Chapter 186: I Don't Love You Anymore, Shen Xun

Jiang Lai stared into his eyes: "Even if I die, I will never remarry you."

The words were so heavy, like a boulder, crushing Shen Xun and leaving him breathless.

"Jiang Lai, why…"

Jiang Lai found it truly funny that he could even ask that: "Shen Xun, what gives you the right to think I would reconcile with my cheating ex‑husband?"

Shen Xun choked out: "Forgive me once, you forgive me once, I won't…"

"There is no 'later.'" Jiang Lai cut him off, also signaling the bodyguards to release him; the two German Shepherds she summoned settled squatting in front of her.

Aunt Mo brandished a wok spatula, hands on hips, standing behind Jiang Lai; the bodyguards stood to one side, eyes fixed on Shen Xun's every move.

Jiang Lai: "Shen Xun, do you think forgiveness comes only this once? Every time I think of it, I have to forgive you again, endlessly. Remarrying you would just be me bullying myself, endlessly."

Shen Xun stood rigidly in place.

Jiang Lai asked again: "You didn't just cheat after marriage; even your thoughts about marrying me were impure. I was merely a tool you used to provoke Lin Shutong's concern for you."

"Shen Xun, you're great, you treat me as a stepping stone for your sentimental drama."

Shen Xun slowly widened his eyes; four years had passed—how could Jiang Lai know this?

His purpose in marrying Jiang Lai wasn't pure, but without any affection at all, the marriage wouldn't have been possible.

During the time they spent together before the proposal, he had actually already fallen for her, but his love for Lin Shutong was hard to extract, causing him to overlook a new seed that had taken root in his heart, which then sprouted and grew during the four‑year marriage.

"Jiang Lai, I couldn't discern my own heart; now I see it clearly—the person I like is you."

"Your affection makes me feel hypocritical and disgusted," Jiang Lai's contempt overflowed, "You really loved Lin Shutong, even more than yourself, yet you say you like me?"

"Is it that you like me being a free nanny caring for your family? Or that you like my current status helping your career? Both, right?"

"Shen Xun, I finally see your hypocrisy."

Shen Xun still shook his head vehemently, denying, and said: "If President Shen's patent is gone, it's gone; I don't care about that. What I care about is you, Jiang Lai. Have you forgotten that I accompanied you to your mentor's funeral, took you back to the Fuli Yuan, and faced with you the countless setbacks of graduating and job hunting?"

He tried to awaken Jiang Lai's former affection for him.

Jiang Lai chuckled self‑deprecatingly: "So you also know that the only good you ever did for me are these, and you can't think of anything else."

"I originally cherished you because you appeared at the darkest moment of my life; I treasured that color, I was overjoyed to enter marriage with you, thinking it would bring a truly meaningful family."

"I worked hard to keep the marriage, to keep the family harmonious, not to put you in a difficult position in the middle—what are you doing?"

"Shen Xun, what are you doing?"

Shen Xun pressed his lips together, as if his throat were blocked, unable to utter a single word.

Then let her speak.

Jiang Lai listed them one by one: "I wash your clothes and cook, you are busy sending money to support Lin Shutong's career, I run errands for your family, you are busy flying to celebrate Lin Shutong's birthday…"

"Stop talking, stop talking, Jiang Lai… I'm wrong." Shen Xun lowered his gaze, not daring to look into Jiang Lai's eyes.

"Is that why it won't work?" Jiang Lai had no intention of letting him off: "We are married, you send messages to Lin Shutong courting her, you buy her bags worth hundreds of thousands, you give me matching goods as gifts, you want Lin Shutong to become a dazzling career woman, you want me to quit my job and stay home to have children, you buy her jewelry, you enroll me in parenting classes…"

"Too much, Shen Xun, too much." Jiang Lai said, her eyes gradually becoming wet.

When she stepped out of the situation, as an observer, she even felt sorry for herself.

"I've always wanted children, because a complete family has always meant having kids, but you never agreed. That day you suddenly forced me to want a child, treating it as a gift. From that moment I started thinking of divorcing you."

So that was the time.

Shen Xun's gaze grew even dimmer.

Jiang Lai: "I originally wanted to discuss divorce with you properly, to let you be with your 'white moonlight', but you wouldn't let me go. Everyone urged you to divorce, and you refused all of them."

"Shen Xun, you want to wear me out to death in this marriage."

"No." Shen Xun explained hoarsely, "What I gave Lin Shutong was only to compensate, to make up for not being able to give her a marriage. I know clearly I won't divorce you; I can't bear to lose you, I can't let you go, Jiang Lai."

"Is your marriage some brag-worthy thing? In this marriage, you're lofty above me while I crawl below." Jiang Lai shook her head, "It's unequal, it's wrong."

Ke Zhongyu told her, it's wrong.

Shen Xun, already aware of his inaction in this marriage, said: "I will change, Jiang Lai."

Jiang Lai remained unmoved.

Aunt Mo listened to Jiang Lai's every word from beside her, wiping away tears several times; seeing Shen Xun made her so angry her chest ached.

"What a sin, Miss Jiang let such a brute coax her, enduring four years as a wife with all the labor and resentment, gaining nothing, yet pouring in time, money, and health."

"President Shen." Aunt Mo could no longer stand it, stepped forward and said, "Do you know how thin Miss Jiang is? She's 168 cm tall and only 80 jin, she doesn't have to be a star or a model, she's as thin as a bamboo pole. You like her, yet you don't notice how skinny she is?"

"Miss Jiang also has hypoglycemia and anemia; you like her, yet you don't notice?"

"Have you ever seen Miss Jiang's hands? Oh, now they're of little use to you; she no longer washes dishes herself—there's a dishwasher, plus hand cream, a whole box in the warehouse; after using it I can still buy more!"

Aunt Mo grew more agitated, her saliva almost spitting onto Shen Xun's face.

Jiang Lai reached out and pulled her back: "Aunt Mo, he's been bitten by the big German Shepherd and the little one; I don't know if they've been vaccinated—keep your distance."

I thought Jiang Lai was worried about herself, but actually she was concerned about a nanny; Shen Xun's stomach also began to ache.

Jiang Lai warned him: "Shen Xun, stop disturbing my life, stop bringing disgrace upon yourself. If you truly think you're wrong, write me a confession admitting you cheated on Lin Shutong."

Zhong Lü once said, this also counts as strong evidence.

However, Shen Xun wouldn't write it; she had no real expectation.

Shen Xun looked at her disappointed eyes, his heart suddenly pained, and said: "I'll write!"

Jiang Lai unexpectedly gave him a glance.

"I'll write, I can write. After I finish the confession, can you remarry me?"

So there was a condition.

Jiang Lai: "No, never."

"Jiang Lai." Shen Xun called her earnestly and gently, "Do you have not a single bit of love left for me?"

Aunt Mo: "Pah! Shameless, you have nothing to give yet you have the nerve to ask others for it?"

"It's gone." Jiang Lai answered him seriously, "I don't love you anymore, Shen Xun."

Shen Xun's tears that hadn't fallen at the Chi Family Medical Clinic burst forth at this moment.