[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist":3,"chapter-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1137":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","This Life, I Will Be the Protagonist",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1533048,1991,"Chapter 1137 Divine Game: Quiet Mountain 20","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1137",1137,"\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6786, Month 14, Day 2\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They have always been curious about what my nightmare is.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They say there is no pattern, that after all these years they still cannot understand it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>How am I supposed to explain it?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Perhaps it is that whatever I want, I cannot get. Whatever I want to do, I cannot accomplish. I am forever forced to settle for second best, forever manipulated by the Demon Game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I often question the version of myself in the mirror. Do you still belong to yourself?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6787, Month 13, Day 20\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So gods and demons really do exist outside the Demon Game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6788, Month 1, Day 7\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Among demons there are Oak Owls, Vineborne, and elves.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>How do they view our pain?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6789, Month 11, Day 19\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Frost Deer guessed my nightmare. She asked why I am always so calm.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I told her that any form of pain is a reward granted to the observer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6790, Month 15, Day 16\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I have not comprehended a god level skill from pain for a very long time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I heard other Apostles are the same.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But honestly, being able to stay sane is already impressive. Why ask for god level skills on top of that?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6792, Month 4, Day 20\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So long. So boring. So painful.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6793, Month 14, Day 10\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Can we get something new for once?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6794, Month 16, Day 21\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Winterveil. Mistblade brought something called mahjong.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6795, Month 1, Day 20\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This is all Mistblade’s fault. We played mahjong for almost twenty one days straight. Frost Deer, Mojie, and I nearly missed the Demon Game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6795, Month 15, Day 11\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Mahjong is ten thousand times more fun than the Demon Game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6795, Month 16, Day 14\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Feels like I can survive one more day in Quiet Mountain only because of mahjong.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 2, Day 11\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Mistblade does not understand mahjong at all.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 3, Day 14\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I heard a new Apostle has arrived in the Demon Game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 3, Day 16\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Frost Deer, Mojie, and I taught her how to play mahjong. She actually teared up and said we were really nice.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 5, Day 3\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They all discovered my secret.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why is it that I can no longer perceive pain, yet the Demon Game has not increased my difficulty as a roundabout execution?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I set a rule. Whoever deals me a direct hit one hundred times at the mahjong table, I will tell them this secret.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 6, Day 20\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am tired of playing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I told them that I can store all the pain I perceive mentally into my owl feathers, converting it into physical pain. On a daily basis, it stimulates and reforges my body, increasing my strength and constitution. When I need it, those feathers can also erupt with tremendous destructive power.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Perhaps the Demon Game does not actually care whether we suffer. What it wants is for us to keep growing stronger.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It just happens to believe that pain is the source of power.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So anyone who cannot gain strength from pain is, to it, useless trash that should lose the right to grow.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Psychotic.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 7, Day 9\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>QM Rita.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So strange.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Every time, whether it is my optional tasks or something I personally want to accomplish, it always gets derailed by other Apostles or simulated players.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But ever since she appeared, whenever we enter a game at the same time, the key factor leading to my failure is always her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And whenever we participate together, I almost always receive a forced task to betray her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 8, Day 21\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Should I praise her sharpness, or her excessive attention toward me?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She actually guessed my nightmare.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Of course, it might also be because she plays the Demon Game too often. Every time I enter, she is already there.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Or perhaps... she noticed it too, right?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She always ends up causing my failure by coincidence, and I always have to betray her at the critical moment.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It is as if we are a pair of destined rivals.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 10, Day 2\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She said I am like a character in a role playing game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I asked what she meant.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She said someone is holding a controller, and the person holding it decides how this game is played.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She is so annoying.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6796, Month 15, Day 2\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When she lifted Mistblade’s chin with her sword tip and told her, \"You should cry,\" she looked at me.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Was she provoking me?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 1, Day 18\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>To survive the Demon Game, the best way is to turn yourself into a demon.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She discovered this secret.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 2, Day 1\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Unforgivable.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She actually used a time skill to play mahjong!!!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A crime beyond redemption!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 3, Day 9\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Frost Deer and I decided to kill QM Rita.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For the purity and sanctity of mahjong!\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 4, Day 1\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Mojie joined our plan.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 5, Day 13\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Mistblade and Cicada dragged me into swearing to kill QM Rita together.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was only when I got home to play mahjong that I remembered I already had a team.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 5, Day 20\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Kessa asked to join the plan on her own initiative.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Because QM Rita stole the demon relic she had never managed to awaken.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 7, Day 2\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>JE joined as well.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Such a childish way to form a grudge.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He and QM Rita argued. No matter what he said, she always replied, \"My pain is greater than yours.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I do not understand it, but it is definitely infuriating.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 9, Day 6\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>With my covert matchmaking, Mistblade finally discovered the Kill QM Rita Alliance on Frost Deer, Mojie, Kessa, and JE’s side.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The two alliances merged.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I no longer have to run between both sides.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 12, Day 5\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Twenty eight SSS tier survival skills. Five escape type god level skills.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The only way QM Rita might die is of old age.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Fortunately, Oak Owls are long lived. I plan to outlive her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 13, Day 4\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I drew the betrayal task again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I do not understand. If betrayal is already known in advance, does it still count as betrayal?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Probably yes. Maybe the Demon Game just enjoys making her feel like there is no being in all of Quiet Mountain she can trust.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6797, Month 16, Day 19\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She came knocking today to settle accounts. She asked if I had anything to say about betraying her so many times.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Seventeenth tier and already this arrogant?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She left with a bruised and battered face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>I am fine. I am okay. No big issue. Everything is under control.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Mistblade is right. The Demon Game really should enable an anti addiction system for her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Quiet Mountain Year 6798, Month 1, Day 1\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Who is the most hated player among the Apostles?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>QM Rita received nine votes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Was I the only one who did not vote for her?\u003C\u002Fp>",1288,"2026-06-06T06:15:30.214Z",1,"novelbin.me","681848265a18d655031890482fc8d452d33dec4236341f6b36d5a58ba2c6e9d2","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1138","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1136",1404,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fthis-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-cover.jpg"]