[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl":3,"chapter-surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-146":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","Surviving the Apocalypse With My Yandere Ex-Girlfriend",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1745901,2231,"Chapter 146: Let me breathe","surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-146",146,"\u003Cp>For a fleeting moment, all I could think about was how normal it felt.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Sitting there. Talking. Breathing without feeling like something was about to rip my throat out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi leaned back slightly on the stump across from me, one hand resting near the rifle by her leg.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Doesn’t take much for you to get chummy with someone, does it?\" she asked.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There was something dry in her tone, but not hostile.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I couldn’t help the small smile that slipped out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Guess that’s what loneliness does to you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She huffed lightly through her nose, shaking her head.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Or maybe you’ve just always been like that. Friendly face, easy voice. Makes people drop their guard.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Worked so far.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Yeah,\" she muttered. \"Until it doesn’t.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was about to say something back, something smart, something to keep the moment going—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But my eyes drifted past her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Movement.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At first, it was just a shape between the trees. Nothing clear. Just a figure getting closer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My fingers tightened around the grip of my gun.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi noticed the shift in my posture.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What?\" she asked, turning slightly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I didn’t answer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I squinted, trying to make sense of it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The way they moved.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The pace.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not infected.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Too controlled.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My chest tightened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It hit me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...Lila...?\" I muttered.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The word left my mouth before I could stop it. I wasn’t able to believe my eyes. Something warm settled in my chest before I was able to stop it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Was I seeing things...?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi turned fully this time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And then she saw her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even in the low light, there was no mistaking her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Dirty blonde hair. Blood-streaked skin. Eyes—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi’s voice dropped.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...Oh, shit.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila didn’t slow down.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She raised the gun.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The warmth vanished.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Everything in me snapped at once.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I lunged forward and shoved Naomi hard off the stump just as the shot rang out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The crack split through the clearing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi hit the ground with a grunt.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"WHAT THE FUCK—?!\" she shouted.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I barely heard her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My eyes were locked on Lila.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was already reloading.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fast.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Too fast.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I thought you said she was dead!\" Naomi yelled from the ground.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I thought so too!\" I shot back, panic rising in my throat.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila was already reloading.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fast. Controlled. Focused.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She kept walking toward us, firing again without hesitation. The shots tore through the space around us, forcing me to step back as my heart slammed against my ribs.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I forced myself to really look at her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes weren’t just red. They pulsed. Locked onto something with an intensity that made my stomach turn.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Oh, fuck...\" I whispered.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"LILA!!!\" I shouted, my voice cracking.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Nothing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She kept firing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"STOP!!! IT’S ME!!!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My hands went up without thinking, like that would somehow fix this.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like she just hadn’t seen me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like this was a mistake.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But deep down—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I knew she saw me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I knew exactly what this was.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Behind me, Naomi scrambled, grabbing the rifle.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My chest dropped even further.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Fuck this,\" she muttered, raising it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No—!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I turned, shoving the barrel away just as it fired.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The shot went wide into the trees.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What thehellare you doing?!\" she snapped. \"She’s trying to kill us!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I didn’t answer her. I couldn’t.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Because when I turned back—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila was closer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Way closer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi cursed and bolted for cover, ducking behind a large boulder.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila walked right past me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Close enough that I felt it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That presence.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That heat.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My pulse spiked so hard it made me dizzy.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t even look at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her focus snapped straight to the boulder.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She fired again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"LILA!!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Nothing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Just gunfire.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I dragged my hands through my hair, my thoughts slipping over each other.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What the hell was I supposed to do?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Step in front of her? Into the line of fire?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>With the look on her face, I was almost certain she’d shoot me too, whether by accident or not.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Grabbing her was out of the question, especially with that gun in her hand.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Last time we fought over a weapon—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I remembered it too clearly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Too real.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was starting to feel helpless, before—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Click.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Click.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Click.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Silence.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The gun ran dry.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For a split second, everything froze.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi stayed behind the rock, breathing hard.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila didn’t hesitate.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She threw the gun aside like it meant nothing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her hand went straight to her pocket.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Knife.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Lila— Lila! Relax!\" I rushed forward.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She pulled it out, fumbling only for a second before gripping it tight.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her movements were sharp.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Desperate.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Focused.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>On killing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>On Naomi.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I grabbed her wrist.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Stop—!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was stronger than I remembered, or maybe just more desperate. The blade flashed dangerously close as she tried to break free, her focus still locked on Naomi.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>We struggled, her blade inches from slipping free of my grip.