Chapter 283: Extremely Wicked Disciple (Villain)

When alive, in everyone's eyes, I was a bad person. Heart obsessed with profit and desire, morals corrupted.

But I, understand right and wrong, know my original heart.

I clearly know, everyone has times of being forced with no alternative, circumstances making it unavoidable.

Understanding them, even more understanding me.

I was born in a wealthy family, received higher education, possessing excellent character.

When young seeing a stray dog on the roadside, I felt it was very pitiful, buying it several steamed stuffed buns. It bit me.

This world, not everyone can understand your kindness.

Growing up, one will encounter many things, forcing you to make choices.

Just taking nail households (holdouts) for example, the price I initially gave them was two million. But these people were not satisfied, insisting on eight million. Not giving, the Old Man exactly lay on the ground, firmly grasping pesticide in his hand.

What method did I have?

Could only let [Society People (Gangster) Company] go handle it. Whether it was splashing paint, or threatening, or intimidating, even causing loss of life, all had no relation with me. As long as the project smoothly proceeded.

A car, has two roads that can be chosen. One hits and kills one person, one hits and kills five people. How should one choose?

Whoever gets hit and killed doesn't matter.

I am the driver, my duty is ensuring the car cannot flip, as well as passenger safety.

Same logic.

Speaking largely, I shoulder the heavy burden of thousands of families. The company cannot collapse. Collapsing what to do about the employees, what to do about the stockholders? Again how many people jumping off buildings, how many families shattered?

Speaking small, since childhood I lived a wealthy life. The company going bankrupt, letting me act like ordinary people, working as cattle and horses. Sorry I am pampered and spoiled, I can't do it.

I understand their choices, and highly respect their choices. People well, opportunities to get rich overnight aren't many, always have to take a gamble.

But I also understand my choice, also respect my choice.

They couldn't fight over me, explaining my choice was correct.

All say second-generation rich have a good fate, but I want to ask which son of a turtle said it?

Internally, there's the board of directors, there are those several male Cousins of mine, staring fixedly to death. As long as I make one mistake, they will seize the pretext to make a fuss.

Externally, competitors. The better ones bribe the cleaners to kill my money tree (potted plant), the worse ones can't wait to hit and kill me.

As for, being a wealthy man for a lifetime, intoxicated with paper and gold (indulging in luxury) every day, not taking over the family's company?

Stop joking.

I possess excellent character, have ideals, have aspirations, have pursuits, have ambition.

What method did I have?

Could only...

Internally, suppress the shareholders, then drive those several male Cousins of mine to foreign countries. The ones unwilling to leave, psychiatric hospital VIP ward for one.

Externally, towards competitors, those people wanting to kill me, also didn't know what the matter was, if not dead exactly crippled.

This perhaps is exactly retribution right.

Towards, that old master at home, who single-handedly created the company, exactly that Grandfather who was always gesturing and gesticulating (ordering around) at me, and had the ability to strip away all my positions at any time, making me lose everything. After I controlled the company, he was possibly because of being too happy, also dying on a cold night.

This perhaps is exactly smiling in the Nine Springs (underworld) right.

As for that dad of mine, he had an illegitimate child outside, uh, incorrect, what illegitimate child?

Dad's wish was to embrace the sea, so I scattered his ashes into the sea. A pity couldn't do a DNA test...

Just what kind of people were they ah!

Still that sentence, I understood their choices, and respected their choices. But at the same time I also understood my choice, even more respected my own choice.

If I didn't choose, then could only let them choose, I exactly would have no choice.

I, Lin Xuan, had no path of retreat. The space left for me, actually never existed from the start.

But in my heart, still maintained a prospect towards kindness. I hoped, everyone encountered would all make kind choices. I hoped for family harmony. I hoped for career smoothness. I hoped for older brother friendly younger brother respectful. I hoped...

