[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist":3,"chapter-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1390":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","This Life, I Will Be the Protagonist",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1533201,1991,"Chapter 1390 Please Take Me With You","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1390",1390,"\u003Cp>\"Any wish.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I’m the Adjudicator.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q showed no excitement at all.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There was not even the polite surprise or grateful delight she usually displayed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instead, her expression turned serious as she asked,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Is the real disaster finally coming?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita countered softly,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why can’t this simply be gratitude for all your years of work?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q answered with certainty,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You respect me. When I contribute labor or strategy, you reward me generously.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But you would never suddenly appear in front of me just to offer me a wish.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita pressed her lips together in a faint smile.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Should she say that everyone around her was too smart?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Or simply that they understood her too well?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The smile slowly faded.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>For once, uncertainty appeared on her face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I don’t know what the outcome will be.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It felt eerily similar to that dark period years ago, right before she dragged BS out of the invasion sequence across the River of Time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She could face any hardship.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had never regretted her decisions.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She always believed she could start over from nothing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As long as the price was paid by herself alone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Back then, the worst possible outcome had been BS suffering because of her mistakes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Now the stakes were all of Starsea and Quiet Mountain.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What if she was wrong?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had given everyone a hundred years of happiness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Would that make the worst ending hurt a little less?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Silence settled over the room.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q quietly watched the woman seated across from her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A refined black robe draped around Rita’s body, its long hem spilling across the floor.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The color should have looked severe.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instead, it only made her seem gentler.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In her hands rested a book glowing with pale platinum light.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The glow was soft rather than blinding, similar to the moonlight inside Rita’s lantern.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A few white petals drifted between the luminous pages, scattering and reforming whenever the wind slipped through the window.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Finally, Shadow.Q’s gaze returned to Rita’s face.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Beautiful.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Almost unreal.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Those eyes seemed to contain countless beautiful and sorrowful eras long gone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was not merely physical beauty.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita simply looked like a story when she sat there.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q suddenly remembered an encounter from several months ago.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had been out with subordinates when she ran into Rita by chance.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The Adjudicator always had a way of avoiding attention unless she deliberately chose to be seen.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And apparently, Shadow.Q qualified as one of the few reasons she would reveal herself.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita had appeared behind her and suddenly patted her shoulder, clearly attempting to scare her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But Flower Crown Murder had an unmistakable scent.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q had recognized her before even turning around.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Still, what else could she do?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Naturally, she had professionally pretended to be startled.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After the Adjudicator left in satisfaction, Shadow.Q noticed one of her subordinates staring blankly after Rita’s retreating figure.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When the girl finally snapped out of it, the first thing she said was:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I wonder what Adjudicator has been through. Her life must’ve been incredible.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That was also one of the thoughts that surfaced in Shadow.Q’s mind whenever she looked at Rita.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What had she experienced?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Why did she wear such an expression?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What was she thinking about?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>One question became another.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Before realizing it, you would find yourself staring at her for a very long time.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And despite being so distant and untouchable, she occasionally still said kind things just to make people happy.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q had known Rita longer than anyone else.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Long before everybody else.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had watched Rita grow from harmless deception into cold determination.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>From someone obsessed with power into someone who could sacrifice emotion for logic during the Adjudicator war.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then into the Adjudicator herself, carrying responsibilities she once despised.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And now...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Now she resembled a god gazing gently upon the world.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Warm.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Compassionate.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Yet the truth was that she had always been like this.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even long ago, Rita had been capable of understanding why people made the choices they did.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q had witnessed every stage of her transformation.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Once, in private, Nivalis told her:\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I hate that Rita became the Adjudicator. The day she took that title, the world gained a second Wrathful Moon.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And that moon had remained sealed away for many years.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A sigh pulled Shadow.Q back to reality.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita closed the glowing book in her hands.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I just don’t know whether I should bring every world with me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I don’t know if I can succeed.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q answered without hesitation.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Then please take me with you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her memory was excellent.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She remembered a conversation from over a century ago, back when the game had reopened voting for the Adjudicator position.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At the time, BS had asked her a question.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"In your heart, which matters more? BS, or her?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had frowned in confusion.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why would you ask me something like that?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Curiosity.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Because I know every story that happened, and every story that failed to happen.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Many years ago, when you and Rita fought Black Jade together, she once used time reversal.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Before the reversal, Black Jade persuaded you to switch sides.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You chose to oppose Rita alongside Black Jade for the sake of the Special Affairs Bureau and your career.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But after reversing time, Rita acted first.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...Ah.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"That really does sound like a decision I would make.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"No wonder you asked.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Back then, her answer had been silence.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Without BS Rita, BS would already have been destroyed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But all of her ideals existed within BS.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Without BS, where could she pursue her ambitions?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>More than uncertainty over the answer itself, what truly unsettled her was the possibility erased by time reversal.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita had seen through her that early.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And still allowed her to become one of BS’s executives.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Now, over a century later, Shadow.Q finally knew her answer.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Wherever BS Rita went, there would inevitably be grander futures and greater ideals.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had no regrets left in BS.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had climbed higher than everyone else.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Once upon a time, she had admired Avery from afar for years.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Now she had finally surpassed her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>There was only one person left for her to look up to.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Meeting Rita’s surprised gaze, Shadow.Q repeated firmly,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Whether you bring BS or not, please make sure to bring me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"That is my wish.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"...Alright.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After Rita left, Shadow.Q heard BS’s voice once again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It remembered that old question too.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[BS]: So this is your answer. She matters more than BS.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Shadow.Q switched off the automatic aroma diffuser running in the room.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No fragrance smelled better than Flower Crown Murder.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Calmly, without emotion, she stated a simple fact.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"My ideals matter most.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Whoever gives my life greater meaning, whoever makes my career more brilliant, becomes my ideal.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A faint smile appeared on her face amidst the lingering floral scent.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"And it’s not just me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[BS]: What do you mean?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You also think she matters more than BS, don’t you?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[BS]: Do you not realize I also have another name?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Rita-BS]\u003C\u002Fp>",1160,"2026-06-06T06:15:33.929Z",1,"novelbin.me","6d98663018e7ce9bdec634daf506ae52d49d1b63a6cd8b45b8f2d34989942317","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1391","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1389",1404,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fthis-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-cover.jpg"]