Chapter 156: Mewtwo

Mt. Silver, this place is full of Mewtwo's memories. A year and a half ago, Team Rocket found its hiding place for some reason. They attempted to control its power again and sent a large number of personnel and troops in a desperate attempt.

However, with the assistance of several young boys and girls and a strange trio, Team Rocket's plan was aborted again, and it wiped their memories of this history.

Afterward, Mewtwo sent the "cloned Pokémon" that followed it to live in every corner of this land.

Although they were clones, they also had real lives, so they embarked on a journey and chose the path of free living.

Later, Mewtwo itself also embarked on a journey, looking for the answer as a life form.

It had been to the cave in Cerulean City, left traces in big cities, walked through many distant places, witnessed myths and legends, fought with powerful humans, and even had strange space-time caves... After experiencing so many things, now, it returned to Mt. Silver.

The space under Mt. Silver was still so large, Cerulean Cave was sparkling, and moss covered the rock walls, but the Pokémon that once lived here were no longer here.

This is the feeling called loneliness, right?

Recalling what happened, Mewtwo felt puzzled, and, a point of regret was...

It didn't see "Giovanni" at the time.

If Giovanni was also among the Team Rocket members who attacked Mt. Silver, then it could have wiped his memory by the way, so that he could never remember its existence again.

When traveling, Mewtwo also learned why Giovanni didn't appear at Mt. Silver at that time.

Together with Giovanni, the executives of Team Rocket seemed to have been defeated by some young boys and girls. However, Team Rocket's actions were just turning from the surface to the dark side. Giovanni seemed to have been remotely controlling the operation of Team Rocket, but he himself seemed to be no longer at the Team Rocket headquarters.

That guy, in order to pursue true strength, embarked on a journey again, and even left a sentence in Team Rocket:

"... Let's be clear. No matter how strong a person is, it is possible to be defeated. If you don't admit failure, you can't move forward. In order to create a stronger organization, I am setting off alone now. I will revive Team Rocket one day."

When thinking of this, some wonderful feelings rose in Mewtwo's heart.

That man who regarded Pokémon as power and had no love at all would also have a day of learning from scratch. When he was defeated by a young boy, it seemed that even his pride was shattered together.

Mewtwo took out the Pokémon device. It learned to use this machine when traveling in human big cities, and through a unique illusion, faked an identity and obtained the right to use this machine. And just now, human society is in a period of rapid development, and for Mewtwo, the usage of the Internet is really quite convenient after mastering it.

"Thank you for the items, the Calyrex doll is very effective."

Just holding this doll, it seemed to forget all troubles, indulged in the atmosphere of peace, the trauma in the heart was also healed, and even recalled some things that Mewtwo itself had not noticed.

So, the world is so vivid?

Experienced many things, embarked on a journey and returned to the "hometown" again, but there were still lingering shadows in the heart, and now, those shadows were dissipating, just like the winter snow meeting the warm sun of early spring, ice and snow melting, turning into streams, nurturing vigorous vitality.

Flowers, trees, sky, breeze, clouds, sun, rainbow, ocean, forest, gravel, earth... experience, perceive, think, finally... return to peace, but get enlightenment in the ordinary!

Mewtwo @ Xiang Guangtai in the group and replied with such a sentence. After thinking for a while, it ran under the purchase page of the shop and sent the same reply.

In human society, many shops will ask people to do this. After getting the "good reviews" from customers, they can attract more customers to come, which is a virtuous cycle for the shop's business.

Hmm, in order to express support for someone, one can also vigorously purchase the other party's products. Of course, Mewtwo can know through Future Sight that the items produced by the workshop are genuine and have powerful power. It's a pity that there are very few types of items that enhance psychic power now.

However, it doesn't need those items that increase power anymore, because its power, even if not the strongest in the world, is one of the few.

Power is not everything. It understood this point in its journey a year ago.

It only wants to pursue a place for a peaceful life now... Right, a corner of the world where no one can find it, just like the place where that craftsman lives.

Mewtwo unconsciously entered a state of meditation.

In a state of peace of mind, it recalled more things from the past, and among them were some flashing fragments, which made Mewtwo's brows slightly frown.

Little girl, and some Pokémon.

Mewtwo felt something dripping on its face. It reached out to touch it in confusion and found that it was its own tears.

Does it have something like tears?

What was the feeling just now, and what were those memories? Blurred fragments, has it experienced those things itself?

"Tears... when a living being feels pain in its body, there will be tears. Only humans will shed tears because of sadness..."

Strange memories emerged in large numbers. That was the memory of the era when the heart was most peaceful and innocent, but Mewtwo felt very strange. A sense of fatigue swept over it. Mewtwo hesitated and opened the private chat interface with Xiang Guangtai:

"I want to modify the content I just sent. The Calyrex doll made me recall some strange memories. Is this normal? That seems to be the memory shortly after I was born. Is that the psychological barrier hidden in the deepest part of my heart?"

