Chapter 135: Standing Alone with Head Bowed

Setting aside that overly indifferent personality, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe is indeed a good man very suitable for a girl to entrust her life to.

Tian Chengyun, when he was in college, basically stayed in the dormitory every day to... play games. Except for going to the guard room to get takeout and returning home to visit relatives during festivals, he almost never went out.

His roommates felt that he couldn't go on like this. If his schedule was so chaotic, no one would know if he died in the dormitory one day, so they persuaded Tian Chengyun to go out for a breath of fresh air occasionally. Not to mention running or exercising, even if it's just window shopping?

Tian Chengyun asked: Can I pick up a wife on the side of the road if I go out shopping? The roommate said you think too beautifully, no. Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe also felt no.

But now, coming back to his senses, looking at the girl's soft eyes like autumn water beside him, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe felt that Tian Chengyun's roommate was still reckless. Look, didn't he just pick one up.

"Chen Yaming, I... I know you are very grateful for my help to you, and I can understand your current mood, but marriage is a major event that affects a person's whole life. Precisely because it is important, it should be more cautious, and it should not be swayed by temporary impulse."

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe organized his language with a moment of silence and said calmly: "You have to understand that gratitude is not liking, let alone love. Repaying kindness in this impulsive way is not a wise choice."

Chen Yaming listened quietly to his long-winded preaching, didn't refute, just sat down beside him without a word.

"Your life is still very long, there are still many days to live, and I am far from as wonderful as you imagine. I don't want the mature you to look back in the future and regret that the immature you at this time made a lifelong commitment in a hurry..."

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe was still talking endlessly. His speaking speed was not slow or fast, and his tone was very calm. Every syllable was bitten very clearly, without the slightest error, as peaceful as if a film blogger was explaining a movie.

But it was such a narrative word without any emotional fluctuation that gave people a feeling of... panic.

"... Meeting you is not a fleeting meteor, but the bright moon all night." Chen Yaming sat beside him, listened patiently to Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe's long-winded talk, and then said softly: "Losing you is not a temporary rainstorm, but a lifetime of dampness."

Familiar wording, pretentious and affected, with the greenness unique to literary youth, which made Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe a bit confused: "This is..."

"You wrote it." Chen Yaming supported her chin with both hands, looking at Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe's bewildered look with great interest, a charming smile embellished on her face, beautiful.

"Still remember the sports meet in middle school? It was the one where I ran 500 meters and got second in the grade. After the sports meet, I found an envelope in my desk drawer. It was tender green with a four-leaf clover pattern... I remember it very clearly, because there was a love letter for me in the envelope."

Chen Yaming continued: "I knew it was written by you as soon as I saw the handwriting."

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe spread his hands: "Liu Jiajun hired me for twenty yuan to write it."

"I know, you earn pocket money by writing for others, not just love letters, but also essays and weekly diaries." Chen Yaming smiled, lowered her eyes to look at the tea in the cup, and said softly: "The letter said that he was attracted by the way I ran on the track, so he liked me... I have actually always been very strange. If you like girls who love sports, why don't you chase the girl who ran first?"

Obviously she was only second.

"Because your body developed early, and you don't like wearing bras, so it's very bouncy when you run, while the girl who ran first is an airport." Ning Zhe said expressionlessly: "I was on the side of the track at the time, and Liu Jiajun and the others were staring at you the whole time, their eyes were straight."

"What about you?" Chen Yaming's cheeks were slightly red, and there was a hint of expectation in her eyes: "Do you like watching too?"

"Only hypocrites and homosexuals would hate full breasts... what exactly do you want to say?" Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe didn't quite understand why she suddenly brought up things from a few years ago.

"So that's liking?" Chen Yaming smiled charmingly.

She seemed to be showing off deliberately, slightly puffing out her chest, and her tone became more confident: "That letter is still lying in the drawer at the head of my bed, and I take it out to read from time to time. I painted over Liu Jiajun's name and pretended that you wrote it to me... I was really happy when you said you wanted to be with me in front of Dad just now, I... sorry, I'm a bit incoherent."

Chen Yaming took a deep breath, as if she had made some psychological preparation: "I said these things just to tell you that my choice is not because of any temporary impulse and acting on impulse, just because I like you, that's all." I have always been secretly liking you, but you don't know it.

"But I don't like you." Ning turned to the side, the love expressed by the girl whose heart was moved, shy and timid, couldn't stir up a ripple in his heart, which was like a pool of stagnant water.

Chen Yaming was stunned, and many things she wanted to say were stuck in her throat.

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe's expression was plain, and he continued: "Because of your unrequited love, I have to marry someone I don't like and spend the rest of my life together. You can naturally pursue the person you love boldly and pursue your happiness, but is this fair to me? Why does your happiness have to be at the cost of the freedom of the second half of my life?"

Should a good person be pointed at by a gun?

"No, it's not, I..." Chen Yaming shook her head in a panic, strings of tears falling on the table in a daze: "I, I didn't mean that, I just... I, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe, I'm sorry, I didn't know you already had someone you like..."

"No." Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe didn't look up.

"No? Then... why?" Chen Yaming didn't understand: "The future is uncertain, isn't it? Even if you don't have feelings for me now, what about later? Why can't you give me a chance to chase you? I will do anything... I... even if you refuse me no matter what, at least give me a reason, okay?"

"No reason."

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe said indifferently: "I'm not a good person. The reason I helped you in this way is not because I have any improper intentions toward you. I did this just to make my grandparents feel that they already have a granddaughter-in-law, so that they won't scold me for being unfilial on their deathbed in the future... After they pass away, I will be truly free. So you'd better find someone else and don't waste time on me."

After speaking, the small shop fell into a long silence.

For a long time.

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"Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe?"

"Mm?"

"You are too much." Chen Yaming wiped the tears from her face and said indignantly: "You made a girl's heart move and wish she could marry you on the spot, and then suddenly changed your face and dumped her, and you wouldn't even give a reason... You are really irresponsible."

"Did I flirt with you?" Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe was a bit puzzled, he didn't know he had flirted with her.

"Yes, you don't even have this self-awareness?"

"Is that so..."

While Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe was still in a daze, Chen Yaming suddenly stood up, hugged his neck with both hands, and leaned over to kiss him.

"Ugh—"

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe's first kiss experience was not very good. Perhaps because of the stuffiness in his heart, and also because he was afraid he would dodge, Chen Yaming used a lot of strength to hug him, and their front teeth knocked together, hurting him so much that he subconsciously wanted to scream, but as soon as his mouth opened, a snake-like tongue cleverly drilled in.

Immediately after, two warm tears fell on Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe's face.