Chapter 319: 319. Chapter 319: A Vague Unease 7

319. Chapter 319: A Vague Unease 7

If I were to say that I don't love Haohua deeply enough, then after breaking up with him, how could I have been so depressed for so long, crying for such a long time? Perhaps I love Shangguan Yun even more deeply; I really can't imagine what would happen if I broke up with Shangguan Yun—what my life would become, what my existence would be like……

Suddenly I started to feel afraid; I really can't do without him anymore. Yesterday he just went out for a bit, and even though I knew he wouldn't do anything to me, when I found out he went out to look for Tingting, my heart felt so sorrowful. If one day he really does something that lets me down, I think I will break down, I will break down……

"What's wrong, you silly thing, what are you thinking about?" Shangguan Yun said, looking at me with rice in his mouth.

After hearing Shangguan Yun's voice, I finally came to my senses, and with a sorrowful gaze I lightly said to him: "I'm thinking about you."

Shangguan Yun heard that, first stunned, then broke into a smile and said: "Aren't I by your side?" I still looked at him with a sorrowful gaze, showing no expression.

"What's wrong? You seem strange today; aren't you going to get sick and become foolish? You're not eating—I must immediately take you to the hospital for a check‑up, otherwise if my wife becomes foolish I'll die of heartache." Shangguan Yun put down his chopsticks and said to me.

Soon he called the waiter, settled the bill, went to the cashier, paid, and took me away.

"If one day I really become foolish, will you still love me, still want me? Will you leave me?" I said to him in a sorrowful tone.

"How could I become foolish? I was just joking with you earlier. Don't think wildly." Shangguan Yun said, smiling while holding my hand.

I didn't realize again that he was just joking with me; it was precisely this joke that aroused my desire to know.

"I said 'what if.' Answer me." I said in a coquettish tone.

Shangguan Yun gave a helpless smile, looked at me and said: "No matter what you become, whether you are foolish, crazy, deranged, or messed up, I will still love you, I will still want you—rest assured."

After hearing that, a hint of sweetness welled up in my heart; I smiled and lightly punched Shangguan Yun, saying: "You're the one who's crazy, deranged, and messed up."