Chapter 263

"The marriage suitability of blind date is not good, the turmoil in feelings is still quite serious, and there is also the problem of being harassed before. After marriage, these problems seem to have produced some side effects. These side effects caused the originally poor suitability of feelings to become more unstable. After marriage, feelings are unstable, and the days in the future are just making do."

For the future results, one cannot be too extravagant, at least the future that is about to happen in front of one has been changed.

Getting this answer, Ren Amamiya didn't pack up the tarot cards on the table, but leaned back, letting his spine lean on the soft sofa back.

"Participating in the story, trying to change something, this is not a bad thing for me."

"Whether it is from the perspective of human nature, or for the sake of profiting from the diary."

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Night fell, but the Benkei Hot Spring Inn seemed exceptionally quiet.

It was really because they were tossed enough by a fortune-telling, and the whole afternoon was spent by Kogoro Mouri finding them one by one to talk.

"Kogoro is really enthusiastic."

Yumi Horikoshi was also slightly distressed at the moment.

"That kid has been like this since before, it’s not like you don't know."

Kazushi Nakado laughed wantonly on the side, and his smile at this moment carried relaxation, as well as some bitterness.

"I really didn't expect you to have such serious psychological problems."

"Same here. I also didn't expect you to have the idea of solving it once and for all for me."

Yumi Horikoshi also retorted without politeness.

However, she wasn't that angry at the moment; it should be said that she actually had many thoughts of suicide in the past. Or her emotional instability, unconsciously doing things that hurt others, perhaps it was her instinct to want to self-destruct.

Some things were poked open, and some words were forced to be opened, so her mood actually relaxed a lot.

"My idea is inevitably a bit extreme. After all, I just changed the direction of life, and the fiancée side was just discussed. Besides, don't say you are not wrong; I didn't count the harassment for half a year for you."

Kazushi Nakado, who was poked in the sore spot, was also a bit embarrassed; after all, he really had such an idea, but the person who prompted him to have this idea was Yumi.

"Half a year... I was also confused."

"Who said it wasn't?"

For both sides, this half a year was too chaotic, and it also made their spirits in a state of high tension, thus making the wrong choice.

For the past things, both of them didn't want to say so much.

Yumi Horikoshi looked up at the starlight that could still be seen in the darkness, which was like a glimmer of hope in her dark life, and the irritable mood was slightly relieved.

Thus began to think about herself in the past half year.

She hoped that her other half would be the person she loved, and also hoped that the person she loved could have enough tolerance for her, could accept her unbearable side, but she was afraid of being disgusted after telling her past experiences.

The other side is probably that the things of that year made her... hold a lot of guard against the opposite sex.

It was precisely because of this guard that she was always unable to agree to Nakado’s proposal. This situation became more and more obvious as Nakado’s desire to get married became stronger, but with Nakado’s complete departure, her spirit also snapped.

Mania, violent thoughts completely occupied her; the idea of I can't get it and want to completely destroy it sprouted from the bottom of her heart.

It’s really scary to think about it now that I’ve calmed down.

I, should go and see a doctor properly.

Yumi Horikoshi couldn't remember if she had such thoughts in the past, but she understood that under that manic thought, she would still continue to act impulsively according to her past thoughts.

However, it was magical; today, under that situation, not only did she not feel a trace of mania, but she even felt that her heart was very peaceful.

Although she didn't know how the situation appeared, this feeling of complete quietness in her heart made Yumi Horikoshi feel rare relaxation.

It was precisely because of this relaxation in her heart that Yumi Horikoshi had calm thinking, and also understood that her mental state was not stable and needed systematic treatment.

"The topic ends here, it’s not good to let Kogoro find out we’ve been away for too long."

Turning around, Yumi Horikoshi had also made a decision to separate from her past self.

"This should be the last time we meet, in the future, don't disturb each other’s lives."

After knowing Kazushi Nakado’s murderous heart for her, Yumi Horikoshi understood that her mental state had affected many people.

But regardless of whether it was her mental state that caused the influence on others, when Kazushi Nakado had this thought, the best ending for them was separation, and don't meet again in the future.

"Mm."

Kazushi Nakado didn't say any words to stay; 18 years of love, until now he knew the dark experience Yumi had, and it was from the mouth of the friend of Kogoro’s daughter.

Perhaps he should have noticed it earlier.

Unfortunately, this real world does not have so-called perhaps.

Yumi Horikoshi just walked around the corner and bumped into someone.

"You..."

Yumi Horikoshi looked at the person she bumped into, Jun Omura, who was considered the most honest and simple person in their judo club.

But at this moment, his face carried some sadness. Yumi Horikoshi immediately realized that Omura had heard her conversation with Kazushi Nakado.

Yumi Horikoshi laughed.

"Omura, I’m not dead, no need to look like you’re mourning for me, doesn't Kogoro guess it immediately if you look like this?"

"Yumi, your mental illness..."

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Jun Omura was still looking at Yumi with worried emotions.

"As for that, I don't think there is no way to treat it. After this class reunion ends, I plan to find a psychiatrist to cooperate with the treatment, it’s just that I might have to live a life of taking medicine in the future."

Yumi Horikoshi didn't feel anything.

Mental illness still needs to be seen; after having the current peaceful and calm state, she could no longer accept the self that could not be controlled, even if it was controlled by drugs, she didn't want to be a lunatic controlled by emotions forever.

Mental illness also has ways to solve it, it’s just that the conditioning should be longer.

As for how long it takes, Yumi Horikoshi didn't know.

For the past 18 years, she never felt that her spirit had problems, delayed for such a long time, God knows how long recovery takes?

"Yumi, do you... want to try dating me?"

"..."

The sudden confession made Yumi Horikoshi a bit caught off guard; looking back, looking at this Jun Omura who was uneasy because of saying such words, she couldn't help but laugh.

"Omura, I’m a bad woman. I’m not as simple as you see on the surface, for 18 years I have been playing with one person’s feelings."

"...I know."

"???"

"I knew you were dating Nakado during university."

Jun Omura said something that made Yumi Horikoshi even more surprised; she was silent for a while.

"Omura... are you serious?"

"Mm. When we first met... I had a good impression of you."

Yumi Horikoshi truly had no idea; she really did not know that the reticent Omura held such feelings for her.

"Knowing that such a thing happened to me, you still say such things to me?"

"I... don't want to see you have an accident. I didn't know before, but I don't want Yumi to become like that now."

These words were definitely true. Yumi Horikoshi could hear the sincerity in them.

"My mental illness doesn't know when it will be better."

"It doesn't matter. I want to accompany you."

"..."

Yumi Horikoshi sighed, she turned around.

"Then you accompany me for a while. If you feel bored after waiting, leave as soon as possible, I’m not a good woman."

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