[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl":3,"chapter-surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-121":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","Surviving the Apocalypse With My Yandere Ex-Girlfriend",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1745876,2231,"Chapter 121: Cold feet","surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-121",121,"\u003Cp>In a way, Aubrey was right.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No matter what I did, I didn’t think it would ever be enough.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No amount of killing. No amount of blowing places apart. No amount of blood on my hands was going to fill the hole that had been left behind.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It didn’t matter how many of Annie’s people I hunted down.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It didn’t matter how many infected I put in the ground.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Nothing brought them back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That was why I planned on ending it today.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not ending myself. Just ending this.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>One last run. One last hit.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After that... I didn’t know.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It had been a few days since the last time I went out. Everything between then and now felt like a blur. I had stopped keeping track of time. The days blended together.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I made my runs carefully.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Different times. Different routes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Never the same area twice.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If Annie’s people were looking for the guy who’d been tearing through their operations, I wasn’t going to make it easy for them.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I crouched near the floor and stuffed things into my bag.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A handgun.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Two spare magazines.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The walkie talkie I had taken off that dead infected in the warehouse.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A lighter.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A knife.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Basic things. Things that kept you alive out there.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila stood just behind me while I packed. Close enough that I could feel her breathing against the back of my neck.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had been following me everywhere lately.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Watching.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Waiting.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I usually made sure nobody saw me when I left the house. Slipping out through the window after everyone had settled down for the night.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But today it didn’t matter.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My absence would be obvious either way.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Especially to Aubrey.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I tightened the strap on the bag and stood up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What the hell was her deal anyway?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Always on my case like we were still together.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like she had some kind of claim over what I did.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t know shit.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t see what I saw.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t feel what I felt.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t have the right to judge me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What do you want me to do this time, my love?\" Lila whispered near my ear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice was quiet. Almost gentle.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I turned and looked at her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Up until now, even through all of this, Lila had followed me everywhere.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She never questioned it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Never complained.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If I said we were going somewhere, she went.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If I told her to wait, she waited.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sometimes I wondered why.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sometimes I almost felt guilty for dragging her into this mess with me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then I reminded myself she made her own choices.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She wanted to be here.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She always did.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I shook my head once.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Just stay close to me,\" I muttered.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That was all.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She nodded.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I turned back toward the window and climbed onto the ledge, preparing to slip out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Already?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The voice behind me made my jaw tighten.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I didn’t even have to turn around to know who it was.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"It hasn’t even been a week yet,\" Aubrey said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I closed my eyes for half a second before turning.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She stood in the doorway with her arms crossed. Watching me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila stayed silent beside the wall.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She always just watched now.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You can’t stop me,\" I said. \"If that’s what you were planning.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Didn’t plan to,\" Aubrey replied.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Some of the tension left my shoulders, but not much.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I turned back toward the window and started to move again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I actually want to help you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That made me pause.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My foot came off the ledge and hit the floor again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I turned slowly and really looked at her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...What the hell changed?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Just a few days ago she was yelling at me about this exact thing. Saying I was going to get someone killed. Saying I needed to stop.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Now she wanted in?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For a few seconds I just studied her face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Trying to read something.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Anything.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes gave nothing away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I noticed Lila’s hands tighten slightly at her sides, but I didn’t pay much attention to it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I turned back to the window.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Fine then,\" I said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If she wanted to see what this looked like up close, that was her problem.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’ll start the car.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Before either of them could say anything else, I jumped down from the window and landed outside in the cold grass.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The night air hit my face as I straightened up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For a moment I just stood there beside the house, listening to the quiet.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then I started walking toward the car.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If Aubrey wanted to see where this road ended...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was about to find out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey watched as Adrian climbed out through the window.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He didn’t look back. He just dropped down outside and disappeared from sight.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For a moment she stayed where she was, standing beside the window frame. The cold night air drifted in through the opening, brushing against her face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She closed her eyes and let out a slow breath.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then she climbed up after him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>One leg over the ledge.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then the other.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her boots landed on the ground outside.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had barely straightened up when something slammed into her shoulder.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey stumbled a step forward, catching herself before she fell.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What the—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She turned around.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila stood there.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Too close.