Chapter 203

Lu Mian was stunned for a moment, looking at the seemingly empty seat opposite him, and replied politely:

"Hello."

At the same time, he recalled a strange term that his sister Aurore had once said and explained:

"Expert consultation"!

Although there aren't invisible "psychologists" sitting all around me, there are two whole ones, and I still can't discover them... Lu Mian muttered in his heart.

The lady opposite him did not speak again, and Su Qian's tone became even more relaxed and lighthearted:

"Your impression of that newspaper incident seems very deep, which means it produced a good effect?"

"Yes," Lu Mian answered frankly.

He could already face the trauma in his heart directly instead of sealing it away; otherwise, he would try his best to avoid contact with "Red Boots" Franca, because she would always mention Aurore.

Of course, the emotional fluctuations brought about by this were unavoidable.

Su Qian turned the topic back to the original track:

"If you want to further confirm what abnormal coincidences have occurred during this period and find the corresponding source, I can help you.

"I won't directly look through your memories, but I can wake them all up and let them appear before your eyes in chronological order. Of course, this does not involve those hidden by the subconscious; those are too dangerous.

"Are you willing to try?"

Lu Mian did not have the slightest hesitation:

"Okay."

After noticing the coincidences on his body and surroundings, he would recall his experiences during this period from time to time and ponder the corresponding details. Now, it was just changing to a better way.

"Let your body lean completely against the back of the sofa, relax, and close your eyes..." Su Qian's gentle voice entered Lu Mian's ears unhurriedly.

He had just changed his sitting posture and hadn't had time to adjust his psychological state or close his eyes when the matter of the "volcanic eruption" suddenly appeared in his mind.

This caught him off guard, causing his subconscious to fail to make an effective interception.

What erupted like magma and dust were points of light, each carrying a scene within it.

These numerous points of light were arranged linearly in chronological order, making Lu Mian feel as if he were watching a play with himself as the protagonist.

It was screened in a flashing manner, yet it maintained the clarity and completeness of every detail.

Lu Mian suddenly had the feeling that his brain was running rapidly, the temperature was rising quickly, and it was about to emit white smoke.

He saw every scene, remembered every detail, and strung them together, searching for the abnormal parts.

Suddenly, he frowned tightly, his expression slightly painful as he whispered:

"I discovered, I discovered that the memory from when I prayed for the gift last time until I returned to the Auberge du Coq Doré—that memory is gone!"

Lu Mian opened his eyes wide, the muscles of his face visibly distorted.

That memory that should have existed was a blank slate!

At this moment, a clear, gentle female voice entered his mind:

"Does it not exist, is it gone, or did you forget it, ignore it?"

This came from the lady opposite him, but it was no longer as lighthearted and smiling as before.

It was like a bolt of lightning, lighting up in Lu Mian's mind, illuminating all the dark corners outside his subconscious.

Lu Mian's expression became increasingly painful. He couldn't help but bury his head low and said with extreme difficulty:

"I, I saw it, I saw it...

"I am talking to, I am talking to the angel sealed within my body!

"His name, his name is Termiboros!"

Lu Mian finally remembered what he had forgotten:

The contamination sealed in his left chest was essentially an angel who believed in Inevitability, named Termiboros!

He had originally wanted to ask Ms. 'Magician' if there was any way to utilize that angel and how to avoid the negative effects he might impose, but later he completely forgot about this matter.

"Is this the contamination sealed within you?" Su Qian didn't seem too surprised, her voice still peaceful.

Lu Mian subconsciously exhaled and raised his hand to touch his forehead, which was already covered in dense cold sweat.

He answered truthfully:

"Yes, he even wanted to lure me into helping him break free from the seal, but I refused. After that, I forgot about this matter.

"This is really, really too weird..."

Termiboros is clearly sealed within my body and cannot escape, yet he still made me unknowingly receive his influence!

"This is very normal. You cannot underestimate any angel, even if he is sealed," Su Qian used an explanatory way to eliminate the fear that surged in Lu Mian instantly.

The unknown is what makes people most afraid.

She said further:

"In ancient times, angels were also called 'Servants of God', which means they already possess some essence of a deity. Even if they are sealed, they can still exert a certain influence on the outside world through some methods.

"Did you think before that with the seal of that great existence, the contamination in your chest was more like a gift, and as long as you followed the correct process and came at the correct stage, there would be no other problems besides being relatively painful when bearing the power and having a certain risk of losing control?"

Lu Mian was silent. During this period, he had more or less had similar thoughts.

