Chapter 148: 148. Chapter 148 Give Him a Sense of Security 1

148. Chapter 148 Give Him a Sense of Security 1

Afterwards there was another spell of silence while watching TV, but my heart wasn't on the TV; I was torn inside about whether to go see him—if we met, what would he say to me? Would he explain why he left me back then? Or would he ask to start over? My thoughts were a mess. Since we broke up, and I now also have a boyfriend, after breaking up we could still be friends, although that's really hard, after all it's someone I once loved deeply, but meeting to clear up some things is also appropriate. In the end I decided to go see him in the evening; no matter what, I want to hear his explanation, I want to hear what he ultimately wants to say to me.

"Yun..." I leaned into Shangguan Yun's embrace, softly calling out.

Shangguan Yun turned his head, looked at me gently, and said: "Huh? What's wrong?"

"I want to go in the evening." As I said those words, my whole person and heart were very calm, so calm I could hardly believe it myself.

After hearing my words, Shangguan Yun's face first sank; I guessed he was unhappy, then his eyebrows rose high and high.

"I don't like you furrowing your brows like that." I said while reaching out to gently smooth his brow.

"Can you not go? I'm so afraid, I'm afraid that if you go I'll lose you, I'm really afraid." Shangguan Yun held me tightly in his arms, speaking with a hint of sadness.

I gently broke free, looked at his eyes, smiled and said: "Since I've agreed to be with you, I will stay with you properly; besides, I've already fallen deeply for you—can't you feel it? Shouldn't you believe me?" I kept speaking with a smile, hoping he would believe me, hoping he would reassure himself and let me go, hoping my words would give him a sense of security.

Shangguan Yun's expression showed some helplessness as he said: "But I still can't relax; I, I'm really, really afraid—this kind of fear I've never felt before, just fear." Shangguan Yun continued to lightly frown, speaking to me, his eyes revealing unease.

I slowly moved closer, covering his thin lips with my soft lips, gently kissing; his breath came out, slowly he slightly opened his sensual lips, his tongue pressing against my lips, I slowly, gradually opened my mouth a little, his tongue quickly slipped into my mouth, sweeping around inside, as if searching for something precious; when his tongue touched the tip of mine, he didn't let go, he drew my tongue into his mouth, lightly, gently sucking…