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Lila, listen to me—!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her breathing was uneven, almost shaky.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not fear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something else.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something worse.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like she was about to break.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The blade slipped.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Slice.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"FUCK—!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Pain exploded through my hand.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I stumbled back, clutching my palm as blood poured through my fingers.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My vision blurred for a second.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Shit—...Adrian, baby— I’m so sorry—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice changed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Just like that.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I looked up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was right there.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Eyes wide.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The anger—gone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Replaced with panic.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Real panic.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She stepped toward me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I stepped back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instinct.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My hand throbbed, blood dripping onto the dirt.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She froze when she saw that.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Really saw it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her breathing hitched.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...I didn’t mean to,\" she said softly. \"I didn’t— I wasn’t—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Footsteps.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She came around the boulder, rifle raised.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes flicked from my bleeding hand—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To Lila.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To the knife.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her face hardened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She took aim.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I moved without thinking, stepping between them.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Adrian, move,\" Naomi said, voice low and tight. \"She’s dangerous.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Will you just stop?\" I snapped.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Behind me, I felt Lila shift.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The knife raised again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Just wait till I get my hands on you,\" she spat. \"You fucking slag.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi’s jaw clenched.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Say that again.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"QUIT IT!\" I yelled, pushing Lila back slightly with my good arm.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Everything felt like it was spinning.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Too fast.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Too loud.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila looked at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Really looked this time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her expression twisted.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Hurt.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Anger.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Something raw.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Couldn’t wait, huh?\" she said. \"Couldn’t even wait to see my body decompose.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What—?\" I blinked.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You move on quick, you asshole.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice cracked at the edges.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That hit harder than anything else.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What the hell are you talking about?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"At least pick someone prettier!\" she snapped, pointing the knife toward Naomi.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi scoffed, tightening her grip on the rifle.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Oh, I’ll show you pretty—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Lila, stop!\" I cut in.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She didn’t.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her breathing picked up again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Unsteady.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You think I didn’t see it?\" she said. \"You sitting there, laughing with her like I never existed?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I wasn’t—\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You were smiling,\" she said, quieter now. \"You don’t smile like that unless you mean it.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That shut me up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For a second.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Because she wasn’t wrong.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But not like that.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not the way she thought.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"She never replaced you,\" I said finally, forcing the words out. \"We were just trying to survive.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Silence.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila stared at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then at Naomi.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then back at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her grip on the knife loosened slightly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...You expect me to believe that?\" she asked.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice wasn’t loud anymore.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That made it worse.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I thought you were dead,\" I said. \"I watched you fucking die!!! I saw when those freaks put a bullet in your...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes flickered.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The words died in my mouth. I held my tongue back, the painful memories flooding back into my brain like a faulty dam. I pressed my fingers over my eyes, breathing hard as I attempted to collect my thoughts.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"And that’s it?\" she said. \"You just...move on? You could’ve atleast waited 10 years. AT LEAST!!!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I didn’t move on!\" I said, sharper now. \"I kept going. There’s a difference. What the hell was I supposed to do???\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi didn’t lower the rifle.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Didn’t blink.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But she didn’t shoot either.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila’s arm slowly dropped.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The knife dipped toward the ground.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her shoulders sank just a little.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...I looked for you,\" she said, almost to herself.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I swallowed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I didn’t know that.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Youdon’t,\" she said, shaking her head. \"You don’t know what I did to get here.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes lifted back to mine.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That red still there.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Still burning.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But not as wild.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not as out of control.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not yet.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I smelled your lighter,\" she said quietly, holding it up. \"Followed it all the way here.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My chest tightened.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naomi finally spoke again, voice tight.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"So what now?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No one answered her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Because standing there—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Between the two of them—\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I realized something.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This wasn’t over. Not by a long shot.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>People don’t forget that they were trying to kill each other so easily.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lila’s fingers tightened slightly around the knife again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It wasn’t raised, nor attacking— but the grip wasn’t gone either, it growing more vice with each drop of blood that fell to the floor,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And Naomi’s finger was still resting near the trigger, almost like she was a hunter.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Ready.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Waiting.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>One wrong move.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>One wrong word.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And everything would go to hell all over again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>God damn it.\u003C\u002Fp>",1550,"2026-06-06T16:52:01.117Z",1,"novelbin.me","90007cc8e1074ae309a6f78bd670a77a14a700e1a46ab78c491d8a303147d76d","surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-147","surviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-chapter-145",202,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fsurviving-the-apocalypse-with-my-yandere-ex-girl-cover.jpg"]