[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist":3,"chapter-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1392":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"english","This Life, I Will Be the Protagonist",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":19,"prevChapterSlug":20,"totalChapters":21,"novelImage":22},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":15,"volume":16,"translator":17,"content_hash":18},1533203,1991,"Chapter 1392 Every Time I Calculate You","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1392",1392,"\u003Cp>\"Forget defective products.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You will take me with you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>As those words fell, every player heard a notification.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Warning! Warning! The old order is beginning to awaken.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita did not meet B80’s eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Instead, she looked at the dead little robot.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The one that had awakened a divine gifted talent after briefly spending time with her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Defective product?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>So in B80’s eyes, a Mechanoid that had awakened emotions was defective?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then what exactly was the rule that sent awakened Mechanoids to the Scrap Heap?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Was it a rule made by the gods?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Or was it a rule the Mechanoids themselves had left behind for the gods to follow?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her thoughts grew increasingly chaotic.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita forced the noise in her mind down.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>First, she had to save L12185511.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After obtaining massive amounts of soul fire, Rita had saved a profile for every player, updating them once every year.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If she saved even players she barely knew, how could she not have saved Y128 and L12185511, who lived in her home?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even L175246, who occasionally gathered the courage to visit with luggage in hand, had a saved profile.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had the ability to preserve everyone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The outline of soul fire lit between her brows.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She was going to load L12185511’s profile.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>B80 did not stop her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It only watched quietly.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The black iron armor covering its body was thick and imposing, making it impossible to tell what kind of being existed beneath.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>If no one had seen it transform from B80, anyone might have believed it was a player wearing a full suit of heavy armor.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Dark red light glowed from its joints and the cube in its chest.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like flames swaying in the wind.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The light trailed behind it in long ribbons of crimson, like torn bloodstained cloth.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This was not the dead stillness of the Scrap Heap.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not the ridiculous mailbox from Diamond Miner.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not the clumsy vending machine from the racing game.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not the cute gingerbread figure from Chaotic Blocks either.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The Mechanoid before her radiated deep, unmistakable ill omen.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The soul fire between Rita’s brows lit up, then dimmed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Load failed.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>[Mechanoid permissions are encrypted. You do not have authority to read any Mechanoid related program.]\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita raised her eyes toward B80.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The guilt and softness deep in her gaze vanished completely.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Only wariness remained.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>B80 slowly extended the fist that had crushed L12185511.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The black iron gloved hand opened with elegant, deliberate slowness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The last fragments and debris belonging to L12185511 fell freely to the ground.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Its voice carried grief and anger.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Like a blade beginning to rust.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It questioned her.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Why did you never think of loading me?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You clearly had a way.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You were afraid I would betray you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You were afraid something unknown would rewrite my program.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But you could have loaded my profile.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You could have brought the B8017913 you knew back to your side.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It had abandoned logic and reason.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It was chasing a possibility with almost desperate stubbornness.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita refused to take even half a step back.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She asked in return,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Calculate me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Calculate my choices.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Tell me. After suspecting the Mechanoids might be the source of Starsea’s tragedy, would someone like me truly place all hope on load the way you claim?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The whole reason she wanted to return to the First Epoch was because she believed she could not defeat a fully matured final boss.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had only learned today that the Mechanoids’ true form looked like this.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even now, she was not certain their species was truly mechanical.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Under these circumstances, she had already been reckless enough.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had only made B80 promise not to calculate the future, then kept it by her side for another hundred years.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She let it hear her conversation with Deceitful Bloom.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Let it see what she was doing.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Every brushstroke she made while painting Scrap Heap had filled her with regret.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When she once told B80 not to calculate the future, wasn’t she also warning herself?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Do not ruin the beauty of the present for a future hidden in fog.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Leaving you in the Tenth Epoch is the best ending I could think of.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You don’t need to worry about raising a weapon against me.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"And I don’t need to worry about you betraying me against your will.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>From the moment she said \"calculate me,\" Rita had been advancing step by step.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>When she reached B80, she suddenly grabbed its wrist and yanked it down to the ground.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She hated being questioned.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>And she disliked looking up at anyone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>By the time she finished speaking, B80 had followed the force of her pull and dropped to one knee.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Almost like it was pledging loyalty.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The red light in its eyes flashed violently.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It had obeyed Rita’s command.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Its program was calculating massive amounts of data.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After a long while, it said,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Everyone around you is loyal to themselves.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Maple Syrup, Cinders, Deceitful Bloom, Mistblade, Cicada, Foolishness, Lightchaser, Shadow.Q, even Nivalis.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"They are loyal to duty, to home, to ideals, to knowledge, to strength.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"You are important to them.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"But none of them would ever abandon everything for you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Only I would.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Every time I calculate you, I become more loyal to you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita closed her eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her voice became very soft.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I don’t need loyalty.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I am also loyal to myself.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>With that, she raised her hand and dissolved the contract between herself and B80.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"The second time.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>B80 slowly stood.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Its voice was as cold and desolate as the heavy armor covering it.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It looked at Rita’s closed eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had once again refused to meet its gaze.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>That meant it could no longer constantly calculate the emotions in her eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"This is the second time you have dissolved our contract.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>A red beam connected the cube in B80’s chest to Rita’s heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The equal contract linked them again.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I will prove to you that a perfect and eternal program is far more reliable than ever changing emotion.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>After saying that, B80 vanished directly from Rita’s sight.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>No one knew where it had gone.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>This argument had no conclusion.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>B80 was full of unknowns, so it could not be trusted.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita was too cautious, so she could not be persuaded.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She had no time to keep dwelling on their fight.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>World Sigh appeared in Rita’s hand.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The illustration inside the book lit up.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Her consciousness instantly spread across every corner of the galaxy.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>While searching for B80, she had already appeared with Nivalis before the small Order Clock at the center of Graveyard of Bones.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The moment she landed, Rita felt an immense pressure.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Every lamp in Graveyard of Bones was burning with blue ghost fire.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The small Order Clock had disappeared, along with the final less than one percent of mysterious matter she had not yet collected.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>In its place floated a dark red cube.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Countless dark red rays streamed toward it from the void.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Beneath her feet, the Order Clock was rapidly approaching Quiet Mountain.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>At this speed, it would likely arrive in less than six days.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The sound of ocean waves rose.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita appeared in the Scrap Heap.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Every pile of discarded Mechanoids had vanished.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Not only that.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita could no longer find Y128 or L175246.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>She could not find a single Mechanoid anywhere.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Even the Mechanoid owned by Pine Bloom had disappeared.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Pine Bloom was sitting awkwardly at a table, touching his ears in distress.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>He did not dare openly search for it, likely because he was afraid Lidian would get angry.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>The Mechanoid factory Deceitful Bloom had once taken Rita to see had disappeared entirely too.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Nivalis, who had been clinging tightly beside Rita’s ear, suddenly whispered,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I won’t betray you either.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita was silent for two seconds.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Then she answered honestly,\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"My current abilities are enough to handle betrayal.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"If I cannot handle it, I won’t allow it to remain by my side.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>B80’s words had struck her like a blade straight through the heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>It understood Rita too well.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Programs could be rebooted.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Memories could be erased.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Yes.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>They were not so different.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>What if, during a team battle, her allies were mind controlled?\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>But...\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>Rita reached out and held the uneasy Nivalis in her arms.\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Don’t be afraid.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"Don’t be sad.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I am strong enough now.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\n\u003Cp>\"I can trust you without holding anything back.\"\u003C\u002Fp>",1391,"2026-06-06T06:15:33.929Z",1,"novelbin.me","b95a569481f705f63eb60977bf7c0bc1965633158782838e6053435a922724cf","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1393","this-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-chapter-1391",1404,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fthis-life-i-will-be-the-protagonist-cover.jpg"]