Chapter 449: I want to be with you

Han Meiqing was suddenly held tightly by Xiao Changkun, and her entire body stiffened in an instant.

Deep down in her heart, how could she not have hoped that Xiao Changkun would hold her tightly after more than twenty years?

After all, this was the only person she had ever loved in her life.

At this very moment, her first love from over twenty years ago was holding her so tightly, his hands clasped firmly against her lower abdomen; that feeling seemed to transport her back to her youth at twenty.

Han Meiqing's heart surged with true emotion, and she couldn't help herself for a moment, placing her own hand over his.

But the moment she placed her hand on Xiao Changkun's, she suddenly realized that what she was doing was wrong.

So, she broke free from Xiao Changkun's embrace, hurriedly smoothed her hair, and said quite unnaturally, "Changkun, we two cannot be like this. After all, you are a married man, and I cannot wrong Ma Lan!"

Xiao Changkun became anxious immediately and blurted out, "But she was the one who wronged you first back then! When we were together, our feelings were so good. She knew full well that I was your boyfriend, yet she took advantage of the situation when I was drunk. If it weren't for her being so shameless, we would have already been together!"

Han Meiqing sighed softly and said, "Even if what happened in the past was her fault, I was the one who chose to let go. Since I already chose to let go and give you to her, I will not wrong her the way she wronged me back then. This is a matter of principle; otherwise, wouldn't I be just like her?"

Xiao Changkun grew agitated and said, "That woman almost ruined the feelings of both of us for a lifetime. Is there still any need for you to talk about principles with her at a time like this?"

Han Meiqing said earnestly, "Actually, after that incident happened back then, I knew in my heart that all of this was Ma Lan's doing behind the scenes. I know she is a petty person, but I cannot become a petty person just because I was hurt by one."

As she spoke, she looked at Xiao Changkun again and said with utmost seriousness, "After all, you are her husband now. I can meet with you and have meals with you like an ordinary friend or an ordinary old classmate, but we cannot take that step beyond the pond. Not even a little bit."

Tears streamed down Xiao Changkun's face. He looked at Han Meiqing and said with a choked voice, "Is it possible that there is no chance for us in this life anymore? After so many years, we are finally able to meet again; don't you want to make up for the regrets we had back then?"

Han Meiqing's expression was also somewhat pained, and she lamented, "Of course I want to; otherwise, I wouldn't have made a special trip back from the United States. But I believe that a gentleman, whether regarding money or feelings, must act according to the Dao. If there is still a chance for us to be together again, it must be after you and Ma Lan have divorced."

Xiao Changkun blurted out without hesitation, "Then I will divorce her immediately!"

Han Meiqing said very seriously, "Changkun, don't misunderstand my meaning. I am not saying that we can be together just because you divorce Ma Lan."

Xiao Changkun asked nervously, "Meiqing, what do you mean by that? I don't understand. Are you unwilling to be with me?"

Han Meiqing said sincerely, "Changkun, after all, we haven't seen each other for so many years; how could we suddenly decide to be together? That would be too much like child's play."

As she spoke, she added with a serious face, "Back then, we were dating while in school. We were both students, studying every day and socializing with classmates. We never lived together. Living together and dating are different, especially at our age now. We not only have to consider our own lives and feelings, but also our children and their views on us."

"Therefore, this kind of thing is not something we can decide just by talking about it like we did when we were teenagers. We must consider it carefully and think it through thoroughly before we can possibly make a relatively mature decision."

Xiao Changkun immediately said, "I cannot accept that way of thinking. I know you still have feelings for me, and my heart has feelings for you. Since both of us have feelings, what is there that cannot be overcome?"

As he spoke, Xiao Changkun pressed, "Meiqing, I want you to tell me the truth: do you have feelings for me right now?"

Han Meiqing said somewhat awkwardly, "How do you expect me to answer that question? After all, we were together back then, our feelings were so deep, and we were each other's first love, carrying over 20 years of regret. To say I have no feelings would be deceiving myself."

As she spoke, Han Meiqing added, "But as I just said, this matter isn't just about considering one's own feelings."

Xiao Changkun's tears flowed more and more, feeling as aggrieved as a child.

For so many years, he had suffered too much in his relationships. That was why he felt such immense comfort the moment Han Meiqing returned.

Seeing Han Meiqing, he truly realized that his previous life had been in deep water and scorching fire.

Therefore, he didn't want to live that kind of life for even one more minute.

Seeing Xiao Changkun crying like a child, Han Meiqing's eyes also turned red.

She walked up to Xiao Changkun, gently wiped his tears with her sleeve, and said with a pained heart, "Changkun, you have really suffered for so many years. If time could turn back to the time before we graduated, even if you had already had a physical relationship with Ma Lan, I wouldn't have given you up..."

As she spoke, she lamented with a face full of sorrow, "It's just a pity that time never returns, and no one can make the years go back. In the blink of an eye, we are already middle-aged and elderly people over fifty."

Xiao Changkun grabbed her hand tightly and said with great excitement, "Meiqing! Precisely because we cannot make the years go back, we shouldn't let down the days we have ahead! Not even for a single second!"

Having said this, Xiao Changkun was very emotional. He suddenly knelt on one knee and blurted out, "Meiqing, I want to be with you!"

Seeing him kneel, Han Meiqing was a bit flustered. She hurriedly pulled him up and blurted out, "Oh my, Changkun, what are you doing? Get up quickly!"

Xiao Changkun said stubbornly, "If you don't agree to me, I will kneel here and not get up!"

Han Meiqing glanced at the kitchen door and said anxiously, "Oh my, get up quickly. What if the children come in and see? How are we supposed to explain this?"

Xiao Changkun said earnestly, "If Paul comes in and sees, I will tell him I love his mother, I hope to be with his mother, and I hope to receive his blessing; if Churan comes in and sees, then I will tell her I love you, I want to divorce her mother, and be with you!"