Chapter 238: Paranoid Personality Disorder

A person's life is always spent in longing for their hometown.

When Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe was a child and encountered reading comprehension questions on test papers that he didn't know, he would just write down that it expressed the author's longing for their hometown, and the scoring rate was terrifyingly high. Many times, he couldn't help but think, why do so many great poets, great writers, and great literary figures all act like children who haven't grown up, coincidentally feeling melancholy and longing for home while facing paper and pen?

The boomerang thrown in childhood hit himself today. He also longed for home.

Clearly, this is Taoyuan City. Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe grew up studying here, and he is on the land of his hometown. Yet he still couldn't control his desire to go home.

Only until now did Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe finally truly understand the sentences he saw in reading questions in elementary school. The so-called hometown is not a house to accommodate one's body, not a property certificate with a stamp. Hometown is a spiritual destination for one to return to their roots, a sentence one can say calmly no matter where they go: where I come from, where I am from.

Perhaps people in their hometown cannot experience the pain of longing for home, just like teenagers don't know how to cherish the preciousness of youth.

People cannot possess youth and the feeling of youth at the same time, but they will stand on the land of their hometown and long for their home.

After handling the death certificates of his grandparents and booking the service dates for the funeral home and crematorium, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe returned to his new home in the Jiangcheng Junjing residential area with some unspeakable and unclear emotions.

"My current state is very wrong. This is not a good phenomenon."

Handing a cigarette to the security guard uncle at the door, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe walked into the residential area gate, feeling somewhat worried in his heart, not even hearing what the uncle behind him said to him.

"After mastering Juanyuan, my emotions seem to have become more sensitive, or to put it another way, Juanyuan will make the Gridder who masters Him become more extreme, more paranoid, and more easily provoked..."

A thought, paranoid to a certain degree, becomes a Thought Steel Seal.

Walking into the lobby on the first floor, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe pressed the button for the 18th floor and stood at the door waiting for the elevator, reviewing the process of mastering Juanyuan in his heart:

After stealing Yu Zi Qian's self-cognition, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe obtained all his memories and knew the way Yu Zi Qian mastered Juanyuan at the time—he used Juanyuan's rules to apply a Thought Steel Seal of "I am Yu Zi Qian" to Juanyuan.

Once a Thought Steel Seal is applied, it cannot be erased, nor can it be overwritten. Two conflicting Thought Steel Seals will only drive the god mad, and no one will benefit.

In other words, Yu Zi Qian had actually blocked the path for all later people, and Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe couldn't master Juanyuan by applying a Thought Steel Seal of "I am Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe" to Juanyuan again.

But relying on Taiyi's rules, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe was able to find another way. He stole Yu Zi Qian's complete identity, deceived Juanyuan, applied a Thought Steel Seal of "Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe is Yu Zi Qian" to Juanyuan, and mastered Juanyuan using Yu Zi Qian's identity.

Subsequently using Yu Zi Qian's identity to flip through the almanac and using Taiyi's rules to transfer the punishment of the death taboo to Juanyuan was just a means to let Him collapse from the macro-expansion state back into the Gridder's body.

"Juanyuan will make people's thoughts become paranoid, and paranoia, in the end, will evolve into a Thought Steel Seal."

"Therefore, a Gridder who masters Juanyuan must maintain emotional calmness and indifference at all times. Once there is a strong emotional fluctuation or a paranoid thought, it is very easy to apply a Thought Steel Seal to oneself inadvertently."

Ding—the elevator arrived.

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe walked into the elevator expressionlessly, his thoughts gradually smoothing out:

"Every Gridder who masters Juanyuan is a potential patient with paranoid personality disorder." It's just that Yu Zi Qian himself was a dissolute person, doing things carelessly, emotions often fluctuating wildly, and his personality was also very stubborn. Otherwise, he wouldn't have gone out to start a rock band against his whole family's wishes after graduating from university.

So in the short time Yu Zi Qian mastered Juanyuan, he never discovered the influence of Juanyuan on himself, but it was different with Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe.

Yes, according to Yu Zi Qian's own memories, he actually didn't master Juanyuan for long at all.

And Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe is a person made of water. His emotions are as calm as a dead pool of water most of the time. Occasionally, one or two pebbles splash into it, stirring up layers of ripples, but they quickly calm down.

On a water surface as calm as a mirror, any tiny fluctuation is incomparable, so Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe realized Juanyuan's interference for the first time.

"This defect, it's big if you say it's big, and small if you say it's small, depending on how the user measures it."

Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe looked at the changing numbers on the top of the elevator, and as his thinking progressed, he gradually had a bottom line in his heart.

"The worst result is not being able to control emotions, and under excitement, applying two conflicting Thought Steel Seals to oneself, such as believing that water is highly toxic while also believing that water is the source of life, eventually driving oneself mad."

"The best situation is to completely achieve perfect control over one's thoughts and emotions at all times, without a trace of impulse or emotionality, rational and indifferent like an AI program... If one can achieve this degree, one can use Juanyuan with almost no side effects."

Can I do it?

Probably not.

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The elevator door opened. Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe walked out of the elevator, thinking of a more terrifying possibility:

"There is another most terrifying situation. If, in the process of contacting ghosts or Gridders, I draw a wrong conclusion based on wrong information. And then, because of Juanyuan's influence, I believe this conclusion unconditionally, and even knowing I might be wrong, I still stubbornly insist on moving forward on the wrong path..."

That would be no different from suicide.

No wonder when Yu Zi Qian was hunting them in Taoyuan City, he always gave Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe a subtle feeling of recklessness. Would a person who had been mixing in the Gridder circle for 5 years be so impatient?

No.

It was Juanyuan who caused him to become like this; it was Juanyuan who ruined him.

"The road of ascension is really... difficult to walk."

This was the second time Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe made such a sigh. As strong as Fen Wu, he still suffered from the torture of being haunted by fierce ghosts. Yu Zi Qian was even harmed by his own paranoia and impulsiveness. And then to himself, even if Taiyi's defects had been filled, Juanyuan's defects followed one after another, without half a breath of space.

Every step taken on the road of ascension is trembling, like walking on thin ice.

Returning to the door, Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe used his fingerprint to open the door lock, walked into the living room, and a sweet scent hit his face. Looking inside, a woman wearing a white camisole and pink shorts was lying horizontally on the sofa, the large TV on the wall was playing the theatrical version of "Natsume's Book of Friends," her two snow-white long legs were swaying leisurely, and a pink flip-flop was hanging on her foot.

"Xia Yubing?" Seeing Seeing Ning Zhe froze for a moment: "What are you doing running to my house."

(End of chapter) ===== CHAPTER 239 =====