Chapter 228

But, is this really okay?

What he wants is family, the warmth of family. But what do they count as now?

What he wants, can she really give it, can she afford to give it?

"What's wrong?" Seeing He Lele somewhat distracted, Qin Zhixiu asked with a mouthful of foam.

He Lele handed him a water cup so he could rinse his mouth.

"Zhixiu... go back to the apartment, Jiejie will be worried."

"... Are you angry? I'm sorry, I last night..."

"No," her small face flushed slightly. "I was willing last night, I just feel that the way things are now is not good for you or for me."

"You don't want me anymore?"

"No." He Lele denied it reflexively. Every time he said such things about being abandoned, it made her heart ache until it almost twisted into a ball. Raising her hand to gently stroke his slightly furrowed brow, she forced herself to steady her heart. "If what you really want is pure family affection that can last a lifetime, we must maintain an appropriate distance."

"Why?" His heart split with pain; he didn't want that damn distance.

"Because in the future... you will always have a wife you love, cute children, and a complete little family. I don't know if you will still need a friend/relative like me by then, but if we have—" He Lele licked her lips, finding it hard to speak. "If we have this kind of physical relationship, I won't be able to face your wife and children."

Wife, children... a complete home, "..." Qin Zhixiu didn't know how to express himself. After thinking for a moment, he turned and ran out, returning in the blink of an eye with a bewildered kitten in his arms.

"We... are also a complete home, there won't be anything you can't face."

Sighing softly, He Lele smiled faintly and shook her head. "It's different."

Whether it's friendship or family affection, in front of a little family, it has to take a backseat. Just like her and Ren Lingyu, even if they are as close as can be now, Ren Lingyu will eventually have a lover and children, have another world. By then, neither the time spent together nor the attention paid to her can be like it is now. She can't... rely on Ren Lingyu so much anymore, can't disturb Ren Lingyu's life too much. She must have the awareness to get used to the taste of being alone again.

Alone.

Qin Zhixiu, although he craves the meager family affection she gives him now, once he finds his destined lover and has the fruits of love, his wife will give him more, and she will become dispensable to him. Even now, if she lets them continue living so chaotically, she will be viewed as a stain and a burden by him in the future. By then, let alone her family affection, he probably wouldn't even want her friendship.

Why bother.

"Can't... we form a home?"

"Meow!"

Two pairs of equally pure and innocent eyes tore at He Lele's heart.

"Shall we... get married?"

With a bitter smile, He Lele turned her back to the person and the cat to brush her teeth.

"We—"

"If you want to cut off all ties with me right now, then you can continue your joke from just now," He Lele pulled out her toothbrush and warned.

Looking at her cold and stern expression in the mirror, he didn't dare.

"Why?"

"Because you know, I know, and the whole world knows, you deserve a better woman."

"I—"

"Don't say you don't care about my past, don't care that I once... worked a job like a prostitute." Rinsing the foam from her mouth, every word of He Lele's was clear and calm.

"If a marriage has a thorn buried in it from the beginning, it will definitely have a day when it erupts. I don't want to deceive others to gain happiness, nor do I want to become someone else's wife while carrying inferiority and guilt, so in this life, I will not marry."

Not letting herself harbor extravagant hopes, nor giving others a chance to hurt her.

Not begging for others' pity, not living on her knees in a lowly manner.

Even alone, she can make herself smile and face every day!

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Author's Note:

Suddenly felt~~ I seem to... apparently... really... be a stepmother...

Cough cough~ running away while wearing a pot on my head~~

(Went to see a movie today, came back late. I won't go out tomorrow to see if I can type more~~ Love you all!! Mwah!) Goodnight~~ Sweet dreams!

P. S. "Escape Plan," although the lead is Stallone~~ Schwarzenegger really steals the show~~~ And the beard look is just a handsome uncle~

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Qin Zhixiu didn't leave. He said, "Let me think about it."