"You must remember that in similar matters, the manifestation of a curse will not be weaker than a gift, and may even be stronger," Su Qian warned. "I don't know how Termiboros is influencing you, but based on the fact that he believes in Inevitability, I suspect he is mainly causing your fate to undergo a certain bad deviation.

"You don't need to be too worried. After all, he is sealed, and the influence he can exert is very limited. As long as you frequently check your own state and repeatedly ask yourself whether a thing should be done, you can largely avoid this problem."

"Okay." Lu Mian took out paper and pen and scribbled a memo.

The content of the memo was "Ask Ms. 'Magician' about Termiboros."

He was worried that after he finished the treatment, he would be influenced by that angel of the Inevitability domain again and forget the corresponding matter.

Putting away the paper and pen, Lu Mian exhaled slowly:

"After remembering the matter of Termiboros, I feel much more relaxed and grounded. It seems my spirituality still has a certain perception."

"I can feel that your mental state is better than before," Su Qian affirmed Lu Mian's words.

Lu Mian took the opportunity to ask:

"Two ladies, you say, has Susanna Mattise been completely cleared by the official Beyonders? Do I still need to look for clues from the Old Pigeon Cage Theater and guard against her attacking again?"

Counting the time, Mr. Auvray, the landlord of the Auberge du Coq Doré, should be starting to have bad luck now.

Su Qian smiled gently:

"The 'Spectator' pathway is not good at divination."

The "invisible" lady sitting opposite Lu Mian said with a slight smile:

"Ms. 'Magician' is the expert in divination. Didn't she tell you the answer, or did you not understand her hidden meaning?"

She didn't say it... Lu Mian recalled Ms. 'Magician's' reply regarding the matter of Susanna Mattise.

Suddenly, he froze there:

Ms. 'Magician' spent the whole time telling him how to solve the problem of Susanna Mattise and suggested he seek help from Mr. K.

Interpreted from another angle, this means:

She never considered the possibility that Susanna Mattise had been completely cleared!

In her view, this problem would inevitably erupt again!

Is this expressed too obscurely? Or does she think this is an obvious matter and is too lazy to emphasize it again? Lu Mian muttered a couple of times, nodded, and said:

"I know the answer."

While answering, Lu Mian had certain associations based on the address and attitude of the "psychologist" opposite him toward Ms. 'Magician':

Could they also be members of that secret organization that uses Tarot cards as codenames?

Which card is each of them?

After a slight adjustment, Lu Mian asked about his own psychological state:

"Whenever I think about being about to run into Louis Lund, I feel very urgent, excited, and agitated, and I can't control my emotions. Does this belong to a relatively serious psychological problem?"

Su Qian answered in a gentle voice:

"This is actually very normal. Everyone will have similar manifestations regarding the things they care about and value the most. You are just a little bit over-excited.

"If you didn't have such a reaction, I would instead suspect that you had a more serious psychological problem, sealing away all your emotions.

"What you need to do now is not fear and be afraid, but to control them."

This is normal... After being comforted by Ms. Su Qian for a few words, Lu Mian was no longer as anxious about the corresponding problem as before, and his mental state became more stable.

He asked back thoughtfully:

"Control?"

How to control?

Su Qian answered:

"The simplest method is to always remember that emotions cannot be over-excited. Once there is a similar reaction, immediately use methods like deep breathing to calm your mood and soothe your state.

"This sounds simple, but it is actually very difficult. When human emotions erupt, it is very difficult to have rationality. There are few thoughts that you must control yourself. By the time you regain clarity, the mistake has often already been made.

"I can help you set a trigger point. Once your emotional reaction exceeds a certain limit, it will make you remember what I am saying now, helping you initially regain your rationality and try to control yourself.

"This is a short-term solution. In the long run, you still have to rely on yourself. Of course, after you get used to examining yourself when your emotions are over-excited, the problem will become simple.

"Are you willing to try?"

"Okay." Lu Mian did not reject the help of external forces.

Su Qian's voice became ethereal and illusory at some point. She seemed to have said a lot, but Lu Mian didn't remember a single word, only able to recall the final conclusion:

"The trigger point has been set. If there are no accidents, it can last for two weeks, just in time for the next treatment. At that time, we will decide whether to supplement it depending on the situation."

Lu Mian said "Mm" and examined his own psychological and mental state.

After more than ten seconds, he asked with a bit of fear and a bit of anticipation:

"Can we try to wake up more subconscious memories?"

(End of chapter)