Chapter 353: 353. Chapter 353 Far-fetched Explanation 11

353. Chapter 353 Far-fetched Explanation 11

You made me wait for you all day at home—do you know how painful it is to wait for someone? Do you know how long and agonizing that time was? And you lied to me, didn't you say you wouldn't lie to me anymore, didn't you say that when two people are together they should be frank with each other? When I asked where you were, you didn't tell me; when I said I wanted to go find you, you wouldn't let me go. How am I supposed to believe you? If there's nothing wrong, you could just come back wearing A Chun's clothes. Why didn't you do that? Why?" I said, somewhat agitated.

I originally thought I could stay calm, stay calm, but when Shangguan Yun said that, I couldn't stay calm.

I won't allow the man I love deeply to have even the slightest notion of not missing me; I've decided not to allow it.

"Xuanxuan, calm down first, listen to me. I'm just afraid you'll get this upset, I'm just afraid you won't believe me, so I didn't think— as long as I haven't done anything wrong to you, isn't that enough? Why worry about so much? I thought, better to do less than more, so I didn't tell you." Shangguan Yun grabbed my shoulders, looking at me, indicating he wanted me to stay calm.

"Is that so? That's what you said, but you didn't do anything to make me believe you. I only believe what I see." My heart trembled violently as I said.

Shangguan Yun looked at me silently with an incomprehending gaze, saying nothing.

"Why don't you find a better reason to make me believe? Why do you have to come up with such a far‑fetched excuse?" I said, tears in my eyes, looking at Shangguan Yun. I so wish I could believe him, but I just can't.

"Then what do you want me to do to make you believe?" Shangguan Yun said helplessly.

I shook my head and said: "I don't know, I really don't know, you know how painful this is for me? I've realized our distance has grown, I sense there's some obstacle between us; when I try to reach out and grab you, you keep drifting further away, and I feel our hearts drifting apart more and more, to the point I can't get close to you anymore. What should I do, Shangguan Yun? Tell me, how can I hold onto you tightly? Tell me, please tell me."