Chapter 214: Not Wanting to Leave 17

"Wife, how could I leave you? Don't worry. But from now on, would you mind often saying things like this to me? Although I know you've always been shy in your heart, I can't be sure whether I'm important to you; sometimes when you get angry with me, my heart clenches tightly, as if I might lose you. That fearful feeling—maybe you've never experienced it, and I never had it before either. Only when I'm with you do I sometimes feel this way, afraid that I'm not good enough for you, not thoughtful enough, that you'll leave me—I feel so insecure, you know? Before, all my girlfriends were completely obedient to me, afraid I'd leave them, so I never felt that way, and it didn't matter; if they left, they left, I wasn't afraid of having no women. But being with you is different—I'm really afraid that even a little thing might make you leave me, or that my past flirtatious affairs will give you a bad impression of me. And you know? I've never lain in bed with a girl and felt this at ease. Only you, only you. You make me cherish you; I won't force you to do anything. Although I really want to possess you, I've also thought: if I possess you and take your first time, will you then follow me wholeheartedly and never leave? I hope to exchange your first time for your unwavering loyalty to me. Every time I want to be with you, I actually have that request because I want you to stay by my side forever." Shangguan Yun said with a sincere face.

Forever, I don't know just how far his 'forever' really goes.

Actually, I also clearly know that I make him feel insecure, because I've always kept my feelings hidden deep inside, afraid he'll mock me.

"I think I've deeply fallen into your feelings; I like all the ways you dote on me, I like the way you look at me with deep affection, I like eating meals with you every day—it makes me feel our intimacy is seamless—but I'm afraid you'll tease me, afraid you'll leave me." I lightly bit my lower lip as I said this to him.

"Silly, how could I, how could I tease you? Then if I tell you sweet nothings every day, would you tease me? What would you feel in your heart?" Shangguan Yun said with a smile, his dark eyes gazing at me, gazing at me with deep affection.