Chapter 464: I Will Change Slowly

After venting his complaints, Ren Amamiya continued to soothe Fujiwara while performing a final check on her.

"Mm, it's almost certain. Your psychological issues have more or less recovered."

Yesterday, there were no signs of an outbreak of psychological issues; the day before, only minor problems had appeared.

Time is still a very important medicine.

As time passed, combined with Fujiwara's turmoil over the past two days, Ren Amamiya noticed that Fujiwara had completely suppressed her psychological shadow with another emotion.

This emotion was eighty percent likely to come from him, and it also carried a certain degree of lewdness.

"Hmm~ It's recovered after all."

Hearing the assessment of her condition, Fujiwara Chika's voice was thick with helplessness.

If she recovered, she wouldn't be able to have Hayasaka take her to Ren's place to stay overnight like before; what a pity.

Understanding the implication behind her words, Ren Amamiya could only tap Fujiwara on the head.

"Do you really want that kind of psychological problem to accompany you for a long time? Loss of control and corruption. Do you know how taboo loss of control and corruption are to the extraordinary in that story? They never want to experience their own consciousness crumbling and being ground to pieces bit by bit."

"You're actually complaining that your recovery is too fast."

Puffing out her cheeks, Fujiwara Chika made an adorable cooing sound and turned her head away in a bit of anger.

Ren Amamiya shook his head slightly and shifted his attention to Hayasaka.

"Hayasaka, when you return, explain what happened these past two days to Kaguya. Kaguya isn't an unreasonable person. Mm... she will probably get jealous; I mentioned this when I spoke with her directly about responding to the issue."

"However, Hayasaka, you'd better confess directly to Kaguya after you return."

"Understood."

Hayasaka Ai took a deep breath; she also understood that Fujiwara Young Lady's matter still needed to be confessed to Kaguya Young Lady.

After speaking, Ren Amamiya looked at Hayasaka Ai and slowly extended his hand.

Seeing this, Hayasaka Ai paused slightly, a flush of pink appearing on her face, but she still slowly walked to the bedside and sat on the side not occupied by Fujiwara.

Ren Amamiya put one arm around Hayasaka's waist and pulled her to his side.

This was also the first time Hayasaka Ai experienced such initiative; the pink on her face deepened into a rosy hue, yet she quietly rested her head in Ren's crook of the arm.

"Sorry, I always make the girls take the initiative."

"It's fine."

Hayasaka Ai knew Ren's situation well and naturally understood the reason for his lack of initiative.

"Facing girls, I'm naturally not very good at handling things; this is actually caused by the environment of my previous life."

"I myself am not a very outstanding person; I can only be considered a quite ordinary ordinary person. But precisely because of being overly ordinary, I couldn't bear many things that needed to be shouldered, almost never considered the issue of marriage, and didn't even need to date girls."

Just moments ago, the pouting Fujiwara Chika became interested upon hearing Ren talk about past matters.

"What does it mean that I didn't even need to date girls?"

Recalling the situation of his previous life, Ren Amamiya couldn't help but sigh.

"Because I didn't have the conditions to bear marriage, even if I dated girls, the final result would be that I couldn't take the last step to marriage."

"I personally had almost no contact with girls, plus I was quite a shut-in. After graduation, I found a job I could do at home, which made it even harder to go out. Naturally, there would be no opportunity to meet girls."

"So, I didn't intentionally make the girls take the initiative; I truly didn't know what to do."

"Moreover, I would also worry whether it was just an illusion caused by my own overactive self-consciousness."

"Back then, we had a saying: there are three great illusions in life. First, the phone is vibrating. Second, I can counter-kill. Third, she likes me."

"Decades of life in the previous world, plus fifteen years of life in this world, I have only been an ordinary person. Habitually adopting my former way of thinking, I also worried that some feelings were just my own illusions."

Speaking to this point, Ren Amamiya gave a bitter smile.

"Perhaps, to put it simply, I am actually a very timid person, and someone who is a bit cowardly when facing things."

Hayasaka Ai and Fujiwara Chika, listening quietly, could actually sense it roughly.

Because of Gu Ji, the heart subconsciously maintains distance.

It is not dislike, but because of worry that this subconscious reaction was made.

"Ren... the previous life is just the previous life. This life is still different from the previous one; you are no longer that ordinary person from the past. At least in this life, you should live in a different way."

Hayasaka Ai guided softly.

"I know. It's just that before I became an extraordinary being, I lived as an ordinary person for fifteen years in this life; sometimes, an ordinary person's mindset hasn't changed yet."

If he had possessed special characteristics from birth, perhaps he wouldn't have such a cowardly side. Perhaps he would have established a different kind of confidence from the start and possessed a heart no less than others.

But who could blame him for having the opportunity to become an extraordinary being only after living fifteen years of an ordinary life?

Even facing this opportunity to become an extraordinary being, his attitude was very cautious; it took a year of probing before he opened that Cideji Society.

So, Ren Amamiya admitted he needed time to transform, to change the concepts and ideas he had always held in the past.

It wasn't a change of worldview, nor a change of the thoughts he had built up in the past, but the way he treated others needed to change.

"Actually, the time I used for change was only one month."

The two, having been enlightened, then remembered that from the initial appearance of the diary until now, it had been only one month. Ren's period of change began within this month; it was normal that not everything had been transformed.

"Before, I was a bit cautious, but at least now there are many situations I can be certain about. For example, Kaguya and Sonoko's confessions, and Fujiwara's and your affection."

"After all, even if I'm as stupid as I am, I don't think a girl who thinks about running to a boy's house every day, likes sticking to a boy, and thinks about staying overnight every day would have no feelings for the boy."

This statement made both Fujiwara Chika and Hayasaka Ai blush a bit.

Because that was exactly what the two of them had done over the past week.

"In the future, at least in this aspect, I will slowly begin to change."

"However... I feel that this kind of change of mine seems destined to make me a scumbag. Mm, this kind of thinking also needs to be changed."

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