Chapter 495: 495. Chapter 495: That Feeling Has Become the Past 21

495. Chapter 495: That Feeling Has Become the Past 21

I can imagine it all, do you know? When I was on the street seeing those couples walking hand in hand happily, do you know how much pain and suffering I felt in my heart? I think you definitely wouldn't know, and even if you did, you wouldn't understand my current feelings. Let me ask, when you are with your boyfriend, have you ever thought of me? In every night I miss you, have you ever had a night when you thought of me? Xuanxuan, I am in so much pain, do you know? Haohua shouted at me excitedly.

Haohua, we said it fine back then, didn't we? We can't be lovers, but we can still be friends. In my heart, I treat you as a friend, as a very good friend, just like Huiqing is a good friend. Really, didn't you say that too? You will still be my friend, and we can still care for each other like friends. Why must you fall so low? Thinking you have the conditions, you can go find a better girl than me to love you." I said this out of concern; at this moment, I shouldn't have spoken to him like that.

Xuanxuan, I can't do it, really can't, I also thought about it, I wanted to treat you as a friend and then slowly forget you, but I can't do it, really can't. At first, I just thought of caring for you like a friend, you could confide in me when you had worries, but I can't do it, I really can't. As soon as I close my eyes, imagining you being embraced by your boyfriend, my heart feels like it's being cut by a knife, really painful, so painful it makes me suffocate, so painful I can't breathe, do you know? One could faintly hear Haohua speaking to me in a choking voice.

He spoke that way, my heart felt a heavy pang of pain; really, I actually could understand that kind of pain in his heart.

I know, his current feeling is the same as how I felt when I first broke up with Haohua.

Back then, I was the same; whenever I thought Haohua was no longer my boyfriend, whenever I thought I could no longer lie in his arms acting coquettish, whenever I thought the chest that originally belonged to me would be taken by another girl, my heart felt like being cut by a knife, suffocating from pain, unable to breathe. How could I not understand? How could I not experience it?