Chapter 38: 38. Chapter 38 Anticipation 1

38. Chapter 38 Anticipation 1

Lying in bed, I kept thinking about things I couldn't figure out, but I didn't realize when I had already fallen asleep.

The next day, I had to pack up and go back to school again, and suddenly I felt a bit of anticipation, but I was also afraid—afraid of seeing Shangguan Yun, afraid he would take revenge on me, because I really didn't understand what kind of person he was.

But there's nothing I can do—after all, I'm a student, so I have to go to school; at worst I'll get a beating, I can't hide forever, right?

I forced myself to go to school, didn't run into Shangguan Yun, and felt secretly pleased, yet at the same time I felt a bit of loss, as if something was missing.

While sitting in the classroom, I would often take the excuse of going to the bathroom to pass by Shangguan Yun's classroom door and peek in, but I never saw his shadow; my heart always felt empty, a bit unsettled.

Not seeing Shangguan Yun and not being bothered by him should be what I wanted, so why does my heart feel suffocated, as if something is blocking me, an indescribable annoyance? I'm getting more and more confused about myself.

I lowered my head to look at my phone, but I hadn't received any message or call from him; actually, thinking about it, there's no need to think about him—people like him are just like that, maybe he's already grown tired of me, which is actually normal.

"A Ji, why haven't I seen Shangguan Yun today?" At that moment, Lili mentioned Shangguan Yun while chatting with A Ji, and I immediately focused my attention, hoping to hear something about him from them.

"A Yun said he might be sick," A Ji remarked offhandedly.

So he was sick—perhaps last night, when it was windy, and he stood downstairs of my building for most of the night; no wonder he got sick, especially after drinking so much.

After that, whatever they talked about, I no longer had the heart to listen.

Throughout the evening self-study session, I was just sitting there in a dazed stupor.

At night, as I tried to sleep, I felt a sense of anticipation, hoping my phone would ring, wishing Shangguan Yun would call and pester me to chat with him; but I waited and waited, my eyes fixed on the phone, which lay still and silent, not moving at all, and I didn't know when I finally fell asleep.