[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-the-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell":3,"chapter-the-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell-the-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell-chapter-314":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","The Angelic System That Turned My Life Into Hell",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1381372,1829,"Chapter 314: Still On The Losing Side","the-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell-chapter-314",314,"\u003Cp>I, Mika Elbar, reached a new low.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I was determined and proclaimed that I would get strong enough to get my revenge on Dreyar and protect those dear to me. But where am I now?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I may have achieved my revenge but I still feel empty after killing Dreyar.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wait. Empty was the wrong word.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After all, I could not have the feeling of almost losing myself now if I were feeling empty inside.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Harik. Lereon. Lisa. Cylia. Ophelia. Olivia. Rachel. Belian. Sara. Elsa. Lily. Sylvia.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I lost everyone whom I swore to protect.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They were close and yet, I was not able to reach them when I had to. After spending two years away from most of them, I was finally able to reunite with them but it felt like a fleeting moment before they disappeared from my sight.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>’Let’s go on a trip together once the war is over!’\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I’m sorry...! If I hadn’t involved you in this and sent you somewhere safe like initially planned, then you wouldn’t have died...!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The image of me having fun with them during a trip flashed my mind for a moment.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Keh...!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I palmed my face and dug my nails deep into my skin.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’m sorry...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was as if it was yesterday when I hung out with everyone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But the reality was that it felt like that because everyone died so quickly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’m sorry...!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Again, I failed miserably. I swore to protect you but it was me who sent you to your deaths...!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The war was over but I feel like the loser.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I have nothing left nor was I able to accept the deaths of them properly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Or did I grow desensitized to death? Would my past self mourn more about Belian and the others? Was it because I was familiar with the feeling of having lost people dear to me? Or because the little ounces of humanity I had inside of me started to vanish, too?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Whatever it was, I could only tell that I was feeling disappointed and unreasonably angry right now. Not just at me but everything else around me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Sorry, but at the very least...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In the end, the only thing I could do was fight. The only thing I could put my confidence in was my strength.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I take that back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I should not feel confident about strength that could not even be used to help those I wanted to help.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...I will have you taste my frustration...!\" I muttered with gritted teeth.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I stabbed Excalibur into the ground, unleashing its secret ability which negated every ability around me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I drew my silver sword and pointed it at the unfazed Lanzar.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Mik-\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Let me handle this.\" Lanzar interrupted Zeima, signaling with his arm not to move.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Zeima heaved a sigh.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Then, please hurry up. We don’t have much time left.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I know.\" he responded sternly and with a sharpened gaze.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lanzar stepped forward.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The Holy Spear still remained in his hand but thanks to Excalibur he would not be able to enlarge it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I alone will be enough for you.\" Lanzar declared indifferently.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Tch...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I followed my instincts as my body charged at Lanzar.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I swung my sword with all my might against him but he parried it with his spear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"What makes you think that you could beat us? Or rather, what is the reason for you fighting us?\" Lanzar asked sternly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Shut up...!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I applied more force, pushing him back slightly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"How annoying.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lanzar flipped his spear and wiped my feet off the ground in the same motion.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Ack!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He stomped at my stomach with one foot.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Isn’t Lanzar getting too much invested...?\" Raspalia wondered without changing her aloof expression.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Zeima just glanced at Lanzar pitifully.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why did he choose you...?\" Lanzar muttered frustratedly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Do I look like I’m happy that he chose me...?\" I retorted, struggling to get his foot off me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It seemed like I irritated him even more.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Argh!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like a ball, he kicked me away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"If it weren’t for his injury, then everything would have been fine...!\" Lanzar said, clenching his fists.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Injury?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You’re treating me like I’m the bad guy here...!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Huh?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lanzar glared at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Not just because of him... But all of you, too!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Once again, I jumped at Lanzar with my sword retracted.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Because of you, I had to suffer so much!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lanzar and I exchanged strikes with our weapons. While he landed some blows on me, I managed to scratch his face a few times.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You guided me to this path, knowing fully well how it would end! How could I be content?! Because of all the choices you forced on me everyone I loved died!!!\" I screamed from the depths of my lungs.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>None of the three reacted for a moment.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Is that so? Is that how you really feel?\" Lanzar asked.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Ugh!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He landed a clean hit with his spear and slapped me across my face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>With ragged breathing, I had to kneel on one knee.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Are you blaming us for your fate?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Tch...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Of course...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Kill me already.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...I don’t.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If it were not for the system and the others, then the world would have ended at the hands of Lucio. In a sense, the angels saved the human realm.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If it meant toying with the life of one person, then it would have been a small price to pay.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That was something I realized a long time ago.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>However, I still wanted to point my hatred at the system and the other angels.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Otherwise, I could not have kept a sane mind. In the worst case, I would have maybe questioned my reason for living.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"If anything, then it would be my fault for blindly following the system and allowing him to push me into this path...\" I stated out of energy as I gazed at the cold ground.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Please kill me... Let me at least join my comrades...\" I begged with a shaking voice.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But the three angels did nothing aside from looking at me indifferently.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"There’s nothing for me to do anymore... The world was saved from Lucio...!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"We can’t.\" Zeima replied.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"As much as we want to grant your wish, we mustn’t kill you.\" Lanzar added.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why...?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Because we were ordered.\" Raspalia responded.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>My gaze shifted in the other direction.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Then, can you at least save my friends...?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They did not respond.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I apologize but our time here’s up.\" Zeima answered, sounding like she pitied me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"W-what do you mean by th-\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"?!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Suddenly, my body began to shine.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"We’re being called back.\" Raspalia explained.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Not yet!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I got up and tried to hurry over to Sylvia and Lily.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Mika Elbar. Let’s talk again once you have calmed down.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Lanzar chopped my neck from behind.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Ack...!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>You bastard...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No good... My consciousness was about to fade...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I sensed how I was picked up and carried on Lanzar’s shoulder.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The ground appeared smaller as I was most likely lifted to the sky.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The light was so bright...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I felt like I could fall asleep at any moment.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Sylvia... Lily... Wait for me...\" I muttered.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>From above I could finally see the rose-like ice labyrinth that Sylvia created.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Was she perhaps trying to create an environment almost no one could enter easily...?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Damn it...!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A warm light engulfed my entire body.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But at the same time, I lost consciousness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The next thing I knew once I opened my eyes again was that I was sitting on the floor with my body being chained up like a prisoner.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Are you finally awake?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Hm?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A man was speaking to me, however, my vision was still too blurred to recognize him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"So you’re the one Mikaela chose, huh?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Who are you...?\" I asked, sounding sleepily.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Heh.\" the man huffed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I am God.\"\u003C\u002Fp>",1308,"2026-06-05T22:24:02.323Z",1,"novelbin.me","ce1bdf56d3177798ebcb5a30486a9528ec169b990fcf4a20e8d7ed3a9b387b07","the-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell-chapter-315","the-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell-chapter-313",315,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fthe-angelic-system-that-turned-my-life-into-hell-cover.jpg"]