Chapter 169: then translation of chapter title

169. Chapter 169 Hesitant and Timid 4

Maybe I'm just that kind of person—when it comes to someone, I always throw myself in wholeheartedly, I can also quickly throw myself in, pouring all my feelings into them, completely unreserved.

I don't know if I said something wrong; after Shangguan Yun heard my words, he looked at me with fiery eyes, remaining silent for a long time, and I instantly felt as if the space were about to freeze, giving me a feeling of almost suffocating.

"You, why are you looking at me like that." I turned my head away, not daring to look at his expression.

Shangguan Yun pulled me over to lean against his chest and said: "I'm moved; did you hear that? My heart has been calling out to you—can you feel it?"

Leaning against his chest, my heart felt sweet and warm… this must be what happiness feels like.

Finally the road was clear, the sky slowly darkened, and by the time I returned to Shangguanjia the sky was completely black; as soon as I got home I lay on the sofa, not wanting to move, feeling utterly exhausted.

Shangguan Yun said he would take me out to eat, but I didn't dare go out, afraid that if I went out I'd run into someone I know and it would get back to my mother's ears.

I told Shangguan Yun this idea, and he volunteered to go out alone to buy dinner for me.

Shangguan Yun left, and I was bored staying alone, but fortunately Yunxuan was there to keep me company; I kept playing with Yunxuan, I ate an apple, and it wanted to eat too, the apple making a crisp 'crack, crack' sound in its mouth...

Over the next few days I stayed at Shangguan Yun's house, not daring to go out, afraid of running into acquaintances; each time Shangguan Yun went out to buy things to fill my hunger. Every day we slept together, Shangguan Yun was always well-behaved, never making a move on me, only kissing and hugging me, which I could still accept.

The vacation ended, I had to go home; while heading home Shangguan Yun kept saying he would send me back, but I was somewhat afraid—not that I didn't let him send me, but actually I was worried about being seen by Lao Ma's friends or relatives; Lao Ma always told me to focus on studies and not fall in love early, and although I said 'uh, I know' with my mouth, my actions still went against her wishes.