[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-the-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans":3,"chapter-the-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans-the-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans-chapter-64":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","The More Tragic I Act, the Stronger I Get — My Fans Beg Me to Stop Killing Off My Roles",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1297878,1723,"Chapter 64: Breaking Out of the Cocoon—Becoming a Butterfly?","the-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans-chapter-64",64,"\u003Cp>Liu Guodong's words sounded like a threat, but Jiang Ci couldn't help feeling that Old Liu was more like... handing him a knife.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He had dissected all of Xia Meng's weaknesses and laid them bare for him to see.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then he told him, go ahead, see what kind of \"work of art\" you can carve with this blade of yours.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After leaving Liu Guodong's office, Jiang Ci returned to the empty rehearsal hall.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He didn't start warming up immediately. Instead, he stood in place, digesting the information he had just received.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Taking full responsibility, huh...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He muttered to himself.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That wasn't particularly difficult.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After all, to continuously harvest Heartbreak Value, he needed to keep the target in a \"broken\" but not completely \"scrapped\" state.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He was still thinking when the door to the rehearsal hall was gently pushed open.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng walked in.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her face was even paler than yesterday, with no trace of color on her lips.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She walked alone to the farthest corner, took the script from her bag, and began reading her lines in a low voice.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her eyes were vacant and lost.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Just as Jiang Ci was examining her with a gaze assessing \"KPI,\" Xia Meng seemed to sense something and slowly raised her head.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Their eyes met in the air.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng's body trembled involuntarily.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She put down the script, stood up, and walked step by step towards Jiang Ci.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her steps were slow and hesitant.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Finally, she stopped about three steps away from Jiang Ci.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Jiang Ci looked at her, waiting for her to speak.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He thought she would question him, would be angry.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>However, Xia Meng just bit her lip hard, looking at him with a gaze of sickly dependence.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At 1:30 PM, the rehearsal officially began.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The atmosphere in the rehearsal hall was so oppressive it was suffocating.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Everyone had arrived, forming a semicircle, with a large empty space in the middle.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Liu Guodong stood at the front, arms crossed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He glanced at his watch and announced in an indisputable tone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Today, we're rehearsing the most intense confrontation scene between Ma Lu and Ming Ming in the rain.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>His sharp gaze swept across the room.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"If you can't perform it well, no one is leaving.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The rain argument is the emotional climax of the entire play *Rhinoceros in Love*.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Ma Lu's obsession, Ming Ming's fear, the desperate collision and inability to communicate between the two, all converge in this scene.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This scene places extreme demands on the actors' emotional explosiveness and control.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To have the current Xia Meng perform this scene?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Everyone's gaze instinctively turned towards Xia Meng in the corner.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She stood there, body stiff.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Xia Meng, Jiang Ci, take your positions!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Liu Guodong's voice rang out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng's body trembled violently.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She raised her head, looking at Jiang Ci with pleading eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Jiang Ci gave her an unreadable look and walked to the center of the space first.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng took a deep breath, shuffled her feet, and walked to stand opposite him.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Begin!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At Liu Guodong's command.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Do you love me?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Jiang Ci delivered the first line. He was in excellent form, instantly capturing Ma Lu's naive yet obsessive questioning perfectly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The pressure instantly shifted to Xia Meng.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng opened her mouth, but no sound came out.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The moment she tried to get into Ming Ming's character, to summon that feeling of fear and resistance, the images of yesterday's breakdown flooded her mind.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The shame of having all her pretenses stripped away.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That feeling of losing control made her whole body go cold.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Technique and emotion were completely separated.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Say something!\" Jiang Ci's performance continued. He stepped closer, his emotions building layer by layer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I...\" Xia Meng finally squeezed out one word.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She wanted to step back, but her body wouldn't move.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Cut!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Liu Guodong finally couldn't hold back, roaring impatiently.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Xia Meng! What are you doing! Where are your lines? Your reaction?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng flinched at his roar, her face turning even paler.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The classmates watching were terrified, not daring to breathe too loudly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Liu Guodong paced back and forth irritably.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Finally, he raised his head, his eyes fixed intently on Jiang Ci.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The meaning in his gaze was clear.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>You caused this trouble, you fix it!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>All the pressure, at this moment, shifted entirely onto Jiang Ci.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Feeling that gaze that seemed almost capable of burning through him, Jiang Ci sighed inwardly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He no longer followed the script, but suddenly broke off the performance.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The entire rhythm of the rehearsal hall was disrupted by his action.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Ignoring Liu Guodong's murderous glare, Jiang Ci walked straight up to Xia Meng.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In an almost calm tone, he asked a question completely unrelated to the plot.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"When you were little, were you very afraid of making mistakes?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This question, without warning, pierced through the long-sealed door to Xia Meng's heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng trembled violently all over.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She jerked her head up, glaring at him fiercely, not uttering a word.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That look seemed to say: How dare you!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Jiang Ci completely ignored her anger.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Looking into her eyes, he continued in that same unemotional, narrative tone, speaking slowly:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Because every time you made a mistake, what you got wasn't comfort, but harsher criticism.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"They told you, mistakes aren't allowed on stage, actors shouldn't have too much emotion.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"They told you, tears are cheap, losing control is shameful, being unprofessional means having no value.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Each of his words tore away the layers of disguise she had wrapped around herself.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Jiang Ci didn't use any acting techniques. He simply combined the information Liu Guodong had revealed with his own observations,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Calmly, recounting her repressed childhood trauma.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It once again precisely struck the softest, most painful place in Xia Meng's heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"So you learned to hide yourself away.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You turned yourself into a precise machine, making no mistakes, always calm, always correct.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You thought this way, you could earn their approval.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Jiang Ci's voice kept cutting into her heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He leaned in slightly, lowering his voice further.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Were you really happy?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>*Boom—*\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng's psychological defenses completely crumbled.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Tears, like a breached dam, surged out uncontrollably.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But this time, she didn't collapse to the ground like yesterday.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The grievances and resentment that had been pent up for twenty years, with nowhere to vent, found an outlet at this moment!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She fiercely channeled this intense emotion into the character of \"Ming Ming\"!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I love you! I don't care!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That voice was filled with unprecedented vitality, and a desperate sense of throwing caution to the wind!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I don't care what you think! I don't care what others think! I just love you!\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She wasn't shouting at Ma Lu.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was declaring war against her parents who had forced her, against that cold, theoretical world!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Liu Guodong was trembling with excitement. His thermos cup clattered to the ground, but he didn't even notice.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The members of the drama group were stunned.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Was this... breaking free from the cocoon and becoming a butterfly?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Immediately, the system's prompt sounded in Jiang Ci's mind.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Ding! Heartbreak Value detected from Xia Meng +233!]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Current Heartbreak Value balance: 767]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Ding! Life span increased by 20 days!]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Remaining life span: 141 days 8 hours...]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The performance ended.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Xia Meng's body trembled violently from exhaustion, tears still streaming down her face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But her eyes were no longer empty and vacant.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instead, they were astonishingly clear, like the sky after a rain.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She raised those eyes, washed clean by tears, and looked at the man before her who had pushed her into the abyss and then given her new life.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After a long time, she relaxed her hands and said softly:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Thank you...\"\u003C\u002Fp>",1282,"2026-06-05T18:00:08.556Z",1,"novelbin.me","8e5d95a21884f606af6d88746ed38debeb1b35afa920a82d8e4aa8b1a99c7c99","the-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans-chapter-65","the-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans-chapter-63",366,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fthe-more-tragic-i-act-the-stronger-i-get-my-fans-cover.jpg"]