But, I was only one person, unable to cover every aspect. These [Hopes], were just like circles one by one I had no way to integrate into, rejecting me outside. Within thinking, again thinking, still thinking, seeking yet failing to obtain.

When I chose [Career Smoothness].

I knew, I would turn into a, walker on a dirty and muddy road...

Could only always walk forward, and had no opportunity for failure, otherwise it would be eternally beyond redemption.

I couldn't fail, also didn't dare to fail. If failed, those things I did previously, my life, the obsession supporting me living until now, again what did it count as, was it a joke?

I am Lin Xuan, the undefeated Lin Xuan.

Just as I thought.

Failing exactly meant death.

My first failure...

Failed very ironically.

Failed to fate.

Actually, I have always been pondering, a person like me, what the final ending would be. Envisoned ten thousand kinds of possibilities...

Played to death by that illegitimate child.

Killed by those few in the psychiatric hospital.

Finished off by competitors.

Stabbed to death by commoners whose families shattered.

But, none of them were.

I...

Died to fate.

It was exactly that kind of, previously still living perfectly fine, suddenly the person exactly was gone.

I to this day still couldn't figure it out. With great difficulty having rest time, walking on the main street, how did the upstairs exactly suddenly...

Drop down a person!

She perhaps was emotionally frustrated, perhaps having conflicts with family members, perhaps career not smooth etc. In short she chose to jump off the building, and randomly smashed to death a passerby.

I was exactly that...

Passerby smashed to death.

The person wanting to die didn't die.

The person not wanting to die died.

Fate is truly very strange. Giving a person wanting to die, an opportunity to choose; snuffing out a person not wanting to die, their opportunity of living.

Right before dying, I saw her, a sunny-looking girl, wearing a uniform. The name on the Chest Plate was called: Yu Xiangwan.

Truly a nice-sounding name. I decided to remember it for a lifetime. No, life after life, even turning into ashes also couldn't forget.

I f*cking thank you!

I was very surprised, not surprised at the existence of Hell, but surprised...

I would descend to Hell!

I am a person possessing excellent character, and my inner heart maintaining primal kindness. Although merely maintaining in the inner heart, it also counts as half a good person right.

How is it possible to descend to Hell?

Gradually I discovered, here very much suited my appetite. I am a person of primal kindness, killing these wicked disciples, had no psychological burden.

But, I didn't understand. Hell was all a bunch of wicked thieves, how could it birth...

Heart Cultivation this kind of, thing whose existence obviously didn't fit the [Evil] setting!

Shouldn't it be... I am not a hero with unparalleled broad vision, I am a bad egg infinitely arrogant?

I possess excellent character, and my inner heart maintains primal kindness. Every choice when alive, as far as I was concerned, was all a torment.

Therefore, when I carried out Heart Cultivation actively inducing emotions, the birthed free will, was strong to the point of just like mountain peaks one by one unable to be crossed over.

Who asked me to be a, bad egg whose inner heart maintains primal kindness, and behavior is infinitely arrogant?

I was bitterly persisting.

Yet from beginning to end unable to cut away the Id. Where exactly did the problem appear?

I couldn't help but recall, the various thoughts of my inner heart from before, seemingly discovering the problem.

【I possess excellent character, and my inner heart maintains primal kindness.】 This sentence, seemed starting from my Heart Cultivation, exactly was always continuously hovering in my mind, interfering with me...

This is Superego!

The free will birthed by the Superego, was too strong. While strong to the point of unable to be killed, it led me every time, to all mistakenly recognize it as the free will birthed by the Id.

Since the problem was found, then next it was simple. Don't need to pay attention to the free will birthed by the Superego, seek the free will birthed by the Id then snuff it out.

Not knowing how long passed, I slowly opened my eyes, looking towards my Watch.

Distance to two days ending, still remaining...

Six minutes.

I exactly said it well. I am Lin Xuan, that undefeated Lin Xuan. Besides fate, there's nothing that can defeat me!