Chapter 146: 146. Chapter 146 I Want to See Him 2

146. Chapter 146 I Want to See Him 2

Looking at the table before me already filled with my dishes, the rice also already placed in front of me, I had been lost in thought just now, only vaguely seeing the waiter come in and go out.

I picked up my bowl, smiled at Shangguan Yun, and began to eat, but after picking up the bowl I didn't want to eat anymore, perhaps I'm just too hungry.

Seeing me pick up the bowl and then put it down, Shangguan Yun hurriedly asked, "What's wrong? Why aren't you eating? Doesn't it suit your taste?"

I looked at Shangguan Yun and said, "I have no appetite; maybe I'm just too hungry."

After hearing my words, Shangguan Yun hurriedly picked up an empty bowl, filled it with clear soup, placed it before me, and said, "Have a bowl of soup first to whet your appetite."

Seeing Shangguan Yun's earnestness, I felt embarrassed to refuse, so I took the soup and drank it.

After the meal, Shangguan Yun asked where I wanted to go for fun, but I had no mood at all, so we went back to the hotel; suddenly I really wanted to go home, perhaps to escape, not knowing how to face Haohua and that past relationship.

In the hotel, sitting on the bed watching TV, but my mind was elsewhere.

"Will you go see him tonight?" Shangguan Yun's faint voice suddenly sounded in my ear.

I lifted my head to look at him, just meeting his gaze; his gaze was gentle and clear, I tugged at the corner of my mouth but ultimately made no sound; actually I myself didn't know whether I wanted to see him, I felt a little afraid, afraid that if I didn't go see him he would, as before, foolishly wait, perhaps even sit on that cold stone bench and wait all night.

Shangguan Yun gently pulled me into his embrace and whispered in my ear: "No matter what happens, no matter what, please don't leave me, okay? I know he may not have forgotten you yet, but I can't bear to be without you; I can't live without you."

Shangguan Yun's words lightly touched my heart; even if he hasn't forgotten me, what then? Can the old wound in my heart heal? Can he make up for my pain over the past year? Can he make up for the tears I've shed for him?

After staring at Shangguan Yun for a while, I slowly said: "He and I are already in the past; perhaps there remains a slight feeling between us, but it has already faded; perhaps there is still a place for him in my heart, but that would only mean burying him deep inside, never to be dug up again; feelings change with time, after all."