Chapter 1489: No. 105: The most bitter person has no more youth

No. 105: The most bitter person has no more youth

Professional Connect, professional 'connection', naturally refers to a professional negotiation.

Xin Yuzhou has an appearance unrelated to elementary school students, and in her mind lies knowledge beyond what ordinary adults can match, but unfortunately, knowledge does not equal experience.

The chaotic confusion originating from the internet merely diversified her vocabulary, rather than truly becoming the basis for how she interacts with others.

Indeed, this is quite commendable. After all, what educators fear most is often not that children fail to learn, but that they learn everything, or learn the bad instead of the good.

Writing on a blank page is easy, but correction is much more troublesome.

Xin Yuzhou possesses judgment outstanding for her current age group, yet this judgment remains unrelated to experience.

What is experience?

Experience is what one has personally seen, heard, or done, and the sum of understanding and gain from those things.

This often determines everything about that person.

Whether personality and preferences, or conduct in dealing with affairs and so on, your past shapes your present; and Xin Yuzhou's past, though one could say it's been tumultuous, that's not wrong, and though one could say it's colorful, it's all been about others, for she has indeed seen much, but her own story is lackluster.

To her, there are still too many strangers in the world, too many misunderstandings that need clearing up, so she also did not, despite the abundance of knowledge and observations in her mind, become indifferent or resistant to classroom and life's teachings.

Rather, she embraces it gladly.

Whether classmates, teachers, or other trainers and staff, even the mercenaries hired to patrol Central, Xin Yuzhou has, over these past few months in Central, been intensely engaging in conversation with people, and even more intensely observing her surroundings.

Someone has often remarked that the girl's appearance is timely, for usually it is after the girl has been watching for a while that the opportunity finally arrives.

But compared to the saying 'What you think is a chance encounter is actually another's painstaking effort,' Xin Yuzhou lacks such strong purpose.

She is merely pursuing the Connect she constantly mentions, that is, connect/linkage.

Forming connections with others is Xin Yuzhou's goal; the Connect she constantly mentions, actually short for CETI, the extraterrestrial life communication, is also her enduring goal.

Communication and observation are exactly her way of cognizing and exploring the world.

This method is exactly the same as that of her true guardian; it's hard to say whether it's a refinement of her original preferences or an imitation of that fiend's conduct, but there is one thing that can be certain.

That is, she has indeed singled out Aomo Lindun for special attention.

Just like her black-haired senior who peers into the subconscious through the dream realm, she also looks forward to this segment, as if facing a long-awaited performance.

But its essence is still different.

Compared to Chazuo's expectation driven by hobby, Xin Yuzhou's attitude toward this segment mixes in more thirst for knowledge; in other words, she regards it as a kind of learning.

Only a demonstration with great reference and research value can be called a 'professional Connect'.

Once you grasp this, you won't find it hard to understand why Aomo's answer is the somewhat vague 'as much as possible'.

Obviously, he isn't very confident about holding a teaching match.

Because his tactic of letting the Beast King and Sirius both appear is inherently extremely bold; achieving its probing effect also amounts to startling the snake.

It's not hard to imagine Aomo Lindun being somewhere in this venue, and at the same time, Aomo himself did not pretend to be unfamiliar with Xin Yuzhou.

Indeed, to the mass media, the current Xin Yuzhou is still far from being worthy of mention alongside the Sirius symbol; to the target audience, she also cannot compare to the attention brought by the Beast King, so she should barely be considered safe.

But that's only barely.

Xin Yuzhou's birth publicity was not a big fanfare, but her nominal guardian did stir up a topic for a while.

To Aomo, this is a loophole, a faint clue that can be caught as soon as one looks into it.

And he thinks that if he follows this clue all the way, then looks toward the Dawn Minister who is especially kind to Xin Yuzhou, a vague suspicion will form, and vigilance should follow.

This is not outside his plan; rather, the situation laid out in the open is itself his deliberate doing, for a more accurate probe, probing the other's level and quality.

Although his cautious strength allows him to consider the possibility of 'himself wits and courage against the air,' and to adjust his plans accordingly, but when such futile efforts pile up, he still wants to conserve some energy.

Quite ashamed.

Although someone is only a dozen days away from turning twenty, the feeling of youthful inexhaustible energy is indeed gone.

He finally feels that his habitual thinking is too much and too fine; although it cannot be said to be entirely unnecessary, it is clearly open to major optimization.

For example——if he could clarify at the outset what composition the opposing organization is, then he wouldn't need to make so many extended plan backups, right?

Although the backup plan remains a key he cannot discard in his mind, these months of experience have indeed made him feel that he previously was too extravagant.

Extravagantly squandering the youth's mental energy that has nowhere to be placed, regardless of the situation one must consider every minute detail.

Ordinarily it's no big deal, but during the especially busy present-full period, this obviously amounts to drawing a line and imprisoning oneself, suspecting self‑inflicted doom.

Thus, adhering to the style of eliminating doubts and making decisions when hesitant, optimizing the thought model is naturally put on the agenda right away; but during those months when time was especially tight, such optimization of the model was not conspicuous.

It looks merely like an upgrade of simple time management, but it's the struggling ugly state of a dead present‑full seeking life; to Aomo's entourage it seemed nothing special—until now——

——the three months of continuously advancing the optimization process to adapt, the horse‑girl‑like training of Aomo Lindun, only then did he await what he hoped would come later, yet couldn't help thinking of an early‑arriving sudden event.

He now feels he is not doing well.

A stage that better showcases change is often also a stage of greater trial.

On such a stage, the occasional awkwardness and conflict that well up in his heart are even clearer and more intense than before, occasionally giving him a feeling of returning to youth.

But while others' 'return to youth' chases after lost beauty, he is returning to that prison of self‑torment.

Compared to logical optimization in personal affairs, the streamlined process in such cases often comes accompanied by many worries wrapped up in great responsibility.

——once failed, the ensuing problems can become huge.

——make some mistakes, and it's unknown how many people on site will be affected.

——if there is any omission, perhaps it will implicate the innocent on site……

Thought founded on the premise of worldly impermanence, like the worry‑prone man who frets over the sky, both fleeting and like that man perhaps truly having experienced a meteorite fall, hard to ignore.

But unlike in youth, where hesitation mostly stemmed from personal feelings and social tug‑of‑war, this kind of hesitation over great duty and responsibility often gives Aomo a clearer, more decisive judgment.

After all, it's nothing more than the formerly rigid mindset clashing with the present situation; compared to youth, where he could wrestle with indecision for months, now Aomo, when implementing plans, shows no trace of hesitation.

He certainly has hesitated before.

At the outset, when letting Bi Ze's three 'people' enter the field, and in those few seconds before he puts on his helmet in the restroom,

During those seconds he had many thoughts, but while putting on the helmet, attempting an ancient‑style roleplay, repeatedly grasping the state of the 'Dawn Minister,' they all got pushed to the periphery.

Under those three lines proceeding side by side, in that exceptionally bold move, he had no regrets, only some doubt that it could not meet the new universe's expectation of "expert-level socializing".

After all, the situation created by this move, although not abnormal, also does not satisfy the textbook-style "uprightness".

It is neither a model nor upright.

Compared to the mindset he had as a youth—no matter what was said, his mind was always filled with wanting to grasp everything, control everything, greedy yet also upright—he has now begun to practice subtraction.

Moreover, he takes a daring, unconventional approach, far more rash and reckless than before.

Indeed, this is merely appearance, but even if that child could see the inner details from the specifics, Aomo still feels this is not something a child should learn.

If her junior high school classmates were to encounter him, who knows which direction that child's image would rush toward.