After a while, Mewtwo waited for a reply:

【Can you be specific? Although I am not a psychologist, I must know the exact symptoms to guide you. Although this is not my main job, who told you to be my customer?】

【Since it was my product that caused you to have such problems, then I will naturally help you.】

Mewtwo was silent. It thought for a while and disguised its identity. That was an identity it often used in human society, and it modified the content of the memories it just recalled, perfectly integrating it into the past of the "faked identity."

【I see. You had a little girl and three Pokémon as playmates in your childhood, but you only recalled this memory after getting the Calyrex doll. After your memory recovered, those Pokémon and that girl left suddenly, right?】

Mewtwo: "Yes... and, I also remembered, her name."

"Amber. Yes, she is Amber."

Although the name in the memory is actually "Amber-2," Mewtwo recalled and knew that the girl was not a real "human"! So code names like 2 are not to be said.

Who is she, what is she?

Why did such an impulse emerge in the heart, wanting to see her again?

【...】

"What's wrong?"

【No, nothing. Psychological trauma in childhood is often covered up by reality, but it has not disappeared, but taken root in the deepest part of the heart and become a hidden pain. Do you know, forgetting is actually a kind of self-protection mechanism of the human heart, and it is one of the important ways to maintain mental health.】

【It is a psychological defense mechanism that helps us walk out of negative emotions. After all, forgetting those unpleasant or even painful experiences can reduce our psychological pressure and help maintain emotional stability.】

【Traumatic experiences will also lead to our avoidance behavior, that is, we will consciously avoid situations that may trigger traumatic memories. This avoidance behavior may manifest as not wanting to step into certain places, not wanting to contact specific people, and even avoiding discussions related to certain topics... I remember you said in the group before that if there is no necessity, you don't want to talk to other psychics, right? This is also a kind of avoidance.】

【However, you should not be simply avoiding psychics. If it is to avoid their "peeping," it is reasonable, but now it seems that you seem to be avoiding "humans," or "strangers."】

Mewtwo was silent.

A word awakened the dreamer. It thought carefully at this time and found that it was really like this.

Although it also experienced many things and traveled to many places, and met more humans, even when using a faked identity, Mewtwo still deliberately avoided noisy crowds and avoided too much contact with humans. This is not only because it is afraid of its own identity being exposed, but also because... it really has a sense of alienation from humans.

If it really wants to name a human it recognizes, then it is only the young boy named Ash.

"So, the best way is to forget these memories again, right? But the impulse in my heart to see her cannot be suppressed..."

But I know that the girl no longer exists. Mewtwo muttered.

【Forgetting is of course one of the best psychological protection mechanisms. As long as you give up the past, you can face a new future. But I think you should have understood the "meaning of life," right?】

Mewtwo suddenly became alert!

The meaning of life, who am I—this is the question that the former Mewtwo often talked about and kept thinking about in its heart. But after seeing the young boy named Ash, this question had been answered.

——"At least, this means that I am a creature that can live on this planet."

However, after it wiped the memories of a large number of Team Rocket members, the only people who still knew the questions it had thought about were those young boys and girls who had helped it, as well as Giovanni!

"Who are you?"

【Ah?】

Seeing the shopkeeper's confused answer, Mewtwo was also stunned, and then patted its head.

It seems that it thought too much.

By the way, the shopkeeper is a human with miraculous power. Although it seems that he can't predict the future, maybe "the meaning of life" is actually a broad philosophical proposition. It should be frequently mentioned in psychology, probably. It has no research on psychology.

【... Although I don't know why you suddenly asked this just now, it seems that my words have touched the deepest part of your heart. Hmm, I will count it as you understanding the meaning of life. In short, what I want to say is that once a person finds the meaning of life, he will not only feel happy but also have the strong ability to deal with various hardships. When facing huge pain, guilt, and death, these tragic factors, he can still remain optimistic.】

【There is only one true heroism in the world, and that is to love life after seeing the truth of life. This is what a human said.】

In an instant, Mewtwo felt a beam of light shoot into its heart!

That was not caused by the ability of the Calyrex doll, but the power felt from the words. A powerful spirit seemed to be transmitted from the other side of the distant earth to its will and deeply influenced it!

Yes... no matter what the past was, since it is in the present, it means that the past has ended.

However, after recognizing the truth of reality... I don't know why, but I feel a little unwilling?

The girl's voice, the words she once said to herself, also recalled.

"Live on, it will definitely be very interesting."

That was what the girl who called herself Amber-2 said.

【So, after saying so much, I want to give you some items. I hope that after you use them, you must cheer up.】

【There are three ways to overcome childhood psychological trauma. The first is forgetting. Although escaping is shameful, it is useful. And the second is to face it, step over it, and then defeat it.】

【And the third one, you, want to see her again? As long as you see her, all problems will be solved, right? Although I don't guarantee that this can succeed, but... I want to give you a gift.】

Mewtwo's hands clenched, and its breathing stopped slightly.

Legendary craftsman...

Please... help me!

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