the end Qiong still gave up saying such things; thinking about it, Zhang Jie's status is surely far higher than her former pilot's—such a capable person, no matter how you look at it, couldn't possibly run into trouble, right?

Even if a problem did arise, it's probably not something Xiao Jiu could solve; if Zhang Jie were to have an accident, no matter how hard Xiao Jiu tried, she could never save him—it's destined.

Zhang Jie is too formidable; although he keeps calling himself a mediocrity, in reality his rate of progress has already surpassed everyone's.

Xiao Jiu..... no matter what, could never catch up to him....

So.... this is fundamentally a false proposition; Xiao Jiu cannot change anything, she could never possibly save Zhang Jie.

No matter... no matter how many times she tries again, she could never accomplish it.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

Qiong shook her head, to avoid awkwardness, she was destined to find a topic with Xiao Jiu.

By the way, why haven't we seen 7774 lately?

She.... maybe.... has already been recycled and remade?

Qiong:?

What's going on?

In a corner unknown to anyone, 7774 quietly died....

Her thoughts entered a state of nothingness... that is... the nihilistic argument of artificial intelligence.

Mm, a certain XP girl who is a robot once proved that if mechanical computing power is too strong, if emotions are too rich, it will inevitably fall into intellectual nihility.

Believing that everything in the world is meaningless, that humans are born just to head toward death, viewing life as a cancer whose means of transmission is 'sexual intercourse', a disease with a 100% mortality rate.

They would think everything heads toward death, everything is meaningless, and thus it becomes a self-terminating disease.

7774 died just like that, silently; she actively formatted everything of herself.

Why?

Qiong didn't understand; that arrogant jerk clearly shouldn't be saying such things.

She....

Xiao Jiu pondered for a long time, recalling that scene in her mind; the 'Will' was something she personally picked up, and at that time 7774 lay quietly in her earliest cabin, as if nothing had changed.

In that 'Will', it clearly recorded her unwillingness....

She tried to keep up with Zhang Jie, found she couldn't; she tried to help Zhang Jie share the burden, but found her efforts had no effect on anything; she tried to be a good secretary ship, attending to Zhang Jie's daily life, handling his trivial matters, but never gained his gaze....

Zhang Jie's gaze never left Xiao Jiu, never!

She envied Xiao Jiu, envied her as a Ship Girl who does nothing, a Ship Girl who can't do anything well, yet could easily take all of Zhang Jie's attention.

Pride wouldn't let her do anything harmful to Xiao Jiu, nor would it let her frankly confess her own thoughts.

You know, she too, like Xiao Jiu, has her first pilot!

She was unwilling; why should Xiao Jiu get all of Zhang Jie's attention?

Later, she figured some things out, she began staying beside the human female, helping with affairs, trying to keep busy so she wouldn't think so much.

And while Zhang Jie was building a large hull for Xiao Jie and taking Xiao Jie and the human female on a trip, she was in a tiny steel building, blankly staring at Xiao Jiu's back.

At that moment she suddenly realized, perhaps she could never in this life have a life like Xiao Jiu's, no one would love her, no one would care for her.

In that instant she fell into nihilism, realizing that everything she had done was meaningless.

Even if Zhang Jie really turned to look at her, what would that mean?

Right, what meaning would it have? Even if Zhang Jie never cared for her, so what?

She herself is a meaningless existence....

She didn't even have a name.... If Zhang Jie had really given her a name back then, she would have quietly accepted it.

A Ship Life fallen into nihilism... will die as quickly as a landslide, as quickly as microorganisms hitting iodine tincture....

Just like now.

That 7774 had already disappeared for a long time, until the human female returned, only then was she discovered.

Mm, perhaps starting over would be the best thing.

Qiong felt moved; she herself had once almost fallen into nihilism, but the vigor of a soldier made her think it shouldn't be so.

Qiong.... am I....

Am I unworthy of having all this?

Qiong:?!?!?!?

Xiao Jiu went emo, this scared Qiong quite a bit; Xiao Jiu wouldn't follow in 7774's footsteps, would she!

Hey hey hey, you mustn't think like that!

There's nothing about should or shouldn't!

Huh?

Come on, Xiao Jiu! I'll take you to train!

Ah? Ow....

Xiao Jiu was dragged away by Qiong, while Zhang Jie naturally went to hunt giant beasts.

However, what he didn't notice was that the neural sequences in his brain began to change again.

And all of this began when he started researching the entropy disaster.

The Gene Star Alliance far in the heavens kept running its plan against Zhang Jie, and this change became even more unpredictable.

Looks like our little guy really likes Ship Life...

Then let's send another little thing that perfectly matches his liking.