Chapter 449: I Want to Be With You

Han Meiqing was suddenly pulled into a tight embrace by Xiao Changkun, her entire body stiffening in an instant.

Deep down in her heart, how could she not have hoped that Xiao Changkun would hold her tightly after more than twenty years apart?

After all, this was the only person she had ever loved in her entire life.

At this very moment, her first love from over twenty years ago was holding her so tightly, his hands clasped firmly against her lower abdomen; that feeling seemed to transport her back to the youthful days when she was twenty.

Han Meiqing's heart surged with genuine emotion, and for a moment, she couldn't help herself, placing her own hand over his.

But the moment she placed her hand on Xiao Changkun's, she suddenly realized that what she was doing was wrong.

She broke free from Xiao Changkun's embrace, hurriedly smoothed her hair, and said quite unnaturally, "Changkun, the two of us cannot be like this. After all, you are a married man, and I cannot wrong Ma Lan!"

Xiao Changkun became anxious immediately and blurted out, "But she was the one who wronged you first back then! When we were together, our feelings were so deep. She knew full well that I was your boyfriend, yet she took advantage of the situation when I was drunk. If it weren't for her shamelessness, the two of us would have been together long ago!"

Han Meiqing sighed softly and said, "Even if what happened in the past was her fault, I was the one who chose to let go. Since I chose to let go and give you to her, I will not wrong her the way she wronged me back then. This is a matter of principle; otherwise, wouldn't I be just like her?"

Xiao Changkun grew agitated and said, "That woman almost ruined the feelings of a lifetime for both of us. Is there really any need to talk about principles with her at a time like this?"

Han Meiqing said earnestly, "Actually, after that incident happened back then, I knew in my heart that it was all Ma Lan playing tricks behind the scenes. I know she is a petty person, but I cannot become a petty person just because I was hurt by one."

As she spoke, she looked at Xiao Changkun again and said with utmost sincerity, "After all, you are her husband now. I can meet you and have meals with you like an ordinary friend or an old classmate, but we cannot take that step across the line—not even a little bit."

Tears streamed down Xiao Changkun's face. He looked at Han Meiqing and said with a choked voice, "Is it possible that there is no chance for us in this life anymore? After so many years apart, we have finally met again; don't you want to make up for the regrets we had back then?"

Han Meiqing's expression also showed a hint of pain, and she lamented, "Of course I want to; otherwise, I wouldn't have made a special trip back from the United States. But I believe that a gentleman, whether it concerns money or feelings, must act with integrity. If the two of us still have a chance to be together, it must be after you and Ma Lan have divorced."

Xiao Changkun blurted out without hesitation, "Then I will divorce her immediately!"

Han Meiqing said very seriously, "Changkun, don't misunderstand my meaning. I am not saying that we can be together just because you divorce Ma Lan."

Xiao Changkun asked nervously, "Meiqing, what do you mean by that? I don't understand. Are you unwilling to be with me?"

Han Meiqing said sincerely, "Changkun, after all, we haven't seen each other for so many years. How could we suddenly decide to be together? That would be too childish."

As she spoke, she added with a serious face, "When we were dating back then, it was in school. At that time, we were both students; we had to study every day and socialize with classmates. We never lived together. Living together and dating are different, especially at our age now. We have to consider not only our own lives and feelings but also our children and their views on us."

"So, this kind of thing isn't something we can decide just by talking about it like we did when we were teenagers. We must consider it carefully and think it through before we can possibly make a mature decision."

Xiao Changkun said immediately, "I cannot accept that kind of reasoning. I know you still have feelings for me, and I have feelings for you. Since we both have feelings, what is there that cannot be overcome?"

As he spoke, Xiao Changkun pressed her, "Meiqing, I want you to tell me the truth: do you have feelings for me in your heart right now?"

Han Meiqing said with some difficulty, "How do you expect me to answer that question? After all, we were together back then, our feelings were so deep, and we both carried regrets spanning over twenty years. To say I have no feelings would be deceiving myself."

As she spoke, Han Meiqing added, "But as I just said, this matter isn't just about considering my own feelings."

Xiao Changkun's tears flowed more and more, and he felt as aggrieved as a child.

For so many years, he had suffered too much torment in his relationships. That was why he felt such immense comfort the moment Han Meiqing returned.

Seeing Han Meiqing, he truly realized that his previous life had been in deep water and scorching fire all along.

Therefore, he didn't want to live that kind of life for even one more minute.

Seeing Xiao Changkun crying like a child, Han Meiqing's eyes also turned red.

She walked up to Xiao Changkun, gently wiped away his tears with her sleeve, and said with a heart full of pity, "Changkun, you have really suffered for so many years. If time could turn back to the time before we graduated, even if you and Ma Lan had already consummated your relationship, I would not have given you up..."

As she spoke, she lamented with a face full of sorrow, "It's just a pity that time never returns; no one can make the years turn back. In the blink of an eye, we are already middle-aged and elderly people over fifty."

Xiao Changkun grabbed her hand tightly and said with great excitement, "Meiqing! Precisely because time cannot turn back, we should not let down the days ahead of us! Not even for a second!"

Having said this, Xiao Changkun was extremely emotional; he suddenly knelt on one knee and blurted out, "Meiqing, I want to be with you!"

Seeing him kneel, Han Meiqing was a bit panicked and hurriedly pulled him up, blurting out, "Oh my, Changkun, what are you doing? Get up quickly!"

Xiao Changkun said stubbornly, "If you don't agree, I will kneel here and not get up!"

Han Meiqing glanced at the kitchen entrance and said anxiously, "Oh my, get up quickly. If the children come in and see this, how are we supposed to explain it!"

Xiao Changkun said earnestly, "If Paul comes in and sees it, I will tell him that I love his mother and that I hope to be with her and receive his blessing. If Churan sees it, I will tell her that I love you, that I want to divorce her mother, and then be with you!" ===== CHAPTER 450 =====