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey frowned at her, confused at first. But then she looked at Lila’s face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At her eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something about them made Aubrey’s nerves spike instantly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There was nothing calm in them.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Just anger.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sharp and ugly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I don’t know what you think you’re doing,\" Lila said, her voice tight, \"but I see through your act, you sleazy bitch.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey blinked.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What the hell are you talking about?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila stepped forward.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I heard about your little stunt back at the compound.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey’s frown deepened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What stunt?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila let out a quiet laugh that had no humor in it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Don’t play dumb with me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice dropped lower.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Bet you couldn’t wait until I was gone so you could lay your slutty fingers on Adrian.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey froze.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Couldn’t even wait until you knew for a fact I was dead, could you?\" Lila continued.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something twisted hard in Aubrey’s chest.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not anger.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not yet.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something closer to discomfort.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I got a question though,\" Lila said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She tilted her head slightly as she studied Aubrey’s face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"How long did it take you?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey stared at her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"A few months?\" Lila went on. \"A week?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey shook her head slowly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Look, Lila... whatever you think happened—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Oh I know what happened.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"—what’s done between me and him is done, alright?\" Aubrey said, cutting in before Lila could continue. \"That was a long time ago.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She gestured vaguely toward the house behind them.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"He’s all yours now.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Bullshit,\" Lila snapped.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The word came out fast.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sharp.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You want him back, don’t you?\" Lila said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice changed then. Quieter.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Almost gentle.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But there was venom underneath it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why else would you suddenly want to go out of your way to help him?\" she continued. \"Why the change of heart?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey’s brows pulled together.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Stress was already building in her chest. Now something else joined it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Frustration.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Listen—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No, bitch. You listen.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila stepped closer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instinctively, Aubrey took a step back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You could never in a million years love Adrian the way I do,\" Lila said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice was calm now, but it didn’t make it better.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Always so quick to run when things get hard,\" she continued.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Another step forward.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No wonder he fucking dumped you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You don’t know what the hell you’re talking about,\" Aubrey said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But her voice came out quieter than she wanted. Almost hesitant.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila smiled slightly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Oh, I do.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She folded her arms.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I know exactly what kind of person you are.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey didn’t respond.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila leaned in just a little.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’d walk through fire for Adrian,\" she said.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice stayed steady.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’d do anything he asked.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She gestured toward the dark road where Adrian had disappeared.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I follow him out there. I fight beside him. I bleed for him if I have to.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes locked onto Aubrey’s.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But you?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She shook her head slowly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You couldn’t handle it.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey’s jaw tightened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You never could.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The silence between them stretched.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then Lila’s voice dropped again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’m not worried about you trying to take him from me,\" she said quietly, \"because I know that just simply won’t happen.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then she continued, leaning in close to her ear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But regardless, if you even try anything funny,\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A pause.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I won’t hesitate to plunge this knife in your stomach.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What the hell are you two doing?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My voice cut through the quiet before either of them noticed I was back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Both of them turned.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila had Aubrey backed up near the side of the house. Close enough that whatever she had been saying was meant only for her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When I spoke, Lila leaned in one last time and whispered something into Aubrey’s ear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then she stepped away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila looked at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And smiled.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Soft. Calm. Like nothing had happened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I didn’t smile back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Just debriefing our dear friend,\" she said lightly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She walked past me before I could ask anything else.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her hand brushed over my arm as she passed. Then her fingers squeezed my sleeve for a second.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It almost felt affectionate.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But she wasn’t looking at me when she did it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was looking at Aubrey.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Aubrey stood there like she had been frozen in place.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her face looked pale in the dim light spilling from the house window.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila climbed into the passenger seat of the car without another word.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The engine was already running. I had left it that way when I went back to check what was taking so long.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For a moment, the only sound was the low rumble of the engine.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then I saw Aubrey take a slow breath.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She closed her eyes briefly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like she was trying to steady herself.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then she opened them again and started walking toward the car.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I watched her the whole way.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her shoulders were stiff.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her expression looked... distant.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I frowned slightly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She wasn’t getting cold feet, was she?\u003C\u002Fp>",1692,"2026-06-06T16:52:01.117Z",1,"novelbin.me","b94aa498e62c11fd50cfacb77113ce8d9e894dddc34346f2dc1b78669c149a2a","surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-122","surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-120",202,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fsurviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-cover.jpg"]