[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"origin-writing-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime":3,"chapter-writing-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime-writing-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime-chapter-143":6},{"origin":4,"title":5},"chinese","I Write a Diary in a World of Anime",{"chapter":7,"nextChapterSlug":20,"prevChapterSlug":21,"totalChapters":22,"novelImage":23},{"id":8,"novel_id":9,"title":10,"slug":11,"index":12,"content":13,"wordcount":14,"created_at":15,"updated_at":16,"volume":17,"translator":18,"content_hash":19},2133281,3507,"Chapter 143: Awakening Love","writing-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime-chapter-143",143,"\u003Cp>\"So, are you hoping to take this opportunity to get closer to Ren Amamiya?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya stared at Ai Hayasaka with wide eyes.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>She wasn't actually some naive, sheltered girl; she understood exactly what that meant.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Her heart fluttered inexplicably, yet her voice couldn't help but tremble.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Hayasaka, what do you mean by that?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>To this, a hint of a smile remained in Ai Hayasaka's voice.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Don't you know?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Your attitude when facing Ren Amamiya has changed.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Where... has it changed?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya forced herself to appear calm, though at this moment, she couldn't settle down.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"It seems that ever since you saw the contents of the diary, your attitude toward Ren Amamiya has been different.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"It seems to have started around the time the diary mentioned a female neighbor, right?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"I even asked you back then if you needed to show some care toward that female neighbor. You refused directly.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Hayasaka's words reminded her; it seemed that had indeed happened.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"If it were the past you, would you have chosen to ignore it?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"I...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya was at a loss for words.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>For the sake of her goals, making preparations was a matter of course. Targeting someone's weakness was one tactic, and helping someone so they would naturally owe her a favor was another.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>If it were the past, Kaguya Shinomiya felt she wouldn't have hesitated at all; she would have chosen to use both methods simultaneously.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Grab the weakness, and make them owe a favor.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Only by using both could she ensure precise control.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Yet, last time, when faced with the issue of that female neighbor, Kaguya Shinomiya hesitated and chose to do nothing.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Why?\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>To put it politely, it was because she didn't want to use schemes to win Ren Amamiya's friendship.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>To put it bluntly, it was because she didn't want Ren Amamiya to discover these schemes and end up hating her.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya's hesitation wasn't because she didn't want to seize the opportunity, but because she knew that seizing it was equivalent to being hated.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>So, after hesitating, she chose to give up.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>If it were purely a relationship of interests, Kaguya Shinomiya's choice would undoubtedly have been wrong.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>But if some personal emotions were involved, then Kaguya Shinomiya's choice was undoubtedly correct.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>So, what were these personal emotions?\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"It's because you care, right?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Hayasaka's words made Kaguya Shinomiya's heart tremble once more.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"If you didn't care, you would rationally choose the option that was advantageous to you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"But precisely because you care, you feel that such an advantageous option is the wrong one.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"The variable in all this must be Ren Amamiya.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Seeing Kaguya unable to speak, Ai Hayasaka knew her goal had been achieved.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>It was necessary for Kaguya to recognize some of her inner thoughts today, thereby changing her attitude toward Ren Amamiya.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"I... but... it's too fast...\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>At this moment, Kaguya Shinomiya's face was full of conflict.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>She knew what Hayasaka meant; wasn't this just asking her to admit that she had started to care about Ren Amamiya, which was a precursor to liking him?\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>But her past reserve made her wonder if these feelings were coming on too quickly.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>This \"too fast\" also seemed a bit unreserved.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>It was as if she had started... caring about Ren Amamiya for some specific reason.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Looking at Kaguya's conflicted face and the words she had just let slip, Ai Hayasaka generally understood the reason for her struggle.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Reserve.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>This was a problem every young lady had... ah, for Miss Suzuki, this probably didn't count as a problem.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Based on the intelligence Ai Hayasaka had gathered, that Miss Suzuki seemed to have invited Ren Amamiya on a date even before knowing his secret.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>The further development of their relationship was also because Miss Mao Li had dragged Miss Suzuki along to confess to Ren Amamiya.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>From this perspective, Kaguya's care for Ren Amamiya wasn't too fast at all.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>It could only be said to be just right.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>It was truly because Kaguya was overly reserved that she was still dragging her feet now.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Therefore, Ai Hayasaka felt it was necessary to change Kaguya's outdated thinking.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Miss Kaguya, please recall your past life as a canary.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya's mind was in chaos, and she subconsciously followed Ai Hayasaka's prompt to think.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>But just by thinking about it, her chaotic mind suddenly cleared.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"While you were experiencing that life, a light suddenly appeared before your eyes.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"That was a light Ren Amamiya cast unconsciously, but to you, it was the only hope in a desperate life.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya couldn't help but agree.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>That was indeed the only hope in her desperate life.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"You relied on this hope to break the shackles that bound you.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"You used this to take control of your own destiny and trampled the Shinomiya family underfoot.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Then you took the initiative to contact Ren Amamiya.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"He didn't have any excessive demands; he only explained to you what you would have to face by profiting from the diary: that your fate would be intertwined with his.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"From then on, you and Ren Amamiya became connected.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"You couldn't suppress your curiosity about Ren Amamiya, and you gradually began to care more about him because of that gratitude.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"This is the situation you are facing now.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Ai Hayasaka's voice was very gentle, and the logic she summarized was very coherent.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>This allowed Kaguya Shinomiya to see her own changes from a third-person perspective.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Indeed, she knew that she had truly started to care more about Ren Amamiya beginning with gratitude.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Ren Amamiya has no designs on you; he doesn't even care about your probing or your profiteering.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"It is precisely because Ren Amamiya is different from others that you care more.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"It has even reached the point where him mentioning other women makes you feel uncomfortable.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Miss Kaguya, your situation can be completely described as being in love.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"That uncomfortable feeling of yours can be described as jealousy.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya was completely stunned by this summary.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>For the first time, she realized that her emotional changes were jealousy, and for the first time, she realized that the emotion she felt for Ren Amamiya was called love.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"If you were just an ordinary person, you might be able to choose other methods, but since you are facing Ren Amamiya, those methods for dealing with ordinary people won't work.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Furthermore, you are destined not to be able to monopolize Ren Amamiya alone.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Why!?\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>The words \"not be able to monopolize\" stung Kaguya Shinomiya's newly awakened heart.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Because of the diary.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>Kaguya Shinomiya's thoughts paused.\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Didn't Ren Amamiya say it himself? Your fates are intertwined with his.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"This intertwined fate doesn't just include you; there's also Miss Nagi and Miss Mao Li.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Besides, there will be more people holding diaries in the future.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Perhaps even Miss Fujiwara.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>\"Your desire to monopolize him is destined to never be realized.\"\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Chr\u002F>\u003Cp>\u003Cem>— Author's Notes —\u003C\u002Fem>\u003C\u002Fp>\u003Cp>PS: New book is out, please support with data.\u003C\u002Fp>",1159,"2026-06-16T13:57:59.511Z","2026-06-17T08:54:56.017Z",1,"Gemini 3.1 Flash Lite","13d18bac561433ad14f96d37f8debb624685554dfb7a1dbef5088305f5865202","writing-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime-chapter-144","writing-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime-chapter-142",269,"https:\u002F\u002Fnovelzhen.com\u002Fimages\u002Fcovers\u002Fwriting-a-diary-in-a-world-of-anime-cover.jpg"]