Chapter 184: When?

"When?"

Xie Qin's eyes cooled down. No one had told him in these six years that Shen Li had made this phone call.

Shen Li's voice was weak and suppressed her crying, and she didn't raise her head to let Xie Qin see her embarrassment and weakness, "The first week after going abroad."

"I got through to your phone, and a girl answered. She said, you were already together with her, and didn't want to see me... told me not to contact you in the future."

Speaking to the end, Shen Li's heart hurt even more, and her voice was intermittent and unstable, "I'm sorry... Xie Qin..."

"I told you we were breaking up... it wasn't sincere. I regret saying that breakup sentence to you. If I... hadn't called you... it would have been fine..."

"Then you wouldn't have had a car accident."

"Xie Qin... it was my fault..."

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Six years ago, the day she broke up with Xie Qin.

Shen Li really didn't want to live anymore.

Back in Wuchuan, she had long known that Xie Qin liked her, but because of her timidity and inferiority, she didn't dare to respond to his feelings, so she chose to push him away again and again.

Even during the time she was with him, she didn't dare to tell Xie Qin that she had severe depression.

While greedy for his kindness to her, she was also selfishly hiding it.

She was afraid that after he knew, he would be disgusted and push her away.

Shen Li could only secretly cooperate with Liang Jingze for treatment behind his back.

She thought she could get better, would get better...

But she found that she couldn't get better at all. After returning to Haishi, her condition relapsed and worsened.

Such a self was not only a burden to him, but also a trouble.

They hadn't been dating for long, even if she wasn't there, Xie Qin could still find a better girl to be with properly.

At that time, Shen Li cut her wrists to commit suicide, not realizing what she had done at all.

She didn't think too much, just felt that she shouldn't delay him, so she called him to propose a breakup.

Later, she sold the house in Haishi and went abroad to accompany her mother for treatment. After settling down, she gathered the courage to call Xie Qin, and a girl answered.

After learning that he had started a new relationship, she thought the relationship between them had completely ended and stopped there.

For a long time, Shen Li didn't contact him again.

For almost half a year, one year, two years, Shen Li also struggled and tried to think about contacting Xie Qin.

Wanted to know if he was doing well.

But during that time, she had to be busy with her studies and take care of her mother in the hospital. Various burdens pressed on her, making her almost exhausted, and she didn't have so much energy to think about her and Xie Qin's affairs.

At that time, they were only eighteen, both too young, and didn't take this relationship too seriously.

She thought, the relationship between her and Xie Qin.

Should have ended here.

Later, Shen Li slowly forced herself to cut off her thoughts about him, and they didn't contact each other again.

Shen Li put her heart into her mother's condition and her studies with peace of mind.

In the sixth year when her mother's condition improved, the first thing Shen Li did was to return to the country for a doctorate. When choosing a domestic school, she only had one thing in her mind.

She wanted to return to Wuchuan, wanted to go back to find Xie Qin.

She wanted to know if he was doing well.

If he wasn't married and didn't have a girlfriend yet.

Shen Li wanted to try to save this relationship.

But she didn't know that the breakup phone call six years ago would cause him such great harm.

When Zhang Zixin told her that Xie Qin had a car accident on the way to Haishi to find her, Shen Li was muddled that night, and her mind was full of this matter repeatedly.

Even now, Shen Li cared very much.

She felt she was sorry to him.

The regret and guilt in her heart were like seawater, deeply drowning her.

Shen Li's sad and broken crying was particularly clear in the quiet living room.

Xie Qin didn't know when he stood by her side.

He reached out to buckle the back of her head, stepped forward, and pressed her in front of him. Shen Li leaned against him, smelling the scent on him, Xie Qin stroked her back one after another, his movements gentle and light, patiently waiting for her to finish crying, and pulled up the corners of his lips, "Isn't this fine."

A few simple words, said lightly by him.

Shen Li wasn't by his side at the time, didn't know how he was injured, and whether it was really as light as his tone of voice now, as if it wasn't worth mentioning.

Just a trivial matter.

Shen Li's throat was choked with pain: "..."

Xie Qin noticed the tears that had soaked his clothes and flowed out again, his voice laughed low, he knelt in front of her, squatted down, looked up at her tear-stained appearance, raised his hand and bent his knuckles, gently wiping away those tears, "... just because she said two random words, you took it seriously?"

"What do you take me for?"

"Do you really think I was just playing around with you?"

Shen Li looked into his eyes, her eyelashes trembling as a few tears fell, and said everything she thought in her heart: "At that time... we were both too young. I thought... I wasn't that important in your heart... even if we broke up, after a long time, you would soon forget me."

Xie Qin wiped away the tear on her chin and asked her amusedly: "Since you thought so, why did you come back?"

Even if he comforted himself, he didn't feel better because of it. Shen Li sobbed and said: "I don't know. At that time, I didn't think much, and I wasn't sure if you were still in Wuchuan, or if you had returned to Di Du. At that time... I just wanted to return to Wuchuan..."

She always felt that Xie Qin should still be in Wuchuan.

Holding such an uncertain idea, she directly chose Jiangchuan University for her doctoral studies. On the second day after returning to the country, after moving, she didn't care about anything and took a plane here.

Fortunately, heaven still favored her.

On her first day in Wuchuan, at Xiangweiju, she saw Xie Qin.

Even if he pretended not to know her.

She was happy.

Glad that she could still see him.

"I asked Zhang Zixin, wanting to know from her how serious your car accident was, but she wouldn't say, and told me to come and ask you myself. Your attitude toward me last night wasn't very good, and you didn't want to pay attention to me, so I didn't dare to talk to you." Shen Li's voice was very light and slow, sounding like she was saying her thoughts, disguised as accusing Xie Qin of making her sad and excessive behavior, "You were like this when I went to the studio to find you during the day."

Xie Qin deeply reflected her appearance in his eyes, lowered his head, and looked at her with curled lips: "You proposed the breakup as soon as you said so with one phone call back then. Leaving me alone, everyone has a temper. Now that you're back, you say you want to reconcile, so you reconcile!"

"What do you take me for?"

"Shen Li... can you not be so selfish!"

Clearly he was the one who was most aggrieved, but she cried more aggrieved than him.

And there were so many accusations.

Does it make sense.

Shen Li's nose was sore, and she asked him seriously again: "Then... can you give me a chance to pursue you?" ===== CHAPTER 185 =====