Chapter 204: Not Wanting to Lose 7

Now I'm getting angry; I shoved him away forcefully, sat up, and said, "How can I believe you? Yesterday you told me you had something come up and couldn't go; I asked what it was, and I already gave you a chance to explain, but you didn't seize the opportunity—I already gave you the chance, you didn't cherish it, and you lied to me. How do you want me to believe you, just based on that abortion consent form you signed?" I shouted at him angrily.

Shangguan Yun endured my shouting for a long time without speaking; in the darkness I could see his eyes, black and gleaming.

"Yesterday someone clearly saw you at the hospital entrance with a pretty girl, but when I asked you about it you denied it—you lied to me." I said resentfully.

Before Shangguan Yun could speak, I continued, "Today someone actually sent me a gift—such a big gift, I was truly shocked. It turns out my boyfriend didn't have time to be with me yesterday; instead he went with another girl to get an abortion." After saying that I let out a few self‑mocking laughs.

"It's not what you imagine; please hear me out. I didn't tell you because I was afraid you'd overthink things. I also know I have a bad record, and I feared you'd misunderstand me, so I thought it better to do less rather than more; as long as I'm clear in my conscience, that's enough." Although I didn't believe Shangguan Yun's words, I could see sincerity in his eyes and tone. I was afraid he'd deceive me, so I told myself not to trust him, not to believe him.

"When two people are together they need to be honest. I don't know if I can still believe what you say, but I truly believe what I saw." I dared not look into his eyes, afraid I'd fall in, so I turned my head to stare at the dark wall.

Shangguan Yun gently pulled me into his embrace and said, "Believe me, please believe me? On Friday A Chun and I arranged that on Saturday I would take Su Tingting to the hospital for an abortion, saying she was pregnant. I also don't know whose child is in Su Tingting's belly, and I have no need to know. Anyway I can swear that I and he have never had any relationship, nor any ambiguous feelings—Su Tingting is A Chun's sister. We were all getting along fine before, but after she dealt with you last time I've been cold toward her, basically ignoring her. Yet since A Chun spoke up, how could I not help? If you don't believe me, I can have them come confront you." Shangguan Yun indeed had the air of someone who does no wrongdoing and fears no ghost knocking